Sunday, August 5, 2018

Day 89: Acceptance and Allowance



Whatever I accept and allow in others I accept and allow in me. I know someone that likes to drink a lot, then drives and also takes other drugs. If I accept and allow that this individual comes to my place in this state is not good for me or for them, I have to draw the line and tell him I won't accept and allow to see them when they are in this state. And yes I might lose him but best to lose someone that might come back once he is sorted out than having someone close that abuses substances - which is something I won't accept and allow in me or others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear E getting angry with me for saying to him that I won't see him when he is drunk/on drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear E getting violent because I say I will not see him unless he is sober.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it not seeing E when he is on drugs is best for me and for him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept E when he is on drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be friends with E.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that accepting E on drugs is not being his friend.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that not accepting E while he is on drugs is what is best for me and for him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear E aggressivity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear putting limits as to what will I accept and allow near me and in my home and what not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that setting limits is the best I can do in this situation.

When and as I see myself fearing an aggressive reaction from E- I stop, I breathe.
I realize that fear is not real but an illusion.

And thus, I commit myself to talk to E despite my fear.

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Day 88: Fear Not

It's been a while that I have written a blog. I am back again - I was participating in excuses as to why I don't write - but no excuses are valid. Today I have come across some realizations while doing the assignment of the Desteni I Process Pro which I will share now.

Fear is not real. All fear is Self-Created. Fear is an excuse to not stand up for Self and for All. Fear sucks and today I will explain more about it as well as doing some Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application on it.

What is Fear? What is Fear but a self created illusion to not have to stand up for oneself? Because one can claim, I did not stand up for myself in this life becaue of this and that fears. But is this claim vaild? No it is not. First of all, where does this fear come from but Ourselves? Who created this fear in the first place? Us? Why would we do such a thing? To never realize who we really are. Yes it was us that created fear, and we all collectively did the same, so we could claim an excuse to not have to do that which is Best for All - To not have to Stop All Separation -- First inside ourselves and then Outside - as that which is Outside of Self is but a representation of what is Inside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is real just because I can feel it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't know where fear comes from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct my life according to what fears I experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I create every experience that I have - thus I created fear.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I created fear in order to use it as an excuse to not stand up for myself as Who I Really Am and in order not Stand Up For All.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I created fear in order to not have to face myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that fear is but a test.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that self-deception is the cause why fear exists - yet it is an illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fear despite never having seen one in reality.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if one sticks to breath - no fear is able to exist - and it only exists when one participates in the illusions of the head as the mind and is not Here breathing effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that utilizing fear as an excuse to take decisions is making the illusion more important than that which is real - thus is not valid.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I will not be able to claim that I did not change because of fear, as fear is a self created illusion for self to not have to change - and does not in fact have power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that fear is but an indication of 'doors to self' where self has put guards/locked doors as fear so one does not realize self and is able to live in separation from self in self interest -- but if one acts despite the fears one will indeed realize self and act as that which is Best For All.

Buh

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that resistance is but another test/door that self has put to not have to change, and that self has to act despite resistance and fear -- and doing the very thing one resists and fears are Doors to Self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create fear to not have to stand up for myself - in order to have an excuse to not End Self-Separation and Separation Outside of myself as this world is currently representing of our inner selves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if all create fears and participate in fears it is ok to use fear as an excuse to not stand up for Self - all the while Fear is an Illusion and an Illusion can never be a valid excuse, even if it is a Collective Illusion - it is not an excuse to not stand up for Self and for All.

When and as I see myself fear - I stop, I breathe.
I realize that fear is an Illusion 
And thus, I commit myself to walk despite any fears I might experience.

When and I see myself using fear as an excuse to not stand up for myself  - I stop and I breathe.
I realize that I created fear in order to remain in self-interest - and that I have to act despite of it, until it is no more - within the realization that fear will not go away just because I know the nature of it as it is a constant test to see who will choose the Illusion over Reality.
And thus I commit myself to always walk despite fear being present, as I know it is an illusion and this is enough for me to not take it into consideration and act despite it being present.

Saturday, June 23, 2018

Day 87: Yes or No

Recently I watched the documentary in Netflix Avicii, Real Stories, that is about the life of Tim Bergling. In the documentary it was interesting when another artist said that Tim had very clear what he wanted in music and what he didn't want, because from there they had something to work on. It reminds me of Ferran AdriĆ , a famous cook, trying out food and deciding if he likes it or not in the moment, if he did not like something he'd say it and they would do something different to get to a good flavour/texture whatever they were searching for.

It is a reminder to, in life, choose in every moment what we want and what we don't want, what is good for us and what is not good for us, without hesitation. When one becomes a master in music, in cooking or in life, one has very clearly defined what one wants, or better said, what one will accept and allow and what will not accept and allow. And we all have that internal knowing of what is best for us and what is not, simply that there are the ones that decide to hear it out and those that don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my internal knowing of what is best for me when faced with a decision, choosing desire over common sense practicality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can try and manipulate my decisions but deep down I know what is best for me and what is not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can manipulate my decision making into making something that is not best for me acceptable, which is not possible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that something that is best for me is not always exciting or fun but in the long run it is more fun and exciting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is fun to be had in taking decisions that are not best for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that what is best for me is truly what is best for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that actively doing what is best for me will result in a better me.

I commit myself to remind myself to do what is best for me, and not compromise myself with anything less.

I commit myself to remind myself that doing what is best for me will result in a better me.

Whenever I see I try to manipulate me into choosing something that is not best for me, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I don't have to go against me, and instead choose to honour myself by doing what is best for me.

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Day 86: The Power of Accumulation


The other day I saw a video on facebook. It was about a dog that had been traped below some stairs, underground. A guy heard the dog bark and set to free it. With only a hammer he started removing cobbles from the floor one by one. At first it seemed ridiculous but then when he had a few cobbles out he was able to reach the part where the dog was at, and free it, it was a pregnant dog.

So when working towards a goal, with our own hands/work, it may seem like too much, but if we keep going step by step we can end up reaching it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my goals are too big.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can walk towards my goal step by step, even if they are babysteps, I will be still walking towards my goal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how things work in physical reality, in accumulation, as in 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how important is the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential that I have if I work with the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my goals as difficult instead of seeing that I can decompose them in may small steps that are doable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have power through the power of accumulation of 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself in not seeing the power that I have in the power of accumulation.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate myself and what I can do in not realizing my true potential as the power of accumulation

I commit myself to value myself in realizing that I have the power of accumulation, of acting towards my goal step by step until it is done.

I commit myself to keep going until I realize all the goals that I set myself to do.

I commit myself to remind myself that I have power through the power of accumulation, 1+1=2

When and as I see myself wanting to give up/slack off, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that through the power of accumulation anything can be achieved.
Thus I commit myself to not give up/slack off, as I see every every opportuity to accumulate as being a step closer to realizing my goals.

When and as I see myself not valuing myself, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that I can accumulate value for myself, by applying myself.
Thus I commit myself to apply myself no matter what.

Monday, June 4, 2018

Day 85: Back to Basics

How time flies, more than a month has passed since my last entry. I am back. Today I want to talk about projects and life in general. We can watch life pass by or do something about it, and this is what I want to do. Recently I have embarked on new projects and it is exciting, I rely on myself and I will need everything I have in order to be successful. What if I fail? I will stand up and go at it again. I am not one who gives up, I simply take another route if stuff is not working, or I may stop for a little while but then I get back up, like with this blog. Why will I continue writing here? Because it supports me, because I hope it can support others as well. It's time to get serious and yet be playful and do things because it is better to do stuff than become stagnant, do a little thing every day at least and if I can do more, I will do more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not support myself writing blogs more regularly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in my desires and not direct myself in common sense in doing what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not administer my time effectively to do the things I know I have to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen if I direct myself effectively all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't be able to accomplish my goals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is not a big goal that I have to fear but not having any goals.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I can support myself to do any goal that I set myself to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can support myself to do whatever goal I set myself to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can be and become whatever I set myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take shortcuts that are not best for me in order to achieve my goals.

I commit myself to not compromise myself in taking shortcuts that are not best for me to get to my goals.

I commit myself to remind myself that I can be and become whatever I set myself to be and become.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that no matter how big the goal, I can change myself to be able to attain it.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is a journey and that I have to enjoy and not see accomplishing my goals as a difficult chore but as a fun journey.

I commit myself to remind myself to have patience with myself with accomplishing my goals.


Saturday, April 21, 2018

Day 84: Avicii

Last Friday died Avicii, a Swedish DJ I liked. Too much party, too much drinking his body couldn't support him anymore.

Why do we accept so much the culture of drinking, alcohol is very destructive for the body. So here we have one of the best DJs of the world and we supply him with alcohol until he dies - he had said he was shy and used alcohol to supply that aspect - so instead of helping him with his shyness we supply him with something that ultimately has lead to his death. No one helped him with his problems to a satisfactory degree, it was too late for him, it is too late. He leaves behind a great legacy of music nonetheless but he could have done so much more, he was so young, 28.

So here, what we accept and allow in others, in the talents that come to Earth, to finish this way? It is sad to say the least - we should support those that drink too much helping them with the issues that they have on a mind level so that they can let go of their addiction, and not think that because someone is a DJ can live the rockstar life, because the rock star life is no longer viable, consequence catches up fast with the body and then there is death.

So to all the talent in this world, we should not ignore celebrities if they are struggling with addictions and think that it comes together with being a celebrity, there should be more widespread information about how the mind works, how to stop addictions, how to overcome shyness for example, so we don't lose anyone, celebrities or not.

What I am referring to is solutions like the Desteni I Process Pro and Desteni I Process Lite, that have so much helped me stop my own addictions, the Desteni I Process Lite is a free online course that gives you essential life skills = skills with which one will not get lost in alcohol addiction for example, and be able to get out of it if one is addicted. They are comprehensive solutions for ones life, the same we should have been able to offer Avicii, Tim Bergling to help him out before it was too late.

Safe travels Tim, and thank you for your expression in music.

Desteni I Process Lite: http://lite.desteniiprocess.com

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Day 83: Alone in my Realizations or Not


I have realized that we don't die. I have realized that we have to do what is Best for All. Who will hear me? I don't know, but I will keep sharing about it. Life is like a collective dream that you wake up from once you die, but in this dream you can experience pain and pleasure, and because of that no one should experience  pain as in starvation for example.

We should be able to All have fun here on Earth. But we have to sort out our minds, that sometimes interfere with that. We might think this is impossible but we have to strive to be the best we can be, and for the world to be the best it can be.

I have realized that I have to speak up, regardless of how many are hearing me or  not, with time there will be more.

Be grateful that you are alive, Enjoy Life.

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Thank you

Ruben

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a following.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear no one hearing what I say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my words will be in vain.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to share unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is impossible to have a following right away, and that in the beggining it will be only myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a following instead of equals walking with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have power.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I already have power.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone in what I say.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I speak the truth it doesn't matter that I am alone.

I commit myself to have patience until others can hear what I say.

I commit myself to live the word compassion, towads myself and others.

I commit myself to share myself and what I realized unconditionally, whatever it is my audience.