Sunday, October 21, 2018

Day 99: The Power Of Accumulation And Practical Points



Do not underestimate the power of accumulation, What I Can Do Daily accumulates. If I accumulate for a result that is Best For All eventually the result is Something that is Best For All.

Let's have a look at this blog. At the beggining it had 0 views, at the moment I am around a hundred views in some entries. This is some responsibility I have when sharing, there is someone that is reading and I will keep sharing, keep accumulating for a result that is Best.

When I apply myself it accumulates to a result that is best for me. When I share my experiences and insights I might be helping others to a degree that I Don't Really Know. The same happens the other way around, if I stop sharing Daily Blogs I don't know how many people I will stop supporting with my blogs and how that might affect them in Not Realizing things about themselves and ultimately Not Making It In This One Life Time.

By Not Making It In This One Life meaning that one is lost in their life of the mind, not questioning themselves, not changing themselves and thus not changing the world, thus being one less in the equality equation of 1 + 1 = 2

1 + 1 = 2 Means that, the accumulation of What Is Best For All as more and more individuals stop, and say 'Till Here No Further' 'I will Not Accept Anything Less than Who I Really Am' 'I will not accept anything less than the Best Version of myself'

We are dealing with powerful stuff here, may we realize it or not - thus the important of daily blogging, thus the importance of Daily Application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to...

When and as I see myself... - I stop, I breathe.
I realize...
And thus, I commit myself to...

That is real power, self forgiveness and self corrective statements that you can use for yourself.

Here some examples:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take drugs.

When and as I see myself wanting to take drugs - I stop, I breathe.
I realize taking drugs is not supportive of myself or my mind.
And thus, I commit myself to redirect myself to do other practical things whenever I want to take drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to watch porn.

When and as I see myself wanting to watch porn - I stop, I breathe.
I realize watching porn is not supportive of my sex life, myself or my life.
And thus, I commit myself to move myself to do something practical whenever I have the urge/want to watch porn.

And so you can set yourself free from addictions, for example, going into more detail with your self forgiveness and self corrective statements - then the practical application is not doing drugs and not using porn.

You can also do the 21 days to Self Freedom wich consists of stopping for 21 days any addiction you might have. If you relapse during the period of stopping, lets say you watch porn at day 2 of walking the 21 days to freedom from Porn - then You start at day 1 Again. Until You Make it. Until you complete the 21 days and then you continue not doing it, only that it will be more easier for you this time as you have set yourself free from that Addiction.

Enjoy

You can learn more of this and know more about your mind by taking the Free Online Course Desteni Lite Process  which will give you essential Life Skills: http://lite.desteniiprocess.com

Day 98: Be A Light That Shines Bright - Quotes That I Have Learned Or Created From My Learnings


Be a Light That Shines Bright - Live A Life that Reverberates into The Universe - Be and Become an Example for Many to Come - Do What is Best for All - Become a Beacon for Life

Become Like A Tree Where Others Can Rest Under Your Shade - Forgive Yourself - Show Through Example - Learn From Others - Listen To Your Inner Voice - Talk Directly - Be Self Honest - Live Principled - If You Deviate Form The Path -- Correct Yourself

Remember The Path Is Not Straight But That May Do Twists And Turns - Become Pliable So That You May Not Break - Live A Life Worth Living - Write Yourself To Freedom - Share Real Love

Love Yourself - Embrace Yourself - Educate The Generations to Come - Do Unto Others As You Would Like Done Unto You - Educate Yourself

Set Yourself Free - Give Purpose To Yourself And Your Life - Do Not Judge Lest You Be Judged

Work on Your Thoughts, Emotions And Feelings - Get Rid of Any and All Addictions - Get Rid of Self Abuse - Get Rid of The Old Self - Born Yourself in The Physical - Challenge Yourself

Show Others What You've Realized - Share Your Process - Walk Your Process In Self Awareness - Become Childlike Not Childish - Mature Without Becoming Rigid and Stiff - Work on Yourself - Invest in Yourself - Remember Self Comes First

Treat Others Equally - Realize and Remember We Are All Equal yet Different - Embrace Uniqueness - Be Original - Don't Try To Become Someone Else - Stay True to Yourself - Find Out Who You Really Are and Become The Best Version of Yourself

Do not Abuse - Do not Manipulate

Remember All Abuse is Self-Abuse - Remember All Manipulation is Self-Manipulation - Remember All Deception is Self Deception

Remember All Self Creation Has An Explanation And A Reason Why - Find Out Who You Have Become And Change Yourself

Don't Allow Yourself to Be Misguided - Do Not Misguide - Keep Quiet if You Don't Have Anything Better To Say - Observe Yourself And Your Surroundings - Be Careful What You Accept And Allow in Your Life - Be Careful What You Wish For

Lead by Example - Become A Leader - Empower Yourself - Find Ways To Support Yourself - Ask For Help When Needed

Stay Humble - Remember The Process - Remember How You Were Before Process In Order to Help Others

Embrace Yourself and Then Forgive The Worst in You

Remember We are In The Same Boat - Remember You Are Never Really Alone - Honour All Life

Help Others As You Have Been Helped

Share to Others As You Have Been Shared - Spread The Message As It Was Shown To You

Get Rid Of Your Ego In Every Breath - Get Rid Of Self-Beliefs - Forgive the Past

Stay True To Your Realizations - Become A Self-Master - Fake it Till You Make It

Do Not Give Up - Do Not Give In - Do Things Into Completion - Never Postpone - Never Procrastinate

Realize The Only Thing That Exists Is Every Moment of Breath Here

Don't Allow The Past to Create Your Future - Correct Yourself

Don't Fall for the Mind - Don't Fall For Desires - Don't Fall for Lazyness - Don't Fall For Addictions - Don't Fall For Love but Find Someone With Which Who You Are Becomes Stronger

Don't Let Sex Stay in The Way of Getting To Know Someone - You Need A Minimum Of Three Months to Start to Get To Know Someone

With Relationships -- Accept Friendship Where It Is Worth It And a Relationship Is Not The Best Option

Don't Settle for Anything Less Than A Supportive Relationship Where Both Of You Become Stronger Together -- Even More So Than Alone

Learn From Mistakes

Don't Use Porn If Not Needed - Realize You Don't Really Need Porn

Build an Effective Agreement With Your Partner

Remember Mind-Altering Substances Can Fuck Up With You - Drugs Are Not A Joke

Remember It Is A Process - Take Things One Day At A Time - Take Things One Breath at a Time

Trick Yourself When Needed To Act In Ways That Are Best For You And For All 'I Will Only Write One Line of the Blog - And then write Many' 'I will Only Study For Half An Hour, and then Study More'

Don't Be Late For Things - Live Self Discipline - Sleep 6 Hours A Day - Find Out What Works For You

Know Yourself

Make Sure You Live Principled Even When You Have More Money

Remember Those That Starve Until There Are No More

Do Not Trust Anyone By Default - Trust Yourself - Be Careful Who You Talk To - Human Beings Are Not Generally Trustable - Trust Those That Have Shown For Real That Are Trustable Over A Period of Time

Be The Same Yesterday, Today And Tomorrow - If You Are Not The Same Yesterday Today And Tomorrow Realize you have a Problem

End Your Problems and Start Living - Live Fully - Risk Everything - Don't Think About What Others Will Say

If You React To Something I say - It is Always About You -- Not About Me

Check Why You React to Things -- What Is It Telling About You

Use Common Sense

Die Well

Desteni: desteni.org

Saturday, October 20, 2018

Day 97: Got Some Guts?



It takes some guts to want to change the world, but it takes maybe more guts to change self. This is what I am here for, to change myself and to change the world.

Who else is with me? I know a bunch of people that are, they call themselves Destonians. 

I have never meet people with more integrity, self-respect and common sense than Destonians, and it is not because they are special but because they apply themselves with the tools provided by Desteni to change themselves towards the best version of themselves.

This is what We are doing. This is not magic. This is grinding.  This is True Grit. By the way, a cool movie to watch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply myself consistently whenever I can.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to make time to apply myself with the tools available.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can't apply myself more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my own limitations with regards to what I believe I can and what I can't do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply the tools whenever needed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I am the cause of my own limitations.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can be and become much more that what I am currently/who I am currently.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do the things that I know are prioritary first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can change the world alone - when indeed groups are needed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can change myself alone, without seeing realizing or understanding that I might need crosreference/assistence with that due to the complexity of the problem.

When and as I see myself not applying myself consistently in my process - I stop, I breathe.
I realize I am here to support myself, no one else can do that for me.
And thus, I commit myself to assist and support myself to the utmost degree.

When and as I see myself not making time to apply the tools - I stop, I breathe.
I realize if I can make time for other things I can make time for this too. 
And thus, I commit myself to make time to apply the tools.


When and as I see myself not applying myself to support myself - I stop, I breathe.
I realize I have to honour myself by supporting myself.
And thus, I commit myself to support myself always in All Ways.

Thursday, October 18, 2018

Day 96: Activation



We are like a computer, when will we activate and unlock our fullest potential? Is that even possible? Some might argue that it is not possible, but that is because they don't have the tools to do so nor know how to.
At Desteni they have investigated and researched this and developed tools to unlock this potential, it is through applying the tools that one might become their fullest potential. And it is this exactly what I am sharing with you through this blog, my journey from conciousness to awareness, from the mind to the physical.

Don't take my word for it, you can test it for yourself for free with the Desteni Lite Process online course, that is walked with a buddy that will support you throughout so that you may understand and integrate the material well.

What are you going to lose? Maybe your perceptions about yourself? Your limitations? Nothing that you are able to lose is who you really are, so don't worry too much about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my own limitations and self-beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to research ways that are available for self support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect myself by not introspecting and looking into my issues and problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be open to the possibilities of what is available in terms of support for self.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I can be and become so much more than I am currently.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and look at what are my own limitations.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am indeed conditioned by my own mind, thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am my thoughts, feelings and emotions - taking this as an accepted truth without critical thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to do what I think.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not my emotions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not my feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be deluded and misguided by my own thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am fine 'just the way I am'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am fucked beyond any possible recuperation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can direct and stop my own thoughts, feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I stop thinking I will become a robot.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that feelings and emotions can be expressed as self-expression and not as energy - so that I will not become a robot yet will be free from the mind and energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that there is help available for those that dare to question everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can 'solve myself' by myself alone, without seeing, realizing and understanding that the size of the problem self faces is so great that one will need external help for crossreference when walking through the mind into the physical.

When and as I see myself that I believe I am my own limitations and self-beliefs - I stop, I breathe.
I realize I am so much more than my own limitations.
And thus, I commit myself to work on and through my own limitations with the tools available so that I may reach my fullest potential.

When and as I see myself that I believe I am my own toughts, feeling and emotions - I stop, I breathe.
I realize in self honesty that I don't know where they come from.
And thus, I commit myself to not trust by default the thoughts, feelings and emotions that come up inside of myself but question them at all times.

When and as I see myself believing I am fine just the way I am - I stop, I breathe.
I realize I have patterns that are repeated in my life that are not best for me for example.
And thus, I commit myself to practice self-honesty and see where it is that I am not the best version of myself to change it.

When and as I see myself believing I can sort myself out alone - I stop, I breathe.
I realize that the mind is so complex one can become lost alone facing it.
And thus, I commit myself to accept the help that is available to sort myself out into self realization/self awareness.

Enjoy
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Tuesday, October 16, 2018

Day 95: The Riddle

Me at the Farm with the dogs. Photo by Leila Zamora

Riddle: A question or statement intentionally phrased so as to require ingenuity in ascertaining its answer or meaning.

What will it take for you to hear me? What will it take for the world to listen to what Desteni has to say? On a personal level, it takes Courage to listen to the MessAge because it is not a nice one. Basically we are all fucked, our minds are complex and it took me about 10 years to really start applying myself in the Desteni Lite and the Desteni Pro courses - which I am in through a sponsorship, thank you Desteni -, which are tools for self change. This is why I don'r expect anyone or everyone to do it.

But hear this, eventhough for ten years since I knew of the Desteni Process I did not apply myself effectively at it, I was all the while walking the process. We are all walking this process from conciousness to awareness, even if we are not aware of it, and through my experiences in life I have come to see that: Walking My Process in self-direction, directing myself to apply the tools effectively is the best route, more easy, more fast to direct my life and change myself effectively.

But yes, all these years that I have been on and off listening to the Desteni Message, applying myself here and there but not really walking the process for real  - all this time has not been in vain - it was not necessary 'to waste' all this years but now that I am in the position where I understand that I have to do it - if all those years have served me to work on myself now, then it has been worth it.

I knew of Desteni back in 2008-2009, by then it was different, there was the channel in Youtube where all was available for free, now there is EQAFE the online store which is very cool. Someone external fucked around and the channel at Youtube was closed by Youtube - who was behind it I don't know but the channel, which had many subscribers was shut down, yet this was not a problem because the store opened and now is a way to support the message.

I was able to visit the Desteni Farm for a week before the passing of Bernad Poolman, and I can say the place is 'normal' defining normal as a place where things are taken care of such as the animals, the land, the plants and the only extraordinary is the fact that the recordings from the Portal are being done there - and also that there are no bad/ill/toxic relationships between the members, which is quite difficult to achieve in a community where many people live together, and it is because all are walking the same process I am telling of here.

So I as an 'international observer' because I don't live in South Africa - I can say that all things taking place in the farm are cool, normal and ordinary as in what happens in a community where self-responsible human beings live.

I had a great time there, but because I was not used to communicate with other human beings on a deep level - because I had not yet connected with myself on that level - I connected a lot with the dogs there, they are great. There is a pool there and we played a lot by the pool and throwing stuff to the pool so that the Labradors could retrieve the toys from the pool.

Back to the Riddle, it will take some guts to be able to hear the Riddle, the Desteni message, which is straghtfoward and direct - yet uses some vocabulary that people might not be used to because there are things such as self-honesty, self-forgiveness, equality, oneness, that are not widely used and readily available in our mundane lifes, not taught at school, not taught at home, and it shouldn't be like this.

Desteni is a solution to self. And is the only tool that I have seen and proven to myself that works, and I have proof of it every day in my interactions with myself and others, where it has helped me to overcome addictions and understand life patterns of why do I do certain things, how I interact with the world, with the education system for example, where I failed many times in my life and came to an understanding as to why this was so - through a Fear of Failure Character that I will explain in another blog in coming blogs.

If you are able to hear what I am saying, what Desteni are saying know this: You are in a rare position, not usual because many like in the matrix movie are not yet ready to take the Red Pill - and remember this: If you can hear the Desteni Message, act fast - don't wait! Because the window of opportunity may close as the mind will give all and any excuse to not change so you might lose on opportunities for yourself and your life of CHANGE - real change. Don't do like me that took so many years to start walking for real, because I have missed out on my potential all these years - in retrospective I should have walked the Desteni I Process effectively back in 2010 or so, when I first started it and not given up and given in - only for years later, only years later to take it again.

Again, if you can hear me, don't wait, don't take years to come back because you will realise through experience - such as pain and suffering that I have endured in many ways such as my bipolar condition that was nonexistent back in 2010 - and I am not saying that becoming bipolar is a consequence of not walking the process effectively, but that the process might have been an effective tool to understand it better when it first came up, through knowing myself and my mind more as it is what happens when you walk the Desteni I Process -

So you will see  that walking this process is a very effective way to direct self to knowing self, to direct self to change, to direct self to become more, to stop the limitations, so stop self-abuse, self-limitations that prevent self to change and become more and walk towards the best version or ourselves.

Check out the Desteni Lite Process: http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/
Check out the Desteni I Process: http://desteniiprocess.com/
Check out Desteni: http://desteni.org/
Check out EQAFE online Store: https://eqafe.com/

From Desteni.org: 'At Desteni we thoroughly research and investigate the essence of what it means to live responsibly and fully. This research is done through the participation of everyone that is interested and dares to take on the journey of self-discovery. We share our findings through video, audio and text through various internet media. This website gathers all the relevant information and links you'll want to explore if you're interested in learning about Desteni.
Enjoy!'

Sunday, October 14, 2018

Day 94: All or Nothing



Do you want to Have it All or Nothing? Because this is what we are dealing with here, not half-assed shit -  and yes I can say shit because this world is in a very very Big Shit: Starvation, Poverty, Rape, Violence Everything that exists is collapsing and unless we do something, unless we stand up for change and say no more --

Speak Up, say what you like and don't like about the world and then let's work together to change it!

The yard is full of rubbish? Let's clean it.

The world is full of rubbish? Let's recycle it.

We have the thechnology. We have the manpower. We have everything we need.

Money: We print it. We do it all ourselves, we are doing this to ourselves! It's time to stop hating ourselves because as it is seen from the exterior it looks like we are hating eachother, ourselves and the world.

Let's stop the hate.

Those that don't want to change the world are saying that they want YOU to perish with THEM so fuck them.

Yes I can say fuck too, because this place is fucked and unless we use some real language we won't find some real fucking solutions.

Not solutions for the demented sex minds, that is also something that will be provided, and you can start already now with the Desteni Lite Process if you have a sex-crazed mind, it might help you if you are not too fucked to the point of no return.

Then you can start with blogging sharing your process of change to prove that you can be real trustable human being. This will take a minimum of 7 years of daily blogging.

And Stop Fucking Around

All or Nothing this is what we are here for, either we create a world that is Best for All or we perish in insufferable pain. All Or Nothing.

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Day 93: I Am Here For A Moment


I am here for a moment. And in this moment I want to do my best so that the world is changed when I am gone. I am here for a moment, during my life I want to make anything all and everything for world change:

No More Starvation.

No More Humiliation.

No More Rape.

No More Genocide

No More Abuse

No More

So, we have to Agree that we Agree. It is very simple, do What is Best For All Always in All Ways. If it means writting blogs so that people starts Hearing the MessAge then it's fine, I will write over 2.555 blogs, that is 7 years of daily blogging, I can do that for world change. I can Change Myself and I can Change the world with me.

It is All in the Relationships that we Form  - Are those Relationships of Support or are they a form of Abuse? We have to and must end with all Abuse and start Relationships of Support of One Another, Everyone Helps One, First Help Yourself then Help The World.

Investigate, my flame has been started by myself with the tools as proposed here, for free:

http://lite.desteniiprocess.com/

Enjoy

Friday, October 12, 2018

Day 92: The Fuse



We all are the fuse that change the world. We all can change the world.If we individually say we cannot change the world then we will not be able to do it. But if More and More People starts saying I Am The Fuse For Change, let's ignite it for World Change.

It means not accepting your neighbour going to bed in hunger.

It means not accepting pollution all over the world.

It means not accepting and allowing the Eco-No-Me as it exists now but one that distributes resources equally to all.

It means

Let the rain fall down over all LIFE!

And then let's start constructing a better life for all. https://equallife.org/index.php/missionvision

Yes, if you have flowers you have to water them equally, don't you? The same with money and the world, it has to be distributed evenly there is no secret in it, them at the Equal Life Foundation they have done the math and have come up with fair system to put in place.

I don't know if it is only me but I feel like the fuse, that is ready to ignite for world change, we are all indeed the fuse that will ignite for world change. We will stand up and we will rise.

What happened? Some door opened? It has always been in Us the decision to change! Collectively we decide but it is one by one that creates the collective.  So if I myself decide I am going to change the world, then there is one more, and one plus one plus one we can change the world.

Why I say we are the Fuse for Change? Because we will one day die, but the consequences of our passsing through this life will remain here, so we are like the Fuse we will Burn and Dissipate but as the burning FUSE something was transmitted along which is World Change into Equality.

Don't you get it?

It is very simple, we will all die, and the day I die I want to be remembered for what I did to change the world, not for what I did to perpetuate the shit that exists. And if I die and I am not remembered yet the world is changed then I die in peace.

Thursday, October 11, 2018

Day 91: Perceptions About Other People


How much perceptions about other people blind us. For example with your boss you have to be a certain way, with your mother a certain way because apparently you have to behave differently with every person that you meet. This is not true. In my case I have had the opportunity to have people that wanted to help me out but I didn't take their hand because we had a work relationship for example I am the employee and he is the 'boss' so I can't talk straight to the person apparently - not true - real communication starts when one is honest with oneself and gets rid of all judgement to the other person because of his/her position and talks to the being straight, considering consequence of course but allowing oneself to be real when the other person is there for you.

It may make not much sense for you as I am being too vague. It is because I don't want to name people here. But let's say you have a cool 'boss' at work but you don't allow yourself to share what is going on with your life, the individual has helped you before with giving you a job and showing signs that he/she has common sense and is supportive of you - the best thing to do is to when things don't go well, share them to find solutions together where the individual can lend a hand.

Because before I had used other people to know other people, asked what do you think of this person to someone else, would you trust this person? Instead of asking these questions to myself! Of course if I get the answers from someone else I am trusting on his/her view and it may be biased!

So this post is to remind me and you dear reader that you can't know a person through someone else, you either do it yourself or it is not possible, and even then I have to remove all judgement of position, status and merely look at the facts, at all our interactions and how the other person has interacted with me to know what is the deal with that person.

Alright have a nice day!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for their position in relation to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself form x for his position.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to talk straght to x because I trusted others opinions about him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give value to others opinions and judgements about someone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assess for myself who I am going to trust and who not, relying on others for advice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by accepting others judgements about other people as true.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live with judgements towards other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take others judgements about a person as true without doing my own research.


When and as I see myself wanting to know someone through someone else - I stop, I breathe.
I realize I can only know someone through myself if I give myself the opportunity to open up to him/her when I have decided I can trust him/her.
And thus, I commit myself to decide for myself based on all the information that I have to open up to someone else or not, not decided by an other's opinion/judgement of that person  - as it might be biased from the true nature of the being - and I might never get to know him/her if I listen to such judgements.

When and as I see myself having judgements about other people - I stop, I breathe.

I realize judgements blind me from seeing the person for real.
And thus, I commit myself to get rid of all judgement, from myself and from others about any individual.

When and as I see myself looking for 'advice' on other people - I stop, I breathe.
I realize I can ask what one thinks of some individual but have to always take it with a pinch of salt and always assess it for myself too.
And thus, I commit myself to assess for myself who I am going to trust, me having the final decision not someone elses opinion about the individual I am considering trusting.

When and as I see myself wanting others to tell me how an individual is - I stop, I breathe.
I realize people will most of the time tell their view that might be biased.
And thus, I commit myself to consider all things when deciding to trust someone yet not base my final decision to trust an individual by listening to others judgements about that person - but that it is me who decides who I trust.

When and as I see myself fearing to trust someone - I stop, I breathe.
I realize that I have enough experience to know when I have proof that someone is supportive of me or not.
And thus, I commit myself to trust myself when I decide to trust someone, based on real space-time events that have happened as evidence that I can trust this being - or not.

When and as I see myself  holding myself back from real communication with a being - I stop, I breathe.
I realize that somewhere I might be judging myself or the being or both.
And thus, I commit myself to check all judgements I might have of me, him/her and our relationship to make sure I am clear and can communicate effectively, without judgement.

When and as I see myself asking someone if I can trust this or that being - I stop, I breathe.
I realize what others decide to do with their life in terms of trusting someone is their decision and that I can take my own decisions.
And thus, I commit myself to take my own decisions in relation to who I decide to trust and who not, not taking others decisions as my own but make my own.

Monday, October 8, 2018

Day 90: Life Lessons

.. So choose carefully

Lately Life has given me some hard lessons, nothing that I cannot handle yet hard stuff. Thus why I have not written here much, yet I expect to write here more regularly now.

Sometimes we need experiences to learn and this is what has been happening to me lately, some nice lessons I have learned, such as:

Don't Trust strangers: If you don't know someone, you don't have to trust them - trust is gained not given as my mother told me.

Don't carry more money than you are ready to lose: If you are carrying more money than you can afford losing, better put it in the bank or somewhere safe As Soon As Possible, even if it is inconvenient, first put the money somewhere safe and then continue with your day  - or night - .

Don't let strangers know about your  life, where you live and your schedules: You don't know who is a thief and I learned this the hard way - not much has been lost but enough to know better.

Don't trust someone because they tell you about his/her life and problems: People can show one face and have many hidden - as I said before trust is gained not given to just anyone.

Don't take drugs: Mind altering substances can alter you past the point you desire/had thought. Drugs taken to have fun can end in not so much fun after all, such as psychosis/mania, more so with bipolars.

Don't repeat the same mistakes: If you see you've made a mistake, forget about anyone or anything else, it is prioritary to not repeat it again, even if it looks like you are losing. For exampe, you give money to someone and they don't give it back. Don't give any more money in fear that they won't return the initial amount, it doesn't work like that  - if they don't return the money give no more money. Ideally never give money, see next point:

Don't give money to strangers: It doesn't matter the situation, if a stranger asks for money - not even for gas - if they want gas pay it at the pump so you make sure it goes for gas - don't give cash - if he or she needs a sandwitch to eat then it's cool to buy it for them but if you put money into the equation all sorts of problems may arise such as the person wanting more or wanting to know more about you to rob you later - true story.

Don't Trust first impressions: Con artists and thiefs exist, they show a pretty trustable face to the world in order to decieve people they think are weak in order to get money mostly - don't let seemingly good people know about you, where you live and what money you have as they might be the thief/con artists that cleans/gets all that you might have -  Remember the don't trust Strangers point, strangers can seem very cool people too, they might show interest in your problems and your life but it is all to exploit you/get your money, either by asking for it and/or taking it - thiefs are more common than you think and there will be more and more as the money system collapses.

Don't try to get friends by giving/lending them money: If you give money to someone expecting to get a new friend, you will lose the money and lose the potential friend - true story.

Friends are not bought and sold - but appreciate eachother for what/who they are.

So far the lessons for today.

Enjoy








Sunday, August 5, 2018

Day 89: Acceptance and Allowance



Whatever I accept and allow in others I accept and allow in me. I know someone that likes to drink a lot, then drives and also takes other drugs. If I accept and allow that this individual comes to my place in this state is not good for me or for them, I have to draw the line and tell him I won't accept and allow to see them when they are in this state. And yes I might lose him but best to lose someone that might come back once he is sorted out than having someone close that abuses substances - which is something I won't accept and allow in me or others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear E getting angry with me for saying to him that I won't see him when he is drunk/on drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear E getting violent because I say I will not see him unless he is sober.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it not seeing E when he is on drugs is best for me and for him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept E when he is on drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be friends with E.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that accepting E on drugs is not being his friend.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that not accepting E while he is on drugs is what is best for me and for him.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear E aggressivity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear putting limits as to what will I accept and allow near me and in my home and what not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that setting limits is the best I can do in this situation.

When and as I see myself fearing an aggressive reaction from E- I stop, I breathe.
I realize that fear is not real but an illusion.

And thus, I commit myself to talk to E despite my fear.

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Day 88: Fear Not

It's been a while that I have written a blog. I am back again - I was participating in excuses as to why I don't write - but no excuses are valid. Today I have come across some realizations while doing the assignment of the Desteni I Process Pro which I will share now.

Fear is not real. All fear is Self-Created. Fear is an excuse to not stand up for Self and for All. Fear sucks and today I will explain more about it as well as doing some Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Application on it.

What is Fear? What is Fear but a self created illusion to not have to stand up for oneself? Because one can claim, I did not stand up for myself in this life becaue of this and that fears. But is this claim vaild? No it is not. First of all, where does this fear come from but Ourselves? Who created this fear in the first place? Us? Why would we do such a thing? To never realize who we really are. Yes it was us that created fear, and we all collectively did the same, so we could claim an excuse to not have to do that which is Best for All - To not have to Stop All Separation -- First inside ourselves and then Outside - as that which is Outside of Self is but a representation of what is Inside.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is real just because I can feel it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't know where fear comes from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to direct my life according to what fears I experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I create every experience that I have - thus I created fear.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I created fear in order to use it as an excuse to not stand up for myself as Who I Really Am and in order not Stand Up For All.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I created fear in order to not have to face myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that fear is but a test.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that self-deception is the cause why fear exists - yet it is an illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fear despite never having seen one in reality.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if one sticks to breath - no fear is able to exist - and it only exists when one participates in the illusions of the head as the mind and is not Here breathing effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that utilizing fear as an excuse to take decisions is making the illusion more important than that which is real - thus is not valid.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I will not be able to claim that I did not change because of fear, as fear is a self created illusion for self to not have to change - and does not in fact have power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see that fear is but an indication of 'doors to self' where self has put guards/locked doors as fear so one does not realize self and is able to live in separation from self in self interest -- but if one acts despite the fears one will indeed realize self and act as that which is Best For All.

Buh

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that resistance is but another test/door that self has put to not have to change, and that self has to act despite resistance and fear -- and doing the very thing one resists and fears are Doors to Self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create fear to not have to stand up for myself - in order to have an excuse to not End Self-Separation and Separation Outside of myself as this world is currently representing of our inner selves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if all create fears and participate in fears it is ok to use fear as an excuse to not stand up for Self - all the while Fear is an Illusion and an Illusion can never be a valid excuse, even if it is a Collective Illusion - it is not an excuse to not stand up for Self and for All.

When and as I see myself fear - I stop, I breathe.
I realize that fear is an Illusion 
And thus, I commit myself to walk despite any fears I might experience.

When and I see myself using fear as an excuse to not stand up for myself  - I stop and I breathe.
I realize that I created fear in order to remain in self-interest - and that I have to act despite of it, until it is no more - within the realization that fear will not go away just because I know the nature of it as it is a constant test to see who will choose the Illusion over Reality.
And thus I commit myself to always walk despite fear being present, as I know it is an illusion and this is enough for me to not take it into consideration and act despite it being present.

Saturday, June 23, 2018

Day 87: Yes or No

Recently I watched the documentary in Netflix Avicii, Real Stories, that is about the life of Tim Bergling. In the documentary it was interesting when another artist said that Tim had very clear what he wanted in music and what he didn't want, because from there they had something to work on. It reminds me of Ferran AdriĆ , a famous cook, trying out food and deciding if he likes it or not in the moment, if he did not like something he'd say it and they would do something different to get to a good flavour/texture whatever they were searching for.

It is a reminder to, in life, choose in every moment what we want and what we don't want, what is good for us and what is not good for us, without hesitation. When one becomes a master in music, in cooking or in life, one has very clearly defined what one wants, or better said, what one will accept and allow and what will not accept and allow. And we all have that internal knowing of what is best for us and what is not, simply that there are the ones that decide to hear it out and those that don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my internal knowing of what is best for me when faced with a decision, choosing desire over common sense practicality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can try and manipulate my decisions but deep down I know what is best for me and what is not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can manipulate my decision making into making something that is not best for me acceptable, which is not possible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that something that is best for me is not always exciting or fun but in the long run it is more fun and exciting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is fun to be had in taking decisions that are not best for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that what is best for me is truly what is best for me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that actively doing what is best for me will result in a better me.

I commit myself to remind myself to do what is best for me, and not compromise myself with anything less.

I commit myself to remind myself that doing what is best for me will result in a better me.

Whenever I see I try to manipulate me into choosing something that is not best for me, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I don't have to go against me, and instead choose to honour myself by doing what is best for me.

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Day 86: The Power of Accumulation


The other day I saw a video on facebook. It was about a dog that had been traped below some stairs, underground. A guy heard the dog bark and set to free it. With only a hammer he started removing cobbles from the floor one by one. At first it seemed ridiculous but then when he had a few cobbles out he was able to reach the part where the dog was at, and free it, it was a pregnant dog.

So when working towards a goal, with our own hands/work, it may seem like too much, but if we keep going step by step we can end up reaching it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my goals are too big.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can walk towards my goal step by step, even if they are babysteps, I will be still walking towards my goal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how things work in physical reality, in accumulation, as in 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how important is the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential that I have if I work with the power of accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my goals as difficult instead of seeing that I can decompose them in may small steps that are doable.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have power through the power of accumulation of 1+1=2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value myself in not seeing the power that I have in the power of accumulation.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to underrate myself and what I can do in not realizing my true potential as the power of accumulation

I commit myself to value myself in realizing that I have the power of accumulation, of acting towards my goal step by step until it is done.

I commit myself to keep going until I realize all the goals that I set myself to do.

I commit myself to remind myself that I have power through the power of accumulation, 1+1=2

When and as I see myself wanting to give up/slack off, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that through the power of accumulation anything can be achieved.
Thus I commit myself to not give up/slack off, as I see every every opportuity to accumulate as being a step closer to realizing my goals.

When and as I see myself not valuing myself, I stop and I breathe.
I realize that I can accumulate value for myself, by applying myself.
Thus I commit myself to apply myself no matter what.

Monday, June 4, 2018

Day 85: Back to Basics

How time flies, more than a month has passed since my last entry. I am back. Today I want to talk about projects and life in general. We can watch life pass by or do something about it, and this is what I want to do. Recently I have embarked on new projects and it is exciting, I rely on myself and I will need everything I have in order to be successful. What if I fail? I will stand up and go at it again. I am not one who gives up, I simply take another route if stuff is not working, or I may stop for a little while but then I get back up, like with this blog. Why will I continue writing here? Because it supports me, because I hope it can support others as well. It's time to get serious and yet be playful and do things because it is better to do stuff than become stagnant, do a little thing every day at least and if I can do more, I will do more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not support myself writing blogs more regularly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in my desires and not direct myself in common sense in doing what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not administer my time effectively to do the things I know I have to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what will happen if I direct myself effectively all the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't be able to accomplish my goals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is not a big goal that I have to fear but not having any goals.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I can support myself to do any goal that I set myself to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can support myself to do whatever goal I set myself to do.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can be and become whatever I set myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take shortcuts that are not best for me in order to achieve my goals.

I commit myself to not compromise myself in taking shortcuts that are not best for me to get to my goals.

I commit myself to remind myself that I can be and become whatever I set myself to be and become.

I commit myself to see, realize and understand that no matter how big the goal, I can change myself to be able to attain it.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is a journey and that I have to enjoy and not see accomplishing my goals as a difficult chore but as a fun journey.

I commit myself to remind myself to have patience with myself with accomplishing my goals.


Saturday, April 21, 2018

Day 84: Avicii

Last Friday died Avicii, a Swedish DJ I liked. Too much party, too much drinking his body couldn't support him anymore.

Why do we accept so much the culture of drinking, alcohol is very destructive for the body. So here we have one of the best DJs of the world and we supply him with alcohol until he dies - he had said he was shy and used alcohol to supply that aspect - so instead of helping him with his shyness we supply him with something that ultimately has lead to his death. No one helped him with his problems to a satisfactory degree, it was too late for him, it is too late. He leaves behind a great legacy of music nonetheless but he could have done so much more, he was so young, 28.

So here, what we accept and allow in others, in the talents that come to Earth, to finish this way? It is sad to say the least - we should support those that drink too much helping them with the issues that they have on a mind level so that they can let go of their addiction, and not think that because someone is a DJ can live the rockstar life, because the rock star life is no longer viable, consequence catches up fast with the body and then there is death.

So to all the talent in this world, we should not ignore celebrities if they are struggling with addictions and think that it comes together with being a celebrity, there should be more widespread information about how the mind works, how to stop addictions, how to overcome shyness for example, so we don't lose anyone, celebrities or not.

What I am referring to is solutions like the Desteni I Process Pro and Desteni I Process Lite, that have so much helped me stop my own addictions, the Desteni I Process Lite is a free online course that gives you essential life skills = skills with which one will not get lost in alcohol addiction for example, and be able to get out of it if one is addicted. They are comprehensive solutions for ones life, the same we should have been able to offer Avicii, Tim Bergling to help him out before it was too late.

Safe travels Tim, and thank you for your expression in music.

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Thursday, April 12, 2018

Day 83: Alone in my Realizations or Not


I have realized that we don't die. I have realized that we have to do what is Best for All. Who will hear me? I don't know, but I will keep sharing about it. Life is like a collective dream that you wake up from once you die, but in this dream you can experience pain and pleasure, and because of that no one should experience  pain as in starvation for example.

We should be able to All have fun here on Earth. But we have to sort out our minds, that sometimes interfere with that. We might think this is impossible but we have to strive to be the best we can be, and for the world to be the best it can be.

I have realized that I have to speak up, regardless of how many are hearing me or  not, with time there will be more.

Be grateful that you are alive, Enjoy Life.

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Ruben

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a following.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am alone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear no one hearing what I say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my words will be in vain.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to share unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is impossible to have a following right away, and that in the beggining it will be only myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a following instead of equals walking with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have power.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I already have power.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being alone in what I say.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I speak the truth it doesn't matter that I am alone.

I commit myself to have patience until others can hear what I say.

I commit myself to live the word compassion, towads myself and others.

I commit myself to share myself and what I realized unconditionally, whatever it is my audience.


Wednesday, April 11, 2018

Day 82: Dying or Not Dying



It's been about 10 days since I wrote here, during this time I have had to rethink how I want to live and make decisions to change my life, here on I will post more regularly.

Today I want to talk about a dream I had the other night, I was dreaming and suddenly I realized 'Oh, I am dreaming' I was fully aware that I was dreaming, that I was in a dream, and I said to myself 'I have to not abuse' meaning I don't want to murder anyone or do anything nasty in my dream, like I had a principle in my dream. Then I had fun, I was able to fly, to run around, I met people that I know in my dream, of course later on in the day when I met them they did not remember that I met them in the dream because people do not communicate with eachother in dreams, I was able to say to a co-worker that I found in my dream 'If tomorrow you remember what I said to you let me know' but later on in the day when I wake up she did not remember of course.

So I was in my dream and in my physical body I wanted to fart, and I woke up. I was now in this reality, physical reality and had removed myself from the dream.

What I want to tell you with this story is that Life is like a dream, we can communicate with others in this dream that is Life and then we cross over, like with a fart, and we may remember things from our Life. But we have to remember, we are here, we don't have to abuse. I'd say we have to live by a very simple principle that is 'doing what is Best for All' then we will have an experience in this world that is worth while. Because when we die, we don't die, it's like waking up from a dream, a very cool dream where we can fly with planes, experience pain and pleasure be good or bad -- I'd say let's all be good with eachother, let's all play within the context and the principle of that which is Best For All.

I realized this, I am in a place from where I will wake up and be myself still, but I know I will not be able to come back to this reality once I am out of it, once I am farted out of this reality that is it, and this reality will last, and I want to leave behind a reality that is best for All, for the children to come, for me, for everyone.

This is a big opportunity that we all have, we have somehow engineered a collective dream that is reality, where we can suffer or play, let's all play, let's all have fun, let's all live life within the principle of that which is Best For All. I don't care who you have been until now, a coward, someone with courage, a thief, a respectable banker, a sportsman, a creep - all can now decide to and have the opportunity to walk within the principle of that which is Best for All.

All that it takes is some self correction, some self forgiveness to let go of all that we have participated that we are not proud. Osho says, there may be mistakes, things that we did that we are not proud of, but the self is never wrong, self is always right.

Everyone has the chance to wake up in this life, and realize, as Bernard Poolman said, this is your last life, don't mess up with it, don't fuck around for too long because then you will be farted out of this reality and abusers will not be able to participate in further games in this existence. Realize that this life is not a game once children die each day, we have to correct that.

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Sunday, March 25, 2018

Day 81:Bossing Around Newbies

We have a new co-worker at work and I noticed how I want him to do as I say because I have more experience than him. There is no problem in telling how tings are done but the problem is that I want him to do as I say, going into a power trip if I am to be successful at him doing what I say. It has not worked, meaning I could say him to put the plates in a different way and he would say there is no space, when in fact there was, so the only thing that worked was that I put the plates in order myself so that he could see how it is done.

Overall I can see that I have beliefs about having authority over others for being longer on the job, which is not true. So instead of trying to boss around newbies what I'll do now is show them how it is done and that's it. I see I am not more than them, and I cannot try to boss them around, as it only indicates how I don't have autority over me when I try to have authority over others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want Y to obey me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have power over Y because I have been longer in the job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Y has to do what I say because I know how things are done and he doesn't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be strict with Y in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have power over new recruits.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that antiquity in the job means I have more authority.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to have autority over myself and want to exteriorize it on Y.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am entitled to power because of antiquity in the job.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed msyelf to believe power doensn't come from antiquity but from how much I apply common sense, how others see that what I do makes sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to say to Y how to do things well instead of showing him by doing.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to believe I am equal to Y.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in Y for the job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Y as not fit/slow for the job.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others in the job.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to simply try to improve myself intstead of looking at how others perform.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unfair with Y by judging him when he is still learning how to do the work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on Y in my mind by judging him as slow when he is still a newbie at the job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see Y as a threat instead that as a valuable job peer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from newbies at work by believing I am more for knowing how stuff is done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to go into a power trip by having Y do what I tell him to do.

I believe myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that if I have Y do what I say I will have power over him.

I commit myself to remind myself to not judge others.

I commit myelf to remind myself to take it back to self whenever I am being hard on others and judge others, to see where I am being hard on myself and I judge myself.

I commit myself to remind myself that being longer on the job doensn't mean I have authority over others.

I commit myelf to show Y how stuff is done by doing it not by telling.

Whenever I see that I try to 'boss Y around' I stop and I breathe, I realize that I cannot boss anyone around, that I merely have to show how it is done if I know how it is done, and that's it.

Whenever I see that I want Y to do something, I stop and I breathe. I see if I can show him by doing or if not, and if not I simply comment to him how it is done, without wanting him to do differently, I simply share what I know.




Saturday, March 24, 2018

Day 80: Participation in Moderation


Yesterday I went out and this point of moderation came up, how in order to have fun one can participate in going out in moderation and it is fun as well, one doesn't have to participate in excess in order to have fun, or limit oneself by not participating at all.

For example having one drink, it is enough. Previously I would not have even one drink but yesterday it was hot inside the disco and I was thirsty so I had one drink. Later on I was outside and although I don't smoke I asked for a cigarette to strike a conversation with a group of females. Afterwards I danced with them inside. Overall participating in moderation is fun.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the word moderation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the benefits in living moderation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that not only excess can be pleasant but moderation as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in order to have fun I have to participate in excess.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can have fun participating in moderation.

I forgive myself that I have acceped and allowed myself to not see the benefits in moderation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself by believing I only can have fun when participating in excess.

I commit myself to remind myself that I can participate in moderation and have fun.

I commit myself to remind myself that I don't have to limit myself by not participating or by participating in excess, but that I can participate in moderation in things.

Whenever I see that I want to participate in something, I ask myself, is it within moderation? And then act accordingly.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is OK to participate in things in moderation.

I commit myself to remind myself that one doensn't need to be wasted in order to have fun.

Friday, March 23, 2018

Day 79: Difficulties at Studying


Today I have been facing what I find are difficult math, but in time it may be easy for me, who knows. I've seen that when I face a difficult problem I want to give up before I even start.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up before I even start in my studies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge what I have to do as too difficult.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if others can do it, so can I - with regards to math problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot do math.

I forigive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I cannot do math.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up because apparently I can't do math.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I will laugh at me wanting to give up now when I can do the problems well in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that being good at math will take time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beileve that if I can't do something right away it means I cannot do it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed msyelf to be patient with myself with learning new things.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to remind myself how long it took me to learn to walk - for example -, so it can take me a while to be good at math but eventually I will make it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to believe in myself in relation to math and other subjects.

I commit myself to remind myself that it can take time for me to be good at math but I don't have to give up because of this.

I commit myself to remind myself to be patient with myself while I learn new things.

I commit myself to remind myself to believe in myself.


Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Day 78: Goal Setting


Today I was reading an interview of Chris Hemsworth, the australian actor that portrays Thor in the Marvel movies, he talks about how he had a good childhood  nearby aboriginal tribes, his rise to fame and how he lives now in a cool place, like a paradise with his wife Elsa Pataky and children.

Who wouldn't want to have a life like that? We all should be able to have a good childhood, be able to provide a good childhood for our children and make a decent living - n
in fact we could all live like millionaires if we globally put ourselves to this effort, starting with a universal basic income.

Googling Chris, the first thing that appears is news that Chris slept on a public bench, took a nap at the street - lol, in the interview they did say that he was a down to earth guy.

His interview made me think about me, how I have to set myself goals and work towards them, had Chris not done so he would have never achieved what he has achieved, so at least I have to set my goals and work towards them to have the possibility of them becoming real.

I forgive myself that I have acceped and allowed myself to separate myself from Chris Hemsworth.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can also achieve a good life maybe not to the level of Chris but effective as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not set myself with high goals in the belief that I can't achieve them.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to not plan my life carefully essentially giving up before I even start.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot achieve good things for me in life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can change my life for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that maybe I won't become rich and famous but I can substantially change my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot have a good life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can create a good life for myself.

I commit myself to remind myself that I can create a good life for myself.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am the creative principle of my life.

Sunday, March 18, 2018

Day 77: Blogging Expectations


For three days I have not been able to write, I did not know what topic to write about - or so I thought. Today I started doing some self forgiveness on this point and the point came up of how I give importance on my blog posts being shared/featured and how I fear my posts not being shared/featured. This implies that the content that I am going to post can be in my eyes less valuable than my previous ones if I don't get featured/shared as much.

So I put this unnecessary pressure on me by wanting my next blog post being shared/featured and this made it more difficult for me to write.

Now I see it is not if my blog post is shared or not but how useful it is for me, as it can be then useful to others, this is the value of my blog. So I will keep writing blogs that are most useful to me and perhaps in turn help out others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have no topic to write about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need inspiration in order to write.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the 'writers block' is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not living up to my expectations when I blog.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others will not like this post as much as the other ones.

I forgive myself that that I have accepted and allowed myself to base the worth of a my blog whether it is shared by other people or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can blog about what bothers me at the moment, a point that is not directed within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel fulfilled whenever others share my blog and fear being empty if they don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if others don't share my blog I am not good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value my self worth on others actions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not how much my blog is shared but how much can support another, which I cannot measure and may not be immediate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe being featured/shared means my blog is more valuable, where it would be equally valuable if it was not featured/shared as much.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myelf to believe that I have made it if I get shared/featured and that I am a failure if I don't.

I commit myself to remind myself that blogs are as valuable as they are useful to me, which in turn can be useful to others as well.

I commit myself to remind myself that if my blog is not featured/shared as much it is not less valuable.

I commit myself to remind myself that I write the blogs for me, not to be featured/shared.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is cool if I am being featured/shared but it is not to make it something special/more than what it is.

I commit myself to remind myself that my blog will be equally valuable if it happens to not be shared/featured as much.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am not a failure if I don't get shared/featured as much.

I commit myself to remind myself that the value in my blogs is how useful they are to me, how much they give to me, and not how much they are shared/featured.

Thursday, March 15, 2018

Day 76: Patience With Change



Sometimes I want to change very fast and reality shows me otherwise, that it can take time for change to be implemented. Today I felt somnolence during the day and allowed myself to sleep eventhough I know I should have pushed to do things, but hey it is not to judge me, next time I will do better.

Who says the process of change is linear? Where we simply do it better and better every day? Changing also means 'fucking up' so we can learn from our mistakes, changing doesn't mean that every day we do a bit more without making mistakes. Making mistakes is beneficial because we know what happens if we go that specific rute, if we behave in a particular way.

So we have to have patience with change, because some days will feel like a success but some other days can look like a failure, but if you really look at failure as the mistake to learn from it, then it is not a day lost but used to better self in the process of change. Miss Take, if you Miss a Take you Take another Take Bernard Poolman said.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myelf to want to change immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be effective at everything immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that change will take time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it will take daily self-discipline to implement change in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get resutls fast when it comes to changing habits.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself if I don't see change, instead of having patience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the word patience to its utmost potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in the process of change it may feel as if I go back at times, I fall back, but it is merely part of the journey onwards.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that progressing/changing only means doing it better day by day, when in fact it can mean fucking up some days/not being effective some days so we know what to do next time in a similar situation/we know what happens if we behave a certain way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go to sleep when I feel somnolence instead of pushing myself to stay awake and do physical things.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Day 75: Being the Last One in Sports



When I was a teenager I did sports, the one I enjoyed the most was kayak. I lived in a village that has a lake, it is 2km long and about 0.6km wide - so you can run around it in about half an hour or walk around it in one hour.

The trick with kayaking is balance in the begining, because the better the kayak the more narrow it is as it has less contact with the water and it is faster. So you start with a wide heavy kayak and progress to more narrow and light kayak that can weight about 11kg and are very unstable if you are not used to them, this means that you can end up in the water easily - lol.

So this is a point that I mastered, using  lightweight narrow kayak without falling constantly into the water - lol.

Then we would race with the kayaks but because I started this sport not very early on and because I was not very strong physically I wasn't very good, but at least I completed the races I attended, which would also score points for our team.

Sometimes I forget about points that I have mastered and it is as though I have not mastered anything, but it takes looking back at my life to find them.

This is a cool reminder that it is not needed to be the best at something in order to participate - and be of value to the community, I raced with my team and would end up the last one but I had fun and scored for the team, so it is all good. I remember I always did my best, my heart pumping at maximum rate, it was a great effort for me.

How many times have I excluded myself from an activity because I regarded myself as 'very bad at it' when in fact it is totally irrelevant, as long as I enjoy doing it - it doesn't matter I am the least skilled, there will always be someone that is the least skilled, and I don't  mind it being me. Considering I put effort and I am doing my best, maybe I am doing more than someone in front of me, with regards to how much effort, how much of me I am putting into the activity.

I forgive myelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that someone that ends up in the first position in a race is better than one that finishes last.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to participate in something only if I am very good at it.

I forgive myself that I have not acepted and allowed myself to see that it is not needed to be the best or very good at something to be able to participate in it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exclude myself from activities in my life because I am not good at it if I compare myself to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it doensn't matter the position I end up in a race but the effort that I put in the endeavour.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there will always be someone that is the least skilled in an activity, so there is no point in judging myself if I find it is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not the position I end up in a race, but the effort I put into it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that personal achievement is what matters, that I don't have to compare myself to others with regards to competitive activities.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I don't have to exclude myself for being less skilled at something than others.

I commit myself to remind myself that what matters is how much of me I put into an activity, how much effort I put into it, and not the final position I end up in relation to others.

I commit myself to remind myself that what matters is personal achievement, how much I can do and  progress in relation to ME and not in relation to others.

I commit myself to remind myself to not compare myself to others, but merely see in others what is possible to achieve - but it doesn't mean that I have to achieve that, as maybe the phyisical differences make it impossible for me to achieve that level.

I commit myself to remind myself that what has value is the effort I put into an activity such as a sport, not the final position I end up in.

I commit myself to remnd myself that I don't have to exclude myself from activities at which I am not very skilled or the least skilled because there will always be someone in that position, so if I am in that position I don't judge myself and simply continue with my effort to better myself for myself, not to surpass others.

I commit myself to remind myself that wether I finish first or last in a race, I will always know self honestly if I did my best or not, so I can do more by finishing last and doing my best, than finishing first doing it half-heartedly.