Day 87: Yes or No

Recently I watched the documentary in Netflix Avicii, Real Stories, that is about the life of Tim Bergling. In the documentary it was interesting when another artist said that Tim had very clear what he wanted in music and what he didn't want, because from there they had something to work on. It reminds me of Ferran Adrià, a famous cook, trying out food and deciding if he likes it or not in the moment, if he did not like something he'd say it and they would do something different to get to a good flavour/texture whatever they were searching for.

It is a reminder to, in life, choose in every moment what we want and what we don't want, what is good for us and what is not good for us, without hesitation. When one becomes a master in music, in cooking or in life, one has very clearly defined what one wants, or better said, what one will accept and allow and what will not accept and allow. And we all have that internal knowing of what is best for us and what is not, simply that there are the ones that decide to hear it out and those that don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my internal knowing of what is best for me when faced with a decision, choosing desire over common sense practicality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can try and manipulate my decisions but deep down I know what is best for me and what is not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can manipulate my decision making into making something that is not best for me acceptable, which is not possible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that something that is best for me is not always exciting or fun but in the long run it is more fun and exciting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is fun to be had in taking decisions that are not best for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that what is best for me is truly what is best for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that actively doing what is best for me will result in a better me.

I commit myself to remind myself to do what is best for me, and not compromise myself with anything less.

I commit myself to remind myself that doing what is best for me will result in a better me.

Whenever I see I try to manipulate me into choosing something that is not best for me, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I don't have to go against me, and instead choose to honour myself by doing what is best for me.

Day 86: The Power of Accumulation

The other day I saw a video on facebook. It was about a dog that had been traped below some stairs, underground. A guy heard the dog bark and set to free it. With only a hammer he started removing cobbles from the floor one by one. At first it seemed ridiculous but then when he had a few cobbles out he was able to reach the part where the dog was at, and free it, it was a pregnant dog.

So when working towards a goal, with our own hands/work, it may seem like too much, but if we keep going step by step we can end up reaching it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my goals are too big.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can walk towards my goal step by step, even if they are babysteps, I will be still walking towards my goal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how things work in physical reality, in accumulation, as in 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how important is the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential that I have if I work with the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my goals as difficult instead of seeing that I can decompose them in may small steps that are doable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have power through the power of accumulation of 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself in not seeing the power that I have in the power of accumulation.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate myself and what I can do in not realizing my true potential as the power of accumulation

I commit myself to value myself in realizing that I have the power of accumulation, of acting towards my goal step by step until it is done.

I commit myself to keep going until I realize all the goals that I set myself to do.

I commit myself to remind myself that I have power through the power of accumulation, 1+1=2

When and as I see myself wanting to give up/slack off, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that through the power of accumulation anything can be achieved.
Thus I commit myself to not give up/slack off, as I see every every opportuity to accumulate as being a step closer to realizing my goals.

When and as I see myself not valuing myself, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that I can accumulate value for myself, by applying myself.
Thus I commit myself to apply myself no matter what.

Day 85: Back to Basics

How time flies, more than a month has passed since my last entry. I am back. Today I want to talk about projects and life in general. We can watch life pass by or do something about it, and this is what I want to do. Recently I have embarked on new projects and it is exciting, I rely on myself and I will need everything I have in order to be successful. What if I fail? I will stand up and go at it again. I am not one who gives up, I simply take another route if stuff is not working, or I may stop for a little while but then I get back up, like with this blog. Why will I continue writing here? Because it supports me, because I hope it can support others as well. It's time to get serious and yet be playful and do things because it is better to do stuff than become stagnant, do a little thing every day at least and if I can do more, I will do more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not support myself writing blogs more regularly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in my desires and not direct myself in common sense in doing what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not administer my time effectively to do the things I know I have to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen if I direct myself effectively all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't be able to accomplish my goals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is not a big goal that I have to fear but not having any goals.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I can support myself to do any goal that I set myself to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can support myself to do whatever goal I set myself to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can be and become whatever I set myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take shortcuts that are not best for me in order to achieve my goals.

I commit myself to not compromise myself in taking shortcuts that are not best for me to get to my goals.

I commit myself to remind myself that I can be and become whatever I set myself to be and become.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that no matter how big the goal, I can change myself to be able to attain it.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is a journey and that I have to enjoy and not see accomplishing my goals as a difficult chore but as a fun journey.

I commit myself to remind myself to have patience with myself with accomplishing my goals.