Day 225: Chain of Events to the Present

 

Walk the talk, and so I walk, regardless of how many days I have missed, every day is a new opportunity to write. No need to obsess myself so much with the chain of events, meaning the past, as if in I have not written for a couple of days somehow I am cursed lol. Instead I will write on a given day if I can, without looking back at how many days I have missed, and so giving me the opportunity to write unconditionally.

It is interesting how we or I can use the past to condition our present. So use the past as an excuse. But instead I can forget about the past and simply do what is best, in every moment, regardless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the past as an excuse to not write, as an excuse to condition my present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the Present in present as in the gift in present where it is a gift that is given to me unconditionally for me to do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taint my Present with my Past - where I don't have to do that in fact.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to enjoy my Present as the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look back at the Past during my Present and let that influence my present negatively.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that looking back has to be done to learn form my past not to influence my Present in any other way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the chain of events to the present whereas in fact it is not important as in every single breath I can change completely, in any given breath of the Present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow memories as the past to influence my Present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that to truly be free I have to let go of the past and live completely in the Present as every breath Here.

I commit myself to let go of the past in every breath and live unconditinally in the Present that is the present.

Day 201: Imagine Having No Memory

Imagine having no memory of the past, to know that whatever you are doing now you will not remember later - aside from being impractical wouldn't we not be so burdened? Isn't it that we draw from the past to project into the future? But if we don't have a past, the future is full of possibilities. At times I see myself doing the same thing day after day, simply because I have been doing it for so long, when in fact I don't even want to do that nor is best for me, an example would be sleeping in the afternoons after work, because I have been doing it for some weeks does not mean I have to do it again today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do things because 'that's what I always do'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my actions on my past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to get rid of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I don't let go of the past I will be a slave to it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I don't have to repeat the past endlessly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can base my decisions on what is best for me and thus for all and not from the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the past is not more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the past has power over me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to memorize eveyrhing of the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed in wanting to know how everything unfolded in the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the past as a memory doesn't exist

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the past is in fact imaginary, it does not exist - even if we were hurt in the past, it is not longer here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realise and understand that I don't have to obsess so much about the past but I have to forgive and let go of any attachment I have to the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my past

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that in fact consequence comes from the past as things take time to create consequence - but this does not mean that I have to define myself or my actions according to the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am enslaved to the past insofar that I am defined by it and have not forgiven and let it go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the past, instead of forgiving it and letting it go

I commit myself to let go of the past

I commit myself to set myself free form the past in self forgiveness and self correction and practical application