Day 230: Missing the Point

In trying to be successful, I have been a failure - I was missing the point. It is to not expect results that results come. I had to finally let go, after being very deep in failure, to let go of this wanting to be successful that a form of functionality has appeared in my life, by simply doing, and not expecting anything because nothing is guaranteed in this world, even if you put your best effort. Not saying that it is   to not put the best effort, but not to expect the result. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to be known

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to become known in order for me to be a success

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my life to be a certain way to believe that I have achieved something when it is not so in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be successful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be successful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fame and money is the goal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect of me to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put the burden of the world on my shoulders to which I invariably would quit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that any expectation makes me miss the point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the arrogance to believe that if I become successful I can change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to become successful in order to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself from being successful in order to not have to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being ordinary, in this world yet not of this world, is the way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there are no conditions to self realize

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I don't know how I am going to assist in changing the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect self-change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the common sense of walking the tools to change myself instead of half-assedly applying the tools and expect to change myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the common sense in doing to get things done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk my process effectively within the common sense realization that I can change myself if I give myself the opportunity

Day 185: Fear of Success

What if I give my best shot and I don't succeed, will it mean that I am faulty or at fault? Certainly not. Here I am correcting this fear and also the manipulation of not giving my all to things in order to have an excuse and 'not be at fault'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear success

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I have success I will not be able to handle it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I don't achieve success even if I apply myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become comfortable in mediocrity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not put my all to be successful in fear that I will not make it thus realising that I have some kind of limit

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I don't apply myself to become the best version of myself I am limiting myself effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am put to the test no matter what I do, even if think that by not facing myself  I am not put to the test - I am being tested no matter what by Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to get tired of failing to instead support myself to stand up for myself no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I apply myself to be successful and I fail, I will be flawed

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I fail at doing something it does not mean that I am flawed, simply have to try again or a try a different approach

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to manipulate by doing without full involvement in a task, so that if I fail, I am not at fault

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not involve myself fully in what I do, in fear that if I fail then it will mean I am flawed or limited

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that doing things 'half assed' will only lead me to certain failure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose failure over success in fear that if I push for success I might not get there and thus I am apparently faulty

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am faulty when I do things 'half assed' and not for not achieving my goals doing things full on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear putting myself to the test where if I fail I believe I am faulty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that failing when giving my best shot is ok and it doesn't mean I am less or faulty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to have excuses as to why I did fail instead of seeing that it is ok to fail when giving my best shot, it merely shows where I need improvement

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I don't give it my best shot to things I will not be able to expand effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I give my best shot and I fail then I am not good enough

I commit myself to involve myself fully doing things full on without fear of failure if I don't achieve my goal and without thinking that I will be faulty for not getting to my goal

I commit myself to remind myself that if I don't get things right the first time it doesn't mean I am faulty

I commit myself to remind myself that doing things 'half assed' will lead to certain failure

I commit myself to give my best shot to everything I do

I commit myself to be gentle with myself if I fail giving my best shot

I commit myself to disregard fear of not being good enough if I fail giving my best shot

Day 153: Self Improvement and Success

I have been dabbling with self-help books lately but that did not improve me, I was looking for the perfect recipe for success but that doesn't exist, success for me has been for example today when I put myself to do my DIP lesson or when I successfuly stood up from the bed and did not oversleep. So instead of looking for the perfect formula it is more seeing what I'm doing that is not benefitting me to change it for self support instead.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for the perfect formula outside of myself for success, not seeing realizing and understanding that if I am to fix my life I better start making some changes in what I am doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepeted and allowed myself to believe something outside of myself can 'fix me'.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that change means when I stop doing certain things and instead live the correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to live by other people's rules but that I can change what I see need change of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I can indeed identify what needs to be changed and do it instead of looking for an outside recipe for success.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in wanting the polar opposite of what I have in desiring to have success without introspecting and self-changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want success without even really knowing what that means or describing it for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within striving for success judge my life as a failure, when it is not the case.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand what I have going for myself already, which is quite something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put success outside of myself as something that has to be reached, when in fact it is not so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word success putting it outside of myself in comparing myself to others that apparently are successful.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I don't have to compare my life to that of others and judge mine as a failure, life is a process not a race.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate me from myself in wanting to live the word success as something out there far away that I have to attain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that every day I can have success, in every moment I breathe I can have success as I successfully lived another breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself on the topic of success, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I am only a failure if I compare myself to others and judge myself as less than.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if there are certain areas of my life I want to improve, I can do it, no need to compare to others that apparently have more success than I do.

Day 86: The Power of Accumulation

The other day I saw a video on facebook. It was about a dog that had been traped below some stairs, underground. A guy heard the dog bark and set to free it. With only a hammer he started removing cobbles from the floor one by one. At first it seemed ridiculous but then when he had a few cobbles out he was able to reach the part where the dog was at, and free it, it was a pregnant dog.

So when working towards a goal, with our own hands/work, it may seem like too much, but if we keep going step by step we can end up reaching it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my goals are too big.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can walk towards my goal step by step, even if they are babysteps, I will be still walking towards my goal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how things work in physical reality, in accumulation, as in 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how important is the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential that I have if I work with the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my goals as difficult instead of seeing that I can decompose them in may small steps that are doable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have power through the power of accumulation of 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself in not seeing the power that I have in the power of accumulation.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate myself and what I can do in not realizing my true potential as the power of accumulation

I commit myself to value myself in realizing that I have the power of accumulation, of acting towards my goal step by step until it is done.

I commit myself to keep going until I realize all the goals that I set myself to do.

I commit myself to remind myself that I have power through the power of accumulation, 1+1=2

When and as I see myself wanting to give up/slack off, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that through the power of accumulation anything can be achieved.
Thus I commit myself to not give up/slack off, as I see every every opportuity to accumulate as being a step closer to realizing my goals.

When and as I see myself not valuing myself, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that I can accumulate value for myself, by applying myself.
Thus I commit myself to apply myself no matter what.