Day 119: Check Back To Reality

Another dream.

This time I have some money and am at home and interact with my family members in a very harsh/hostile way, I only want to go get a tattoo done of the EQAFE logo on my chest, two little loops one at each side of my collarbones - lol. I go literally flying towards the tattoo shop, but it is too windy to fly so I can't fly straight, so I decide to walk, but suddenly I have a motorbike underneath me and I can simply give some gas to drive the motorbike - it is my brothers motorbike. I go without a helmet - the police sees me and stops me. I do as if I simply forgot the helmet but later on I disclose that I also don't have the driving license - in the process I am talking with the police the motorbike starts falling apart, the registration plate had fallen a while ago and they found it so they know who I am, the motorbike's battery falls to the floor... I try to scape but am caught and put into jail, where I find a neighbour that does not seem to recognize me from the past - I say I will try to escape but it looks gloomy - the jail is packed.

What does it all mean? Part by part and this is a bit of a difficult post but very eye opening - why? Because it makes me realize I have a long way to go and very much to walk still. Because the EQAFE tattoo, that I want to have done in my dream means 'promoting a message' because I do the tattoo for everyone to see on my chest, two little EQAFE loops. While all the while I have not cleared my relationship with my family, I have not applied to an effective degree what the very message entails which is self-change.

The police catching me without a license is the system saying hey - you have not really applied yourself to become effective at living in the system either - and yes I do not yet have a driving license which is something Bernard Poolman asked me - he simply asked, do you have a driving license? And I said no. Nothing more was said but I knew that a driving license is something one has to work towards and that I am working on currently. And also I don't have yet a university degree.

The neighbour not recognizing me in jail, In my dream I get to know the answer, he does recognize me but does as if he does not - Why? Because he knows it won't make a difference, we are all locked in prison so no need to 'recognize' me for anything as I did not make a difference for them and ended up with them when I could have made a change.

This part of the neighbour is crucial - In the moment of death, do you think all others that are dead that you knew during your lifetime will come rushing in to cheer you up? If you didn't make a difference for this world? If you did not stand up for yourself in this one lifetime? And I am speaking for me here, I am the one that had the dream but I think this applies for everyone. - No, no one will come rushing in to tap me on the back unless I have made a difference in this world, because if I have not made a difference in this world, I would be fucked as all others, and why bother cheering up someone for helping ALL remain inside prison/in chains?

And who needs a tap on the back when one has helped to change the world? Sure I don't as I am satisfied with the world changed - where All can Live and Express Fully.

Day 24: Some Tao

Sometimes I forget of my greatness, then I read a passage of the Tao and its passages remind me of it.

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The great Tao flows everywhere.

All things are born from it,
yet it doesn’t create them.
It pours itself into its work,
yet it makes no claim.
It nourishes infinite worlds,
yet it doesn’t hold on to them.
Since it is merged with all things
and hidden in their hearts,
it can be called humble.
Since all things vanish into it
and it alone endures,
it can be called great.
It isn’t aware of its greatness;
thus it is truly great.

Lao Tzu - Tao Te Ching

'All things are born from it, yet it doesn't create them.' It means we have the same qualities or proprieties of the Tao since we are born from it.

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Return is the movement of the Tao.
Yielding is the way of the Tao.

All things are born of being.
Being is born of non-being.

A good example of non-being is a cup, what makes the cup usable is the empty space within it. How can you use a cup that is already full? So we have to become empty, then we are use-full, on full use.

'Return is the movement of the Tao.' So we have to become like a child again, it was born without a mind.

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Without opening your door,
you can open your heart to the world.
Without looking out your window,
you can see the essence of the Tao.

The more you know,
the less you understand.

The Master arrives without leaving,
sees the light without looking,
achieves without doing a thing.

'The Master arrives without leaving,' because we are already our own Masters.

'Without looking out your window, you can see the essence of the Tao.' Because it is the I that is the essence of the Tao.

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Those who know don’t talk.
Those who talk don’t know.

Close your mouth,
block off your senses,
blunt your sharpness,
untie your knots,
soften your glare,
settle your dust.
This is the primal identity.

Be like the Tao.
It can’t be approached or withdrawn from,
benefited or harmed,
honored or brought into disgrace.
It gives itself up continually.
That is why it endures.

No point of going about talking about the Tao all the time. I don't try to outsmart everyone. This passage more or less says 'chill out'.

So I recommend everyone to read more of the Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu, this translation is by Stephen Mitchel which is very good.

Day 21: 21 Days To Freedom

I have used the 21 days to freedom to stop addictions, whatever you are addicted to or whatever habit you want to stop, be it smoking, addiction to sugar, addiction to porn, whatever. You stop for 21 days and then you are free from the addiction and can continue without doing it.

What I have found from walking this is that now I can take a decision in a moment to stop something and I know I am stopping it for real, that I will walk the decision.

So try it, do you want to stop something that is bothering you, do the 21 days to freedom,what do you have to lose? If you fail let's say you want to stop masturbating to porn and you masturbate to porn at day 3, you start over again and count 21 days, you start again until you have it done.

And that is the secret to free yourself from any and all addictions.

Check this links for more self-support.

desteni.org
desteniiprocess.com
eqafe.com

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't be able to stop my addictions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my addictions power over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can't stop my addictions.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have not really applyed an organized method to stop my addictions thus why I failed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 21 days to stop an addiction is too simple for it to work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that stopping my addiction will take me forever.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to walk the correction to stop my
addiction unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that stopping my addiction will be too difficult.

Whenever I think I won't be able to stop my addiction I stop and I breathe. I realize that for me to stop my addiction I have to simply stop, and continue stopping it until it is done.

I commit myself to stop my addiction until it is done and I am free from the addiction.

Whenever I see I think stopping my addiction will be too difficult, I stop and I breathe. I realize that maybe I will have to start over the 21 days to freedom more times because it is more difficult, but every time I will last more and more time until I am free from my addiction.

I commit myself to walk the 21 days to freedom for my addiction regardless of the time I think it will take me.