tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-44100061505870899782024-03-14T07:09:15.474+01:00Bipolar's Journey To LifeBipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.comBlogger249125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-5431096784013567472023-05-15T13:49:00.000+02:002023-05-15T13:49:14.588+02:00Day 248: Word Perfection - is it Liveable?<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpl2BRgpm36EhO4SXZ_b63mIJ7wCCieqVX3ELhTS-7J9hfW5fMtXjTH6l5jyEjjzOjNxV1tD3vFquvx3KaAIf1tA02RhqlbWQcBXT2FXewCnGm_QqmP_JHzVuFX4g_EuuCxIzToGiijw1kfOoLnZHyUeRIVREuJW-weVC1daBnj_AM9NJX6XfCWgk-PA/s1200/perfection.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1200" data-original-width="1200" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhpl2BRgpm36EhO4SXZ_b63mIJ7wCCieqVX3ELhTS-7J9hfW5fMtXjTH6l5jyEjjzOjNxV1tD3vFquvx3KaAIf1tA02RhqlbWQcBXT2FXewCnGm_QqmP_JHzVuFX4g_EuuCxIzToGiijw1kfOoLnZHyUeRIVREuJW-weVC1daBnj_AM9NJX6XfCWgk-PA/s320/perfection.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>Recently I have been approached with this word, let's take a look at its definition</p><p><u>Perfection</u>: </p><p>- the state or quality of being perfect</p><p>- a person or thing considered to be perfect</p><p>- the action or process of improving something until it is faultless.</p><p>Let's take a look at the word <u>Perfect</u>:</p><p>- having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be.</p><p>- absolute; complete (used for emphasis).</p><p>- make (something) completely free from faults or defects; make as good as possible.</p><p>---------------</p><p>I like the one that says 'having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics'</p><p>It says 'having the required or desirable elements,...' So what would be those required or desirable elements to be 'Perfect' in this world?</p><p>To me, to be Perfect or live the world Perfection in this world - what comes to mind, is being someone that can 'move people' to action to change the world/system we live in currently. But maybe I am missing the point, because recently I saw I cannot 'make anyone change' so then I define the word Perfection as Self Perfection - the process of continually improving oneself - has no beginning, has no end(yet you can transcend the mind and get to the physical and recreate yourself in a minimum of 7 years, the 7 year Journey To Life). And if you say that that is perfection, then probably I can be one that lived this definition of Perfection to a tiny degree I would say from my perspective, as I have so much to walk such as redefine words for myself, do mind-constructs on many past issues, basically since the beginning of my existence up until now - plus all my future 'projections'. </p><p>But hey, I am doing it in every moment as well, checking to not have desires, desire to change others - that one I started recently to apply- and it has been great - now practicing breathing. </p><p>It is ongoing and has no end, the degree to what you can expand. I think I have to do so much on my past but now I cannot think of a specific point I have not visited with self forgiveness, so for example the point of my dog that had to be put down and I reacted to it so much, I have already forgiven myself for it but not with doing mind constructs - so maybe now is more time to redefine words, re-create myself.</p><p>I don't consider myself perfect in any way, shape or form (as per my old definition of perfection), and someone approached me with this word recently - so maybe I have some desirable elements or qualities that this person would like for himself -- and I think that is totally doable, that someone can do what they see in someone else - be an example.</p><p>I am very flattered and surprised if someone says I am 'perfect' in my application because I don't see myself as perfect - for example I have 'fallen' many times, but also get back up Every Time -- maybe because for myself I have set some other desirable elements, qualities and characteristics to have before I can start of thinking, if at all, of this word Perfect(ion) about myself. </p><p>One quality I would say I have is that I don't give up, I may postpone something but never give up - Even in my studies, I would not give up and kept enrolling year after year, so sometimes it is best to redirect oneself and not be hardheaded -- but giving up like 'I can't do that' - that is simply not true, if someone else has done it before, rest assured You can do it too, and if it has never been done before, know that Everything is Possible.</p><p>For me I would like to have the ability to be always aware of my breathe, of me breathing, no matter what - I think that is a form of perfection. This individual that approached me with the word Perfection has been able to achieve it in 10 years, to at every moment be aware of breath, even when talking, from the moment of waking up until sleep. I think it's great. Because at any point you are either breathing or in your mind - so to get out of the mind into the physical breathing is key. </p><p>I have started today to practice being aware of my breathing and I see I have more confidence in myself for example when I am driving and I see a woman, before or if I am not breathing I have some reticence to look at her, like it is not allowed -- while I am breathing I can look, like naturally -- as we are designed go be aware of what is in front of us, not hide parts of reality. Also I am much more effective at any type of work or for example TT while aware of my breath.</p><p>I also want to say that I am single so maybe thats why I look at woman more lol</p><p>Enjoy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word Perfection as someone that can 'move people' instead of someone that can 'move himself' to do what's Best for All</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Perfection is an idea I have.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to redefine the word Perfection for myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that redefining words is key</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live up to the word Perfection by doing what I think a 'Perfect person' would do - instead of being myself and using common sense and the principle of what is Best for All to assess what to do</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do for myself what I want others to do</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide behind trying to make others do what I think must be done</p><p>I commit myself to do the things I think one must do - Walk what is Best for All at all times</p><p>I commit myself to make sure every penny I have is directed towards what is Best for All</p><p>I commit myself to in every breathe direct myself to do what is best for Me and thus for All, within the principle of what is Best for All</p><p>When, and as I see myself wanting to live an 'idea' of the word Perfection, I stop and I breathe, I realize and remind myself that Perfection is to live what is Best for All at all times, and that requires Self Honesty Self Forgiveness and Practical Application (A.K.A. The tools)</p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-91516396943066661522023-05-12T08:10:00.001+02:002023-05-12T08:10:56.254+02:00Day 247: Business/Sales part 1<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7PzG14n_gQAIFkQUOB6FiIVwQ0VkFiPANrG6yT9_c9pbBc8UnvqjVJ5UMz7ouJniXDH77_0iRUei5VMhDlaC6pF-l2R_a0HSxkAksVyiDFTsieCUfJ_fFxerDbxlipZoXXvPyznUywXeSKgjVgxvdtMjeHxgGL4Iesmej1PtQqpCM8lNgLvR6voshxA/s1400/norton-shake.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="935" data-original-width="1400" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj7PzG14n_gQAIFkQUOB6FiIVwQ0VkFiPANrG6yT9_c9pbBc8UnvqjVJ5UMz7ouJniXDH77_0iRUei5VMhDlaC6pF-l2R_a0HSxkAksVyiDFTsieCUfJ_fFxerDbxlipZoXXvPyznUywXeSKgjVgxvdtMjeHxgGL4Iesmej1PtQqpCM8lNgLvR6voshxA/s320/norton-shake.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>When I think about sales I think about the times that I was a salesmen of soap for cars (or more foam spray) I sold very little. One time a guy with a bigger car looked at me and said '- Do I look like I clean my car? and I said 'No' and then he gave me a tip and told me to go buy icecream LOL</p><p>I also was working as a door to door salesman but it wasn't a product what we sold more a change of energy company.</p><p>Both selling jobs I quit without making a profit and my mother would tell me to stop selling stuff.</p><p>Then I can think about the time I was talking to a relative about Desteni and she seemed interested but later on I saw it wasn't the case, so I gave up.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive I cannot sell or only sell very little</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive I don't have the ability to sell</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belive that there is reward in giving up, like the icecream and the guy that didn't buy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to link self deception with sales</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of salespeople as scams</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge salespeople as sleazy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge business as difficult</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see business as something only older people can do</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't have the power to do a business/own a business/participate in a business</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a sale is something magical difficult to find instead of seeing it for what it is, something you create.</p><p><br /></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-82783790098595779032023-03-27T22:07:00.003+02:002023-03-27T22:07:46.210+02:00Day 246: New Chance/Change<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHK2pLX51AAOwZvA4c0IebCtbqp4oUw8iv2Ob6yhMbCRcjngHbfLwQ340H6bSTAV_iAbfvRAbQctmyTKjD-bazcqxpMZWwXwiFqoFrJA_FrQnlI3mAELdUeQ5u3gNNJ5CkNEwfkpngqPPdeYswSw8_h6pHPvGwsjpVl6gRtvImZ-6PLdNnUsIXqG5kYA/s275/download%20(3).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="183" data-original-width="275" height="183" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHK2pLX51AAOwZvA4c0IebCtbqp4oUw8iv2Ob6yhMbCRcjngHbfLwQ340H6bSTAV_iAbfvRAbQctmyTKjD-bazcqxpMZWwXwiFqoFrJA_FrQnlI3mAELdUeQ5u3gNNJ5CkNEwfkpngqPPdeYswSw8_h6pHPvGwsjpVl6gRtvImZ-6PLdNnUsIXqG5kYA/s1600/download%20(3).jpg" width="275" /></a></div><br /><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
hide from myself</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that I can’t run away from myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to value myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to respect myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that I will be eternally with myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that either I deal with the self I have become
here or in the hereafter - but I will face all of myself inevitably<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to love myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
chase after feel good experiences<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
distract myself in order to not face myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not face myself as my past, but relive in constantly instead<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I can’t face my past<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that my past is stronger than me<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
take myself for granted<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
define myself through my past/according to my past<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that who I am is not what I do - or did<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that I have the power to face myself as my past<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that I am not my past<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that I am not the experiences that I have lived<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that who I really am is Life, I am one and Equal as Life<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
live out patterns of abuse/self-abuse<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
abuse myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that I should honor myself as Life that I am - no
matter what<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
blame others for my life experiences<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I commit myself to take responsibility for myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I commit myself to investigate my past and release it with
self-forgiveness<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I commit myself to not stop until I am One and Equal as Life
again<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I commit myself to show myself that it is possible to change<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I commit myself to remind myself to be gentle with myself
yet firm<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I commit myself to remind myself that I am capable of
changing<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-31415435850160472462023-03-27T01:52:00.002+02:002023-03-27T01:52:53.292+02:00Day 245: Addictions Help<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFAP8iaToXaWOUzYaJK9P2CUo8iNwSCGO8bivMTLSiZrjkdeCUSGpuHcpLufzvh3wDZfewKoG1cNXN26CuZiMLZLPPwzza9PO0J3YtpXf6BYNVOzzdhX-lOrzEO-vHXB7bPC7Xgu_e7vz6LLDXs8yf5-K79LwgbhWvFcOhC6z1mThH7dBf3C1Sff9EPQ/s1250/Hope-in-Addiction-Recovery.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="703" data-original-width="1250" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFAP8iaToXaWOUzYaJK9P2CUo8iNwSCGO8bivMTLSiZrjkdeCUSGpuHcpLufzvh3wDZfewKoG1cNXN26CuZiMLZLPPwzza9PO0J3YtpXf6BYNVOzzdhX-lOrzEO-vHXB7bPC7Xgu_e7vz6LLDXs8yf5-K79LwgbhWvFcOhC6z1mThH7dBf3C1Sff9EPQ/s320/Hope-in-Addiction-Recovery.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p>Any and all addiction is self enslavement, sex, drugs, alcohol, you name it. What will stand, you or the addiction? Will you die an addict? Or a self-created being? Die well, my friend.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of my
addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear if I let go of
my addictions I will lose myself<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and
understand that my addictions do not help me<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify as my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will not have
fun without my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will be
less if I stop my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be satisfied with my
addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it will be
easier to just keep my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for my
addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my true potential<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that without
my addictions I am still here<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I will
not lose myself I stop my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will lose
my identity if I stop my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and
understand that without my addictions I am not enslaved<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that my
addictions enslave me<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
commit myself to let go of my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
commit myself to identify every addiction and stop it<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
commit myself to remind myself that addictions are self-enslavement<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
commit myself to remind myself that there is nothing that I cannot do<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I
commit myself to remind myself that I am powerful and capable enough to stop
every one and all of my addictions<o:p></o:p></span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";">I commit myself to show myself that I am stronger than my addictions</span></p><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji",sans-serif; mso-bidi-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Segoe UI Emoji";"><br /></span></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-36371910449276276422023-03-03T02:07:00.001+01:002023-03-03T02:07:39.908+01:00Day 244: Everything Explained Briefly<p> </p><p class="MsoNormal"></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyWbrHGF3amCCBZvt4gyLe6wzaGscG4PbDGaZeHXBIpt3sl0kQg86cNLfBz56l3Te9quAdGkgObWWevt6TuvCw1rF4Vlcznzciu-IO-sRLQ-gM7kbFHqHoju00eGRdW-HR2GX9eUE1sJgTux4fEJgnTyKUV_NLfRM3mFt1BpD7uOWpIjunQP6PJZWVlQ/s286/ff.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="176" data-original-width="286" height="176" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyWbrHGF3amCCBZvt4gyLe6wzaGscG4PbDGaZeHXBIpt3sl0kQg86cNLfBz56l3Te9quAdGkgObWWevt6TuvCw1rF4Vlcznzciu-IO-sRLQ-gM7kbFHqHoju00eGRdW-HR2GX9eUE1sJgTux4fEJgnTyKUV_NLfRM3mFt1BpD7uOWpIjunQP6PJZWVlQ/s1600/ff.jpg" width="286" /></a></div><br />In the Universe this is how it is structured: A bunch of people/beings
in ‘heaven’ and a bunch of people/beings on Earth, if you die you go to ‘heaven’
but it’s really not better unless you are in a very, very bad place on Earth, as
without the physical it is not possible to 'birth oneself as Life in the physcal'. This all
means that there is no God – only a bunch of people/beings – And we have to
figure out how to establish Heaven on Earth. But even this All is Knowledge and
Information – it really doesn’t matter but to realize we are all Equal and One –
One and Equal as Life - and as such we should honor all forms of Life, and life
is Here on Earth.<o:p></o:p><p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see myself as a creator<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe there is a higher power<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that unless I see the common sense that no one
will save me, I am in effect doomed in this life<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to trust myself as an Equal<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see myself as an Equal<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that I have power as an Equal<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that there is no one above or below<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear others<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that we are all the same<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see, realize and understand that all is Here as Me<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to realize the meaning of being Equal<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>see, realize and understand that I
am in fact Here<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that that I am not my thoughts, feelings or emotions<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that I am in fact equal to everyone else<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to honor the fact that I am equal with everyone else by acting on it through establishing
Equality on Earth <o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear Equality<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that there is nothing to fear anywhere<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>see that the potentiality of Life is
not the same as Life in fact.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-38354575090361972972023-02-28T02:27:00.001+01:002023-02-28T02:27:02.875+01:00Day 243: General Self-Forgiveness I<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdsvGSG_HhqLMvYPz7W9MrHfP0pnKQhVy7dt7doVlusJDe4cC_vlHQUs7Fn9CBwNmx2PaO6hHeoaa4aHugGOfiplKcfRJ46QKv8XZSTiqkhwC6Uo39Dx0bNuQ0RGtlftYCNDC3XU-QWYP9gqwWrEt5Bx0_cZyg0Snz8VQ9FUmMFSXHhIPNBDQX4iOAPg/s275/download%20(2).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="183" data-original-width="275" height="183" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdsvGSG_HhqLMvYPz7W9MrHfP0pnKQhVy7dt7doVlusJDe4cC_vlHQUs7Fn9CBwNmx2PaO6hHeoaa4aHugGOfiplKcfRJ46QKv8XZSTiqkhwC6Uo39Dx0bNuQ0RGtlftYCNDC3XU-QWYP9gqwWrEt5Bx0_cZyg0Snz8VQ9FUmMFSXHhIPNBDQX4iOAPg/s1600/download%20(2).jpg" width="275" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that I am Here<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that at any given moment I can decide whether I
will support myself or abuse myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that unless I am breathing I am not Here present<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that all judgement is self-judgement<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to be famous<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that I am One and Equal as Life<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see, realize and understand that I have the same vehicle as a human being as
all other humans and thus the same capabilities or potentiality for expression<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
constrain my self expression by living in the mind<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
forget who I am<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to use this opportunity as this one life to express myself as what is Best for
All<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>tell others how to live instead
of living it myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
get lost in desire<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
get lost in energy<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not trust myself<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear my own self expression<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that I am enough and don’t ‘need’ someone else
to be allright<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to remove myself from this world<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that there is no other world or existence waiting
for me elsewhere, but this one that requires correction<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to give up<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that there is a way or ways to do things and
way or ways not to do them, and I have to choose wisely<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that unless I change myself, nothing will
change.<o:p></o:p></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-55649021499355971252023-02-26T22:38:00.001+01:002023-02-26T22:38:12.512+01:00Day 242: Change is Difficult - Not Changing is Worse<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdEo-t7hVOODG9lHEA-ox4rg1hrW6XCh-J8pmjpIztu0FmQ7zNial3NiwicXCteEiAiryrEiblRfHK284dqiMAE7zfuweCFRwFC5CsRsV_hXW-NbSyHsa-LrpdRGFg6lUtQhnm5wpZLchjuVu0OLThBk3UY2m4SSAfb8YUd1uJndMhf2nR9znJGNc2lQ/s300/download%20(1).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="168" data-original-width="300" height="168" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhdEo-t7hVOODG9lHEA-ox4rg1hrW6XCh-J8pmjpIztu0FmQ7zNial3NiwicXCteEiAiryrEiblRfHK284dqiMAE7zfuweCFRwFC5CsRsV_hXW-NbSyHsa-LrpdRGFg6lUtQhnm5wpZLchjuVu0OLThBk3UY2m4SSAfb8YUd1uJndMhf2nR9znJGNc2lQ/s1600/download%20(1).jpg" width="300" /></a></div><br /><p>I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe everything on
Earth has to stop instead of seeing that I have to stop it within myself first.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to ‘say
to others what to do’ instead of doing it myself.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to lead others
instead of leading myself.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put responsibility
outside of myself on others.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the only
point that I can control is me.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept
responsibility for myself.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whether
I die or not is irrelevant – but who I am within myself is relevant.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to me
only instead of realizing I am not relevant at all unless I make myself
relevant as Life.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mis leaded by energy
instead of me directing me at all times<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and
understand that I have to become relevant as an individual – giving credit
where credit is due<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and
understand that I am but a tiny particle in an ocean of particles and whether
or not I realize myself is solely up to ME <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to do
something/process instead of me doing all that I think one should do.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project on others
what I know I have to do instead of doing it myself.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><span style="color: black; line-height: 107%;">I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘what I have to
do’ as difficult instead of seeing realizing and understanding that it is only
a judgement of self-sabotage, to not change and not stand as who I really am as
Life.<span style="font-size: 13.5pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-55049869135750478872023-02-24T21:58:00.000+01:002023-02-24T21:58:02.766+01:00Day 241: Limitations<p></p><p><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;"> </span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqcFqA6Tymt8zD7j8KwzZvuy3W0D0jiOhrNIJl0x4Je2Ot49lz2UjHTdP7JrliOdCkWOM2DvMphjQyiw3wmK82gUiTABlUkGpqUTupN0g69uKK9YFWF-AtCMHiVQRMpPm7Tnku2EPyRYvg1r54YbP2wOerUEIKMkbBBQwMHn5iWqwh3-9-f8h6TtATsg/s800/BRCC-e1614837164405.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="472" data-original-width="800" height="189" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqcFqA6Tymt8zD7j8KwzZvuy3W0D0jiOhrNIJl0x4Je2Ot49lz2UjHTdP7JrliOdCkWOM2DvMphjQyiw3wmK82gUiTABlUkGpqUTupN0g69uKK9YFWF-AtCMHiVQRMpPm7Tnku2EPyRYvg1r54YbP2wOerUEIKMkbBBQwMHn5iWqwh3-9-f8h6TtATsg/s320/BRCC-e1614837164405.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p></p><p><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to not see that limitation is only possible if
I accept and allow it<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to not see that limitation in any area of life is
always accepted and allowed by me for it to exist<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that limitations
can be stopped<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is up to me how long I accept
and allow limitations<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my limitations<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
not accepted and allowed myself to believe my limitations are real<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I
walk through my limitations - I will not see they are not real<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to limit myself<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to self-sabotage myself<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I am
the directive principle on my creative force, something else will<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
not accepted and allowed myself to question my limitations<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
not accepted and allowed myself to stop all my limitations<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p style="-webkit-text-stroke-width: 0px; font-variant-caps: normal; font-variant-ligatures: normal; orphans: 2; text-decoration-color: initial; text-decoration-style: initial; text-decoration-thickness: initial; widows: 2; word-spacing: 0px;"><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to give up in front of challenges<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have not
accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I stop all limitations including
giving up I will not find out the best version of myself.<o:p></o:p></span></p>
<p><span style="color: black; font-size: 13.5pt;">I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all
distraction from overcoming my limitations are limitations.<o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-9906619397980498152023-02-23T23:21:00.000+01:002023-02-23T23:21:15.945+01:00Day 240: Not Give Up<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6iI0Zem1dR27XgrhUwfiCLA8vf2vCMB2-d29IG8afZkAe53Y8q5ZYm5YMEwFBEFBYBpvcz__B1f9TU7nCsDirwWOz_Fxo-vMjTgcy8s9rGIYx4hGEq1gtEjR46TL2SfgmmdpjsXZ2fyt7YWoFBGCgKCvSx-Os95AdOH9D_a0l8KGqn9EuMnUlLFEGyA/s2000/Human-Brain-Memories-Neurons.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1333" data-original-width="2000" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6iI0Zem1dR27XgrhUwfiCLA8vf2vCMB2-d29IG8afZkAe53Y8q5ZYm5YMEwFBEFBYBpvcz__B1f9TU7nCsDirwWOz_Fxo-vMjTgcy8s9rGIYx4hGEq1gtEjR46TL2SfgmmdpjsXZ2fyt7YWoFBGCgKCvSx-Os95AdOH9D_a0l8KGqn9EuMnUlLFEGyA/s320/Human-Brain-Memories-Neurons.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
fear ‘appearing brainwashed’ to other people when in fact virtually everyone is
brainwashed to accept the system of money<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see, realize and understand that it is inevitable to be criticized when one
stands up<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that those that criticize me as cultish is because they have a cult of
their own to defend and thus point fingers in fear of their cult being finished
by the cult of Life, the only valid cultUre<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that it doesn’t matter how I look to others but if in fact I am standing
as what is Best for All<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to live in self-interest, have fun and forget about everything else <o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see the massive suffering of massive amounts of life forms from my statement
of wanting to live in self-interest – and my inevitable finish at death<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that I can’t really have fun or real fun while millions suffer if I am
not directing the points necessary<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that the fact that I don’t ‘feel’ the suffering of others doesn’t mean
I can accept bliss while others suffer.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see how all deception is self-deception<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that all distraction is self-distraction<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that self-dishonesty as self-deception and self-distraction is
unacceptable<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
want to participate in energy<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see that energy is of the mind and makes it stronger, while breath brings me
Here<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to be Here as Breath in every moment of Breath<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself
to see, realize and understand that I am not here to chase energy experiences
but to stand up for All Life/sort out this reality of Abuse<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
momentarily ‘get lost’ in experiences and not direct myself to birth myself in
the physical<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not trust myself that I can do this in every moment of breath<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
not see that the option to give up is in every moment of breath, as is the
option to Not give up<o:p></o:p></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-85916595341727115442023-02-23T00:40:00.002+01:002023-02-23T00:40:23.847+01:00Day 239: Do You Need Motivation or Change?<p><table align="center" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_6nKddxtxYEgcsmdm7rZjoC3sF0c2KzdoWdQ46t37abD_xzo0OrmlNIjbqyWKJkdfy_QXWKS8dZiw9DaqSQlngohzEFKSa5fqp3zum0YjdNkXT-2Voqlfba1uRU8kjgAFHF8fBxYd3bJGucBaTAuLezsecSO0NfoP27IqButUSaZemrxo1C6Gtu7mHg/s620/Lao-tzu-on-All-Around-Mastery.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" data-original-height="409" data-original-width="620" height="211" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_6nKddxtxYEgcsmdm7rZjoC3sF0c2KzdoWdQ46t37abD_xzo0OrmlNIjbqyWKJkdfy_QXWKS8dZiw9DaqSQlngohzEFKSa5fqp3zum0YjdNkXT-2Voqlfba1uRU8kjgAFHF8fBxYd3bJGucBaTAuLezsecSO0NfoP27IqButUSaZemrxo1C6Gtu7mHg/s320/Lao-tzu-on-All-Around-Mastery.jpg" width="320" /></a></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Lao Tzu</td></tr></tbody></table></p><p>A few days ago I quit a relationship that had being going on for about two years
and was long distance - now I am writing more and doing more vlogs - this shows
me I was not in a good position but compromising myself because I withheld from
supporting myself and others.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need
motivation to do what is Best for All<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I
can move myself because of Who I Am<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear others out casting
me if I make blogs and vlogs<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if
I am not effective in sharing blogs and vlogs I have to investigate why and
apply changes accordingly.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my
relationships if I do more vlogs and blogs.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself
through my relationships.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that
unless I stand up for myself no one can do it for me.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whoever
in my relationships doesn’t agree with what I say in my blogs and vlogs or goes
against it, there is no point to keep them any longer as they are in fact
against all Life.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I
should be grateful if someone speaks up and says they are against what I say –
as then I can share some common sense<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying being
unknown<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be
infamous for sharing the best one can ever share<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize
and understand that it is not about being known or unknow but about leaving
behind proof of one’s journey so that the next person can have a roadmap of
what to expect when walking a lifetime regardless if one makes it or not<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making
it<o:p></o:p></p>
<p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself
to walk regardless of outcome<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><o:p> </o:p></p><br /><p></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-21276953949074628862023-02-22T00:59:00.005+01:002023-02-22T00:59:53.411+01:00Day 238: Achilles Heel<div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEidSibbuKqfVEIYkaCUbXYmeVnprCbSr1g4Bti-Xpopm1yOGibl-FrYTYeQwOjnfFC8AM61cWkWu26zT1vL0b_z1THWEo-n4YnyvCHaFmiB3ErL1qQpUuCctUnayh9mChL5rZKF4sYbMyjr4Lcz7ePbf9h31pSXpEliQK7Z_r-UJwkIeNlotd18DfPMQQ/s275/download.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="183" data-original-width="275" height="183" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEidSibbuKqfVEIYkaCUbXYmeVnprCbSr1g4Bti-Xpopm1yOGibl-FrYTYeQwOjnfFC8AM61cWkWu26zT1vL0b_z1THWEo-n4YnyvCHaFmiB3ErL1qQpUuCctUnayh9mChL5rZKF4sYbMyjr4Lcz7ePbf9h31pSXpEliQK7Z_r-UJwkIeNlotd18DfPMQQ/s1600/download.jpg" width="275" /></a></div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an Achilles heel, points where I fall</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the points where I fall are self interest points, to not have to change, in self interest</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't investigate and correct the points where I fall - I am accepting and allowing their continuation - thus being responsible for their existence and thus I cannot claim I am powerless and hopeless but am responsible at all times</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the point where I fall to affect what I do, instead of dusting myself off and keep walking</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can remediate all the points where I fail/fall by utilising the tools available of self forgiveness, self honesty and practical application</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I perfect myself by finding and doing what works to make it work, it will not work</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept defeat</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am cannot be defeated</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'accepting defeat' is self interest in fact, as is giving up because I can stand up for myself at any point, no matter what</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that delay and procrastination is in fact self interest, because who I am does not wait in the face of abuse existent in this world - but acts immedately, and all acts of delay and procrastination are in fact self interest because I want to live an experience in spite of all other Life Here suffering - so in doing this delay and procrastination I abdicate my right to Life.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that only me/I am responsible for accepting failure but it is not who I really am - as who I really am as Life never fails/How can Life fail?</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am so powerful that I can even wipe myself out, or birth myself as Life - I have the choice and in alignment with who I am as Life I can only choose what is Best for All Life</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will be faced with the same situations to see if I stand as what is Best for All - for eternity - Will I be Life in fact or not?</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not only about knowing what to do but walking what I know</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I need a reason to do what is Best, I can find it in all Life to come live in this planet after me</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes instead of realising that if I make a mistake I just 'take another take'</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am anything less than Life in fact -- and if I see that I am not Life yet I will not waste one breath until birthing myself as Life in fact and until All Life is honoured equally.</div>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-10025713029944531432023-02-20T23:15:00.001+01:002023-02-22T00:27:51.666+01:00Day 237: Writing myself to Life - Righting Myself to Life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2dlKcI5JgHa-BUmKFkV6d_u59nQN2eYQQDwdWJJbrxsXUGIcjNoxFpRYFYhKGJ6u68Gx_pvu8mTPcg4ENWYVOY60hJib6mLLnvlEWOK6UGGavFk60MR69m5KfZmnLEhx18tkq-nJWDLaNSYWrz1Xs8smeZHc9EnGHT9oGUelfY1GVB68ZoTyRoF4AUQ/s1500/spruce.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1000" data-original-width="1500" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj2dlKcI5JgHa-BUmKFkV6d_u59nQN2eYQQDwdWJJbrxsXUGIcjNoxFpRYFYhKGJ6u68Gx_pvu8mTPcg4ENWYVOY60hJib6mLLnvlEWOK6UGGavFk60MR69m5KfZmnLEhx18tkq-nJWDLaNSYWrz1Xs8smeZHc9EnGHT9oGUelfY1GVB68ZoTyRoF4AUQ/s320/spruce.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p> I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I write myself to Life I do not right myself to Life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief I don't have anything to share or talk about.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the countless issues humans face that I can talk about.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every day that I write counts.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'just living' is in fact accepting and allowing the abuse on Earth to continue on a massive scale.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that 'just living' is 'just abusing' in fact.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have a voice and two hands and I should use them to do what is Best for All</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I do something, nothing will happen in my life that could have benefitted others and in turn others in a chain reaction of change.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential and power of chain reactions of self-change - where others change from your change to the next person and next person.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I do NOT stand up for myself as what is Best for All = many will not stand up as well because of ME.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that unless I stand up for change = I am supporting abuse</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undersand that the pursuit of happiness is in fact self interest as ego and while one can create a fulfilling life for oneself that must include standing up for what is Best for All</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be 'ready' to stand up for myself when in fact it is just an excuse as one can stand up for oneself at any one single breath.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to utilize the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and practical application in every moment of breath</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not alone in this reality and that I should support all other forms of Life until All Life is supported Equally.</p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-28781942218745655662022-05-16T03:06:00.004+02:002022-05-16T03:17:39.658+02:00Day 236: Nothing Above or Below<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheuI9nVFE2eBVVMFuqO0jlXeqpMDtK4GoyFHa74TMUQTXrvXDHmy_hIR3NoBAEyvSWsUyvUp8DeEFO0xZwI_6ScK1QkCNQU_wc3fV0BRsLjehiExsO7dT5xTexWfGIThr817w46FGYcpuQ3C10ayUO-rANXLF4mSeSqyVybXAVzJvNt8g8VXfJmQxVqQ/s407/Equal-Symbol-Sign.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="375" data-original-width="407" height="295" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEheuI9nVFE2eBVVMFuqO0jlXeqpMDtK4GoyFHa74TMUQTXrvXDHmy_hIR3NoBAEyvSWsUyvUp8DeEFO0xZwI_6ScK1QkCNQU_wc3fV0BRsLjehiExsO7dT5xTexWfGIThr817w46FGYcpuQ3C10ayUO-rANXLF4mSeSqyVybXAVzJvNt8g8VXfJmQxVqQ/s320/Equal-Symbol-Sign.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /> <p></p><p>There is nothing above or below, no greater being or lesser being - the only thing that is real is Equality - Equals as Life. Yet this is not lived on Earth, so we must make it so.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there is no one above me or below me, only equals as Life.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I am, as Life, equally an authority as Life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand what it implies that there is no one above, or below but only equals</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am above others</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am under others or less than others</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am Equal as Life and should remind others that they are Equals to me as Life as well</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that life on Earth as it exists currently is an abomination - where Life is not honoured in each one as equals.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this realisation is useless.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that seeing that there is no one above or below myself means I have to take complete self responsibility.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take complete self responsibility for All Life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for myself as Life</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if there is no one above or below myself - I am everithing that exists then.</p><p>I commit myself to share the common sense perspective that we are all Life and there is no more or less Life in each of us - but to the extent that we honour it in others</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that there is no one above myself, nor below myself - all Equals</p><p><br /></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-20993528892912294572022-05-15T03:24:00.001+02:002022-05-15T03:24:09.600+02:00Day 235: Money and Impassibility<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhViIv0Y74ipS1jrnT6a7q5hDO7N5FUgYppScTKC01lqOFh_APV10OyVb1wGl1N6mFQ8DBBjUkYqyHncBw3jLftJqoGKcJ7sA_n75x8lwieS9CAVKiMzUGmTnP5f_o3vJhME2q5NLJoSq5RqtVq2VxR3xXkqv62flwfamEo_3A6HCJC_W_mNpKiQEBHw/s499/2.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="361" data-original-width="499" height="232" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhViIv0Y74ipS1jrnT6a7q5hDO7N5FUgYppScTKC01lqOFh_APV10OyVb1wGl1N6mFQ8DBBjUkYqyHncBw3jLftJqoGKcJ7sA_n75x8lwieS9CAVKiMzUGmTnP5f_o3vJhME2q5NLJoSq5RqtVq2VxR3xXkqv62flwfamEo_3A6HCJC_W_mNpKiQEBHw/s320/2.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>When there is no money in the pockets, no food on the table, then we cry out at how this world is so unjust, while when we have more than enough money, there is the risk of slipping into impassibility, not caring so much as if the problems we are facing as humanity don't go with us, do not concern us. Right? Wrong. When the bubble of money is bursted then we will live with the weight of knowing we did not do all that we could to change the position of those without money in this world, while we still could - or we will join them -- our choice. Either we erradicate poverty or end up with the poor incapable of making the change - no one guarantees the shield that is money at the moment, and when it is gone, it is too late as in when you are homeless.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the risk of 'not caring' because I have money.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to do all that I can to put into place systems so that everyone is supported so that I am supported too through every situation equally.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is very easy to end up homeless.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am one and equal to those that suffer here on earth</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to invest in myself so that I am my best self so that I can have an effect on my reality</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have money I can turn a blind eye to the problem that is not having money in this world.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am all that exists in this world, and that I am the homeless as well - as in any moment the tables can turn and I can end up homeless.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to turn a blind eye on the world when I have comfort due to having money.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up on everything but yet want to retain the control of money.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to not care about anything, yet make sure I have money.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the game of money of winners and losers costs almost uncountable lives every day, and should be fixed as it is a rigged game as well.</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself that having money is not to turn a blind eye to the problems of the world but to be able to work on solutions.</p><div><br /></div><p><br /></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-26433572972495173732022-05-03T11:50:00.002+02:002022-05-03T11:50:15.644+02:00Day 234: Nothing Else Matters<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipB63XJxRuZhxd95ps1E0KzNJ6vuOIO14HzNsSLTgORI7HKjbnxEM8jTULhGmiA9Zch1nz3wq_3uLos064PrD_PHT1RqVNPvE7YF2mcZRK6XuRpB6-AX5HyrQKTjy1OdQkBGTwhXxGhlSqL5JPxs5nYqMi7Ta3qVMumVQSdfbgi2ARG4bipp_D0N7WVw/s1920/k.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1271" data-original-width="1920" height="212" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEipB63XJxRuZhxd95ps1E0KzNJ6vuOIO14HzNsSLTgORI7HKjbnxEM8jTULhGmiA9Zch1nz3wq_3uLos064PrD_PHT1RqVNPvE7YF2mcZRK6XuRpB6-AX5HyrQKTjy1OdQkBGTwhXxGhlSqL5JPxs5nYqMi7Ta3qVMumVQSdfbgi2ARG4bipp_D0N7WVw/s320/k.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div>But what I can live as an example. Showing what is possible. Being the change that I want to see in this world.<div><br /></div><div>It is not about externalizing the change saying others must change, but about being the change itself, in how I live and my daily decisions that accumulate what is Best for All.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing at living.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I am dead I can implement change in my daily living.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change myself.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to change instead of me changing myself.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be the change that I want to see in this world.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to apply myself to change myself.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the past in every moment.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be and become so much more that I am in this moment.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses as to why I cannot change apparently.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a failure.<br /><br />I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to change.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am in fact always changing, but I have to make sure it is in the direction of What is Best, not backwards</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every moment is an opportunity to grow and expand myself as well as diminish myself if I accept and allow that</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to support myself to become the best version of myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to be patient yet firm with myself</div><div><br /></div>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-7799474220836065212022-04-03T02:01:00.000+02:002022-04-03T02:01:36.319+02:00Day 233: The Pelican Message<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyxEOC2yQCXMe--271fxzXWL06Hfj3GwdnfVDKujm2B6p_tUH9CWAiVVyLqZPajsjznu883SB3Df6dFUS519_EKLKRiEbIaBISWZNAF6DhzEq5FNu0SxX10cGbjWQh9MJAXZqwLMb5Fg55HjvUrO3BiKloQqEvkgRUcLw_bqDowIKauvji2E38eKMBtw/s1200/1200px-Pelikan_Walvis_Bay.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="900" data-original-width="1200" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiyxEOC2yQCXMe--271fxzXWL06Hfj3GwdnfVDKujm2B6p_tUH9CWAiVVyLqZPajsjznu883SB3Df6dFUS519_EKLKRiEbIaBISWZNAF6DhzEq5FNu0SxX10cGbjWQh9MJAXZqwLMb5Fg55HjvUrO3BiKloQqEvkgRUcLw_bqDowIKauvji2E38eKMBtw/s320/1200px-Pelikan_Walvis_Bay.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div>When Life seemingly turns your back on you, debris all around you, usual methods to cope are to simply give up for a moment and then, verify where this is really coming from. Life is sound, drum it. If you don't play its song nothing will come, leisure is good up to a point, when you are entertained, merit would be awarded to you if you don't linger in it.<br /><br />
So, solution would be to even if you get bit by for example, spider bite - and get rather agitated and - in a word, angry - remember the story of that animal, pelican that escaped from the zoo and was later spotted far away enjoying life. Was it difficult for the pelican to escape? It was a decision made at that time when that moment, hour or minute - when it was harder to stay in the cage than fly away.<div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear escaping my own cage</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my own limitations</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own limitations</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that freedom is a decision away</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put fear as an excuse to not stand up for myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself unconditionally </div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to set myself free from all enslavement</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to support myself to set myself free and until all are free</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to understand myself yet not take any shit from myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to not stop until I am free and all are free</div>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-75255271263875928762022-03-26T00:18:00.002+01:002022-03-26T00:18:33.127+01:00Day 232: The Apex<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjmW_sDIztroLV4zx87g5VdeWMZJk1nrJqmIkf9-27LuibMRVEzdyuW7irrgJM15xrrCyykTJndfGLEZTjFRlMwzWb9k0IG0VcGMq-8ZES_XdTqHa_pH3ZM0ZbBUes3j_2lP6KMqOKhHmsj2NInJ2EHMHYQpU2RjaDgYJPbnNE65vq9Srlqhmkz0a5hg/s2880/descarga.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="2880" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjmW_sDIztroLV4zx87g5VdeWMZJk1nrJqmIkf9-27LuibMRVEzdyuW7irrgJM15xrrCyykTJndfGLEZTjFRlMwzWb9k0IG0VcGMq-8ZES_XdTqHa_pH3ZM0ZbBUes3j_2lP6KMqOKhHmsj2NInJ2EHMHYQpU2RjaDgYJPbnNE65vq9Srlqhmkz0a5hg/s320/descarga.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div>What is my highest point? My apex. That for which I strive? It used to be so high that I felt miserable. Instead the apex is right here in every moment, it is what is Here. There is nothing else, the future is not yet here, and the past is not longer here.<div><br /></div><div>What it means to be Here? Everyone has to find out.</div><div><br /></div><div>Certainly, it is not being in the past or the future - aka in the mind.<br /><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the apex is Here in every moment of breath, being here in every moment of breath - as there is nothing else.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to torture myself because apparently I should be somewhere else than where I am in the moment.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I must achieve something.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am in a bad position.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am exactly where I need to be and if I am not, I should do something about it</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be living in the mind as past and future, constantly worrying about both.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to be Here in every moment of breath.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that there is no greater apex than every moment of breath Here.</div></div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that the apex of my life is in every moment of breath.</div><div><br />I commit myself to see, realise and understand that there is no greater summit than every moment of breath Here</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that there is nothing else to achieve than being Here in every moment of breath, and direct myself within what is Best for All within this breath.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that if I am not located elsewhere is because I need to be where I am because practically I have placed myself in this poisition - so it is up to me to place myself elsewhere.</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that thinking I should be elsewhere is madness</div>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-21760082084459157232022-03-24T00:13:00.003+01:002022-03-24T00:13:38.318+01:00Day 231: The Fraud<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDhGpJgUO0GhtAKSkM01wjP8VZEwDYLksb_MNCa1uiUB6eUMCtAuDpoEtrhaGfpIh7nuRP4XawN6mMDJgauhIDovp2bNCWXvjJPxWu3Mo_e8c0xH5sPQ5PmaEwYjzwu1iqqTzO-0xc5I_1njDZJSKzLduf0aIsPAuR3vMogvI9sQspKz79THPBXm_j3Q/s626/descarga%20(3).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="470" data-original-width="626" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiDhGpJgUO0GhtAKSkM01wjP8VZEwDYLksb_MNCa1uiUB6eUMCtAuDpoEtrhaGfpIh7nuRP4XawN6mMDJgauhIDovp2bNCWXvjJPxWu3Mo_e8c0xH5sPQ5PmaEwYjzwu1iqqTzO-0xc5I_1njDZJSKzLduf0aIsPAuR3vMogvI9sQspKz79THPBXm_j3Q/s320/descarga%20(3).jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div>I changed the title of the blog several times now, so I will leave it empty for now and write the blog instead. My experience is that in a way, I feel like fraud, a degree of inadequacy, because I believe I have not yet achieved, attained. Then I remember that this is a process. I am in a process, so to beat me up because I have not arrived somewhere is nonsense. What I would like is that I am able to always act in word, deed and thought as what is Best for all - it is a process. Because I see that I don't always act in word, deed and thought as what is Best for All - this is the reason I feel like a fraud. I would like my mind to be empty, I have to empty it. I would like my words to be clear, I have to make them clear, I would like to give myself direction in a way that is Best, so I have to give myself direction in a way that is Best.<div><br /></div><div>I stop wanting others to do what I know I can do. I stop wanting outside change, when inner change is possible - and the only way. It is astounding how well I know - and I say it because I have observed it over the years not because I am flaunting - how well I know what to do. I know exactly what to do. The fraud would be, the fraud can only be self-fraud, where I don't do what I know that I have to do and present myself as if I have done the work. This is impossible because as long as I don't do the work - on myself - I will be reminded daily by my day to day living that I have not changed and thus why I feel like a fraud.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the moment that I see my own deception as so big that I cannot stand it, then I will start to walk my process effectively.</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the bridge between where I am and where I could be will be so great that I will have no option other than to walk through the bridge.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there is nowhere to hide from my own realisations.</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect myself in my process of change</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose the old over the new</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose not changing</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that change is a decision away</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to make steps, even if they are babysteps towards where I know I must go and do</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to go easy on myself yet firm, in walking what I know I can walk</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to redeem myself by knowing what I have always known I have to walk</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to step into the unknown of always acting in word, deed and thought as what is Best for All</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to not only stop the old, but create the new</div><div><br /></div><div>I commit myself to remind myself that it is not only about not doing and becoming a saint, but about doing practically what is best for me within what is best for All</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-59764808188592262342022-03-23T00:43:00.002+01:002022-03-23T00:43:21.851+01:00Day 230: Missing the Point<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjOqTtzvZBBOkIVhcEhdmyeO5fW3FEgxgJAvh4ViXCQ4fUYBMnvTNsv7d9V1gx-bW_RdIXPLhwW1yBIJLCyVzo2evvukqmvlfIOONQAdo7eUna3CbrREGTLJdT0mbYT-W0it79bDtIQUXe0R7lo9O5hDEFbxSNb_9TBbINb68uWZgSr3YBlf6U1yt3sg/s1037/descarga%20(2).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="830" data-original-width="1037" height="256" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjOqTtzvZBBOkIVhcEhdmyeO5fW3FEgxgJAvh4ViXCQ4fUYBMnvTNsv7d9V1gx-bW_RdIXPLhwW1yBIJLCyVzo2evvukqmvlfIOONQAdo7eUna3CbrREGTLJdT0mbYT-W0it79bDtIQUXe0R7lo9O5hDEFbxSNb_9TBbINb68uWZgSr3YBlf6U1yt3sg/s320/descarga%20(2).jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div>In trying to be successful, I have been a failure - I was missing the point. It is to not expect results that results come. I had to finally let go, after being very deep in failure, to let go of this wanting to be successful that a form of functionality has appeared in my life, by simply doing, and not expecting anything because nothing is guaranteed in this world, even if you put your best effort. Not saying that it is to not put the best effort, but not to expect the result. <div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to be known</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to become known in order for me to be a success</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my life to be a certain way to believe that I have achieved something when it is not so in fact</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be successful</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be successful</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fame and money is the goal</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to change the world</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect of me to change the world</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put the burden of the world on my shoulders to which I invariably would quit</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget living</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that any expectation makes me miss the point</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the arrogance to believe that if I become successful I can change the world</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to become successful in order to change the world</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself from being successful in order to not have to change the world</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being ordinary, in this world yet not of this world, is the way</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there are no conditions to self realize</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I don't know how I am going to assist in changing the world</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to change the world</div><div><br />I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect self-change</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the common sense of walking the tools to change myself instead of half-assedly applying the tools and expect to change myself</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the common sense in doing to get things done</div><div><br /></div><div>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk my process effectively within the common sense realization that I can change myself if I give myself the opportunity</div>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-88509816720156233062022-03-22T01:38:00.001+01:002022-03-22T01:38:18.018+01:00Day 229: I Need a Break<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhpye_d6gRf2FrIbI4i1ztgcpMfzWjLwR43uudS8oWrwUm2nHu-jkQ4Lot1Vh7RyTnnGcnLfJ9LZgtftVe0P3j_GBx8Pklh4dOb2c0FDgwL_tLcZSQxOnt-Qxjwn9FoFLzwqlpQbvWGjG2VQ-JrocjVQh4MXeBQP6RNkd2x5wtLNiTpu2Lg_NoiPi2QwA=s1200" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="789" data-original-width="1200" height="210" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhpye_d6gRf2FrIbI4i1ztgcpMfzWjLwR43uudS8oWrwUm2nHu-jkQ4Lot1Vh7RyTnnGcnLfJ9LZgtftVe0P3j_GBx8Pklh4dOb2c0FDgwL_tLcZSQxOnt-Qxjwn9FoFLzwqlpQbvWGjG2VQ-JrocjVQh4MXeBQP6RNkd2x5wtLNiTpu2Lg_NoiPi2QwA=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p> From TV, eventhough I don't have, or propaganda in general. The world nowadays is full of lies in the media, full-scale hypnotism to get ourselves trapped in thinking what is the next enemy. Corona, war - what is next?</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get trapped in the media propaganda </p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is a threat or an enemy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there is no enemy</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the pointing finger to the enemy Is the enemy, if ever has to be one</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear</p><p><br /></p><p>Now that I got this out of the way, because really it is simply a small - yet seemingly big - obstacle I will change to talk about creation, what is the world that we want to have and leave for the children to come?</p><p>We have to be clear here, a nation that is free from war, poverty, abuse in general is a prosper and proper nation. It is simply to achieve this with introducing a system whereas everyone is supported from birth until death, with a form of a basic income. This was early shared by Bernard Poolman, an Equal Money System, where life is the value, where life is valued and taken care of, at the individual level everyone has food, shelter, education and a standard of life that would be and can be akin to one of a millionaire - not billionaire -.</p><p>This is possible due to the high levels of automation we have nowadays, with our food production levels being able to feed already the whole of the world, a mere implementation of proper distribution would make this possible. And the production of goods, which would change to make products to last as much as tecnically possible, that is a liftime or more for any products produced.</p><p>I am not talking utopia, because what we have right now is a very high level of mass production which is used to produce things that break, and we live in a resource-finite planet - so it doesn't make sense.</p><p>We need a break form all of this, and this is only possible through an Equal Money System.</p><p><br /></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-70217720546374275502022-03-13T15:08:00.002+01:002022-03-13T15:09:19.749+01:00Day 228: I am sorry<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgGXaDBAAAkIngtxUNB7Mut92kPHtE5upaXpZ9SV9BqOZBYV-wlWcjRxjP_0LZYRcOxEaGSmpL0zjq_yJp8T8M2XVnwDZZKXxLkbo3Gxf0XlbIPoNCbN3YxwYm7422bX5qOrLZjxspTexLCh2oqaAqTYe2IAhJRi8_kP7iEJk8iZDOv1J6T1z3D_nIuQQ=s970" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="450" data-original-width="970" height="148" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgGXaDBAAAkIngtxUNB7Mut92kPHtE5upaXpZ9SV9BqOZBYV-wlWcjRxjP_0LZYRcOxEaGSmpL0zjq_yJp8T8M2XVnwDZZKXxLkbo3Gxf0XlbIPoNCbN3YxwYm7422bX5qOrLZjxspTexLCh2oqaAqTYe2IAhJRi8_kP7iEJk8iZDOv1J6T1z3D_nIuQQ=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p>I wrote this blog about a month ago or more but I haven't had the courage to post it until now, it is about how we can direct our reality before it is too late - death -, and the only solution I realize now is self forgiveness and self change. Here it is:</p><p>I am sorry because that is the only thing I can say, and from here corect myself. This life could be heaven for everyone, we simply have to admit to our wrongdoings and inactions and correct ourselves. </p><p>For example myself, I've participated so much in time wasting and otherwise bullshit activities where I could be supporting myself to become the best version of myself.</p><p><b>Today I have had multiple dreams, when I would wake up, I was again dreaming, then I would do something in the dream to check if I was in reality, and my test would test that it was reality but then - boom - I would wake up in my bed again. </b>This made me think that all I can say is sorry. </p><p>Sorry because I can change, we can change and yet mostly I've not been doing so, and then change the outside as well.</p><p>Because one day we will die, and wake up like in a dream, but we will not be able to go back Here in Matter. So I say I am sorry, that I will no longer procrastinate and leave things to chance, that I will direct my reality to a reality that is Best for All, this is a shared reality, not my reality inside my mind, no, we are all in the same reality, as we will have what we directly and indirectly create.</p><p>Because if like a dream, this life, this reality is able to be directed to a point that is Best for everyone - if we don't do it it will continue to be hell on Earth.</p><p>If you realize that you want to say sorry as well, because you see that this life, in this life, there are no external forces that control you, only if you allow it. All comes from within - In some dreams you can direct what to do, in this reality on Earth it is the same, you can decide. </p><p>Why I say I am sorry? Because I can do so much. Because I allowed so much, I allowed my participation in so much bull shit. While I could have participated in so much else that creates change for the better. And from here I in this moment commit myself to stop all bullshit and start creation as what is Best for All.</p><p>This reality is a 3D reality, there is limitation, yes, but it is not unlike a dream in terms of directiveness, as in in some dreams, you can direct reality, inner and outer reality.</p><p>So I am sorry because I am not alone and powerless, I have and have had much support over the years to change myself and I have put one percent of effort on my part. </p><p>But it is not to cry over spilled milk, no, but to correct myself is the next step. Correct myself in every moment of breath. It is a process.</p><p><br /></p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-49652768640479524012022-02-08T05:09:00.002+01:002022-02-08T05:09:11.729+01:00Day 227: Possibilities in this Life<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihI_AT9YuVawWHWtQzronsx2v40rcgAGF7Sq6KHTOhISUUYHW4L7tVu1e4WdTMY0tXxh4WeQi7eiUAnprVXe6BfVE_X7PUF-oHcxxOtYKK6mLjnB9mTr9nuiyFOqmKSUUbdDQb-e7urVVFEYuEkeZZvQIXlR-4f3yfduslSV2VxrLG8qgo-qYucirSnQ/s1199/descarga.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="674" data-original-width="1199" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihI_AT9YuVawWHWtQzronsx2v40rcgAGF7Sq6KHTOhISUUYHW4L7tVu1e4WdTMY0tXxh4WeQi7eiUAnprVXe6BfVE_X7PUF-oHcxxOtYKK6mLjnB9mTr9nuiyFOqmKSUUbdDQb-e7urVVFEYuEkeZZvQIXlR-4f3yfduslSV2VxrLG8qgo-qYucirSnQ/s320/descarga.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p><br /></p><p>The word 'death' popped up in TechnoTutor, and it made me think, that at death the BIG regret is POSSIBILITY - what I could have been and become in this life but I didn't, because the possibility was right there for me but I didn't take it, the possibility for me to be and become more within a world that can be and become more. </p><p><br /></p><p>In my life I have not gone for any real opportunity, over the years I have simply been skipping by, living by, without a real ambition for myself other than a wish for Equality in the world, but wishes never become real without hard work.</p><p><br /></p><p>At points then it is easy to think about giving up when seeing not much that I can show for myself, but then the word Possibility comes up, as the possibility is still Great - more great than what I have achieved so far and that if I die this potential is lost.</p><p><br /></p><p>If I have to remember one thing is that it is not what I have or am at the moment but what I can be and become in this one life I have been given, and since it can stop in any moment, to not waste a breath - but to invest it to being and becoming the best version of myself.</p><p><br /></p><p>#technotutor</p><p>#Desteni</p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-80671018541912984802022-02-04T08:45:00.002+01:002022-02-04T08:45:31.779+01:00Day 226: Positive Results & Open Oportunities<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhxu6bSFVCPNfe6BFAgAVo-oBx3XGK6T-RfJ8B9ukXQ4yjy5gTKVynkyBm4jWfy1rP-NZQgltSoM7KiMnmlCcGox0bXQqtXLnYl7krXi0sycsSMna90VA0If4QYR6c9M9dNSTQB926rcjeiaPapB598hviqKQjYXsu2QlySil8J-M_gmZJlrzBokpQBnA=s1200" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="902" data-original-width="1200" height="241" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhxu6bSFVCPNfe6BFAgAVo-oBx3XGK6T-RfJ8B9ukXQ4yjy5gTKVynkyBm4jWfy1rP-NZQgltSoM7KiMnmlCcGox0bXQqtXLnYl7krXi0sycsSMna90VA0If4QYR6c9M9dNSTQB926rcjeiaPapB598hviqKQjYXsu2QlySil8J-M_gmZJlrzBokpQBnA=s320" width="320" /></a></div><p>What does it look like like 'truly living'? Is there a formula for living to the fullest extent, to living to my utmost potential. Like a plant, that develops it's root systems before shooting up, I think that I should develop my roots as well, and that is the roots of knowing myself to then design myself to my fullest potential -- to become an effective human being, what are the things to have into consideration? My hability to process information that would be one thing to have into consideration, so to maximize my effectivity in this world I should have a high information processing hability, then put it into any field will yeld positive results. </p><p>There is no much else to do, really, but to improve oneself. Because whatever I do, who is it doing it? Me -- this me is what I have to work on because ultimately it is what I will use to work on anything.</p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want new results without improving myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the obvious in the need of improving myself</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here as breath no matter where in my developmental phase I am</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my stage of learning that I am without seeing realizing and understanding that I am where I need to be</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I am not anywhere else is because I didn't know better</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I am not anywhere else is because I couldn't do better</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I didn't have a real opportunity up until today - or if I had I didn't know how to use it - or if I did know I didn't use it - and if I didn't use it I don't judge myself or it</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about past oportunities that are already dead without looking for Alive opportunities Today</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to look for open opportunities where I can go in and do the utmost use of them.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself that I have to prepare myself because only the prepared are presented with the opportunities. </p><p>I commit myself to prepare myself so that I can walk any opportunity that opens up for myself.</p><p>I commit myself to develop myself so that I am prepared to jump in and walk into a new opportunity.</p><p>I commit myself to spend time in developing myself effectively with the tools I have available.</p><p>I commit myself to remind myself to develop myself daily.</p><p>I commit myself to let go of my self definition and instead create a new me in every moment.</p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-37609402475907991672022-01-06T01:13:00.003+01:002022-01-06T01:13:49.314+01:00Day 225: Chain of Events to the Present<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjIughZoNDLcutR6-7dqufJFXmxmPN9ypJN0Hhl-PY0_YywoU_UTk9kQ8cS6hNTvoDES9V8YajL62ninIMEbzKIznaSHlgZ3WYs4NftuuHbeFbpYn6Qs49RAi3U9qXSca1xTS9_YQW8lwxeoOBEqANxXBTyceD8YqYMTsf5PF7Rx3jIOkanpLzb-M-xbw=s949" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="534" data-original-width="949" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjIughZoNDLcutR6-7dqufJFXmxmPN9ypJN0Hhl-PY0_YywoU_UTk9kQ8cS6hNTvoDES9V8YajL62ninIMEbzKIznaSHlgZ3WYs4NftuuHbeFbpYn6Qs49RAi3U9qXSca1xTS9_YQW8lwxeoOBEqANxXBTyceD8YqYMTsf5PF7Rx3jIOkanpLzb-M-xbw=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /> <p></p><p>Walk the talk, and so I walk, regardless of how many days I have missed, every day is a new opportunity to write. No need to obsess myself so much with the chain of events, meaning the past, as if in I have not written for a couple of days somehow I am cursed lol. Instead I will write on a given day if I can, without looking back at how many days I have missed, and so giving me the opportunity to write unconditionally.</p><p>It is interesting how we or I can use the past to condition our present. So use the past as an excuse. But instead I can forget about the past and simply do what is best, in every moment, regardless.</p><p><br /></p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the past as an excuse to not write, as an excuse to condition my present.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the Present in present as in the gift in present where it is a gift that is given to me unconditionally for me to do what is best.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taint my Present with my Past - where I don't have to do that in fact.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to enjoy my Present as the present.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look back at the Past during my Present and let that influence my present negatively.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that looking back has to be done to learn form my past not to influence my Present in any other way.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the chain of events to the present whereas in fact it is not important as in every single breath I can change completely, in any given breath of the Present.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow memories as the past to influence my Present.</p><p>I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that to truly be free I have to let go of the past and live completely in the Present as every breath Here.</p><p>I commit myself to let go of the past in every breath and live unconditinally in the Present that is the present.</p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4410006150587089978.post-46479881987469671382022-01-02T12:38:00.000+01:002022-01-02T12:38:23.100+01:00Day 224: Creative Powers<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhOrK8HXAvMfSweUU1yoQGE3-9mRGZy6zJxjKD0NUORIuPrczTQoKotcP__lJ_KB1nGi96-gaLeLo7q5LmCXvb_PGoojdxPJ6LY-P8YLsX47rF2Jrt2yB3XgIAu7l2UUni4RQSv-DyorF1WOdRta4PAX6SMptCI2zHzYayEqQIkS20e62o7Qzft32cB8w=s722" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="406" data-original-width="722" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhOrK8HXAvMfSweUU1yoQGE3-9mRGZy6zJxjKD0NUORIuPrczTQoKotcP__lJ_KB1nGi96-gaLeLo7q5LmCXvb_PGoojdxPJ6LY-P8YLsX47rF2Jrt2yB3XgIAu7l2UUni4RQSv-DyorF1WOdRta4PAX6SMptCI2zHzYayEqQIkS20e62o7Qzft32cB8w=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p>Bipolar is fun - but has consequences -, that is the highs, thats why myself and others, there was a time that I didn't want to take medication for it. Because medication can make you feel normal - how horrible! - Or low, which is worse.</p><p>Because when I was in a manic high I could from my point of view, do anything, achieve anything and talk to anyone super elocuently. Eventhough I might come out as a nut to other people, I had a high drive and belief that I could do anything!</p><p>Because I could believe I was able to do anything, I would go for dubvious ventures that were out of the scope, like a supermarket chain once for example, I believed I could create that. And as time progressed then I wold think something else so nothing was done. </p><p>But in terms of communication, I was able to communicate more with other people, even do some magic tricks with money on the spot (see speending too much money), so basically I had a lot of fun in my manic highs of bipolar.</p><p>I want to move this pure, raw belief in myself to my day to day life where I am on a normal state. Because what can one be able to accomplish with pure belief in oneself and with detailed action that not being manic gives you.</p><p>A realisation: I am not two persons, one manic and one normal or non-manic. I am one person, and whatever I was able to do while manic I can do while 'normal'.</p><p>When I was manic I had this radical belief in myself, that I could do anything, all encompassing and so big that I felt so good and everything I put myself to do, I would trust myself completely, like playing a piano in a restaurant, eventhough I didn't take one piano lesson in my life I did that.</p><p>So with that my creative powers were heightened because:</p><p>- I believed in myself 100%</p><p>- I thought I could do and achieve anything</p><p>- I wanted to have fun and others have fun with me</p><p>That is the key points.</p><p>See how interesting it is the third point: Once I believe that I can do and achieve anything there is one thing that arises and it is: To have fun. I wanted to have fun and have all others have fun with me, so I would for example share and be more active in Instagram with my adventures and I got feedback that people enjoyed it.</p><p>So once we break the barriers that we cannot change this world and we in fact believe and do it, the next point will be Having Fun together.</p><p>Disclaimer: Hipomania can lead to full blown mania, psych hospitalization and loss of money in many cases (overspending).</p>Bipolarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13423623540583813772noreply@blogger.com0