Day 131: A Way Out of Mediocrity

If there was a way out of mediocrity, would you take it? I am not saying All of me is mediocre, but yeah some aspects do need improvement.

So I found a way out. Now only need to walk it. Feet fail me not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to install myself in mediocrity - as it is apparently a safe place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in mediocrity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in mediocrity in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself because of my failures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my failures.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am more than my failures.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can learn from failures instead of reacting negatively to them.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that failures are merely showing me how not to do things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to keep being mediocre so I don't have to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am safe in mediocrity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that mediocrity is merely a symptom of how I am doing things.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I do things differently I can get out of mediocrity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that every breath is a new opportunity for change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I create myself in every moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that each day is a new day.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself that I have many opportunities to break free from mediocrity, but I have to hold on to them/walk them.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to break free from mediocrity.

I commit myself to give myself the opportunity to break free from mediocrity.

Day 130: So Much To Do

What if I stop loop-cylcing, repeating mistakes, falling for addictions and repeating harmful behaviours? New, exciting things come up. What if I instead of all this mentioned before, I direct myself into and for a purpose in my life? So exciting, new ways to have fun open up, new projects, a new vision of life and instead of Limitation I change the words I am living into Expansion, Change, Creativity, Investment, Passion, Drive.

So much to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have so much to do outside of my limitations.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that in reality I have so much to do and say in this world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have something done, when in fact this is only the beginning of self-creation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have so much to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take things one by one, step by step.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to do many things at once.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can only do so much as what I can accomplish in one breath.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I will have to work on myself regardless on where I am as there is so much to do

I forgive myself that I have that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have not accepted and allowed myself to embrace myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can't arrive to a solution in a few days but have to remind myself of the process to walk - namely 7 years journey to life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realise that unless I write a blog often enough I will delay a lot to reach the 7 year journey to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to discipline myelf to do what really matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am here.

Day 129: Don't Feed the Demons

Recently I saw the Netflix show by Derren Brown called 'The Push' - it is an experiment to see whether peer pressure can take someone to push someone else to his death.

I will not spoil the end to you but I will only comment on this: For bigger things to be able to develop, first the devil is in the details, in acceptances and allowances. Where we start to give 'terrain' to certain behaviours that then can become bigger.

With this I can see how addictions can get out of hand and it all starts with little indulgences and 'it's not so important if now I do this' kind of reasoning. Yes it is important, all we do is important and what we accept and allow in small-scale can develop into full blown size. So it is best to not plant the seed of whatever it is we don't want to deal with the 'plant' of.

This as a reminder to not give in to little actions as addictions, to not give space to them so they don't develop later into more complicated addictions. And forgive myself if I ever fall into little 'acceptances and allowances' - so they don't go further than that. Because if I don't I might go in my mind, 'well, now that I have done this I might as well do that' with that being a bigger more problematic addiction thing. Not worth it. Best to stop it all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a sip of wine without being here reminding myself that I had decided I would not participate in alcohol anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that what I do in small scale I accept and allow myself to do it in larger scale as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need alcohol in order to socialize.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will not be able to remember that I have already stopped alcohol whenever I am presented with the opportunity to take it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being labeled as boring for not taking alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that boring is being drunk.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can do many things other than being drunk.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the time I would spend going out and getting drunk I can instead use to support myself and my projects.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that being drunk is a waste of time and a waste of Life.

I commit myself to utilize the time and resources I would use to go out and get drunk to instead support myself and my projects.

I commit myself to remind myself that I don't take alcohol.

I commit myself to utilize the resources as money that I would use to party to instead invest in myself and my projects.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is best for me to not use alcohol and instead use the resources that I would put into that to support myself instead.