Day 139: A Part Of Something

Today I was at work wondering about this, I am a part of something. I am a living, breathing human being, a part of 'organised living' I live in a body that has automated things, it is pretty clear I am a part of something, yet, it is fascinating how much I have not seen I am part of something, like I feel like I am 'apart' and this shouldn't be the case. We are all the same, we all breathe, eat, shit and die the same. Let's not forget it. We are all in this together.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am separate from everyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am a part of something and not separate.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am living in separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the fact that I didn't see myself as part of 'something' means that somewhere I have separated myself from this something, this whole.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am not separate from everyone else.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am in fact one with everyone else.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that even if I forget I am part of something, it doesn't mean I am not a part of that something.

I commit myself to remind myself that we are in this all together.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am not separate from everyone else.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am in fact equal to everyone else.

Whever I see that I am 'feeling' like I am separate from everyone else, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am the same as all others as breath, so there is no possible separation.

I commit myself to remind myself that I am One and Equal as Life.

Day 138: Breath by Breath at Work

Sometimes life can be too much, then what I do is, can I handle the next movement, the next breath? For example at work when it becomes repetitive doing the same things day after day, if I slow down and focus on what I have to do next it becomes easier to do. For example, can I take this chair and put it in its place? Then I do it and it is not so bad this repetitive work - I work as a waiter - but this can be applied to anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make things bigger than they are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can do whatever it is I have to do if I focus on breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as breathe whenever I am at work, making it more than what it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the simplicity of doing things breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is not important what I do but who I am within what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can change the way I experience myself at work by focusing on breathing and what comes next.

Whenever I see that I make things more than they are within my mind, I stop and I breathe. I realize it is not what I am doing that matters but who I am within what I do. Thus I commit myself to remind myself to breathe whenever I am at work and focus on what I am doing in the moment.

I commit myself to remind myself that in my mind thing may seem bigger than what they really are.

I commit myself to remain grounded whenver I see I am making things bigger than they are in my mind.

I commit myself to remind myself that it is important to remain here as breath to not make things bigger than they are in my mind.

Day 137: Value in Self-Support

When I get paid, suddenly I become more directive, is that so? For example, at work I do whatever it needs to be done but then when I am at home and decide to do something for myself all kinds of excuses open up and/or I allow myself to procrastinate. If I got paid for blogging, for studying, for supporting myself with Desteni I Process - would it be different then? 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become brainwashed to only act if I am getting paid in money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to behave differently whether what I am getting paid for what I am doing.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the value of the things I do outside of work - thus not putting in the work needed to get it done.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to value what I do outside of work for what it is.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see value in self-support.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that self-support is valuable, even maybe more than regular money-earning work.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to act consistently even when I am not getting paid in money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value more money than self-support.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the value when there is no money involved in things.

I forgive myself that I have acccpted and allowed myself to only see value in money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that self support is even more valuable than money.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that no matter how much money I have, if I do not support myself in other ways there is no point in having money.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the balance that exists within having to have money and supporting myself - where I do have to have money and at the same time support myself with things that won't give me money immediately or at all.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the same self-will that I apply at work for money I can apply at home for self-support.

Day 136: Complainers

Change what you don't like or don't complain. Complaining is pointless because either you can change something, and then you do change it, or you can't and then what is the point in complaining on something you cannot change? But maybe complaining is useful to see where we have accepted and allowed ourselves to participate in things that we do not necessarily enjoy. For example I can complain about my job, or I can do something about it. If I catch myself complaining about my job, I see I have to do something about it. It is that simple. Maybe it is changing jobs what I have to do or simply change my relationship to the job.

I forgive mysef that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I complain it means that I have to do something about the thing I am complaining about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that complaining is like a red flag that signals where I am not being honest with myself with regards to something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will not achieve anything by simply complaining.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am where I am due to my own doing, and thus complaining will do nothing to change that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can change my reality given that I have put myself where I am at the moment thus I can change it.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that it does not mean that change will be easy but only that change is possible if there is self-will to change.

Whenever I see that I complain about something, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize and understand that unless I change - if changeable - the thing I complain about then there is no point in complaining- Thus I commit myself to change that which I have ever complained about.