Day 7: Hypo-mania - Part 2

This is a continuation of Day 6: Hypo-mania

Forgiving the positive and negative of hypomania I had while I was not on medication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the creative potential I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take medication as I feel so good 'who would want to take medication'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the 'good things' that come with hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the desinhibition that I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the feeling of 'being the best/being the boss' that I had while under hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the feeling of 'I am capable of doing anything' that I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the desinhhibition when talking to females that I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the feeling of 'everything is possible' that I had under hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the 'empowerment' feeling I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in irritability during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I was less empathic to how others felt towards what I did during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how I was more angry/bellicose at times during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the easiness of talking to females that happened during hypomania in the desire to have more sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can jump into mania at any time that I  am in hypomania with all the side effects that come with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overspend my money while on hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do my responsibilities such as studying during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop my responsibilities and act irresponsibly because I 'feel good' during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the 'high' of hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that during hypomania I had no 'stop' I didn't apply limits so in this way I arrived to the point of bothering others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop myself when it was time to stop during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how I did socially awkward things such as talking to strangers - which is not necessary -.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk to strangers because I think it is a good idea to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear 'making a fool of myself' during hypomania.

Whenever I see that I miss hypomania, I stop and I breathe. I realize that all the good things that I see come from hypomania I can develop for myself with the added benefit of not having the side effects of hypomania.

I commit myself to develop self trust, self expression and all the things I like about hypomania for myself.

Whenever I see that I miss hypomania, I stop and I breathe. I remind myself of how delicate is the situation as in the past I was uncareful with my relations, money, responsibilities, plus the possibility of jumping to mania - so I let go of 'wanting to be in hypomania and in control' as I know it is a fight I will most likely fail at.

I commit myself to stop hypomania as soon as it appears so I don't take risks with regards to my stability in this life.

Whenver I see that I miss the feeling of being the best/being the boss I stop and I breathe. I realise that unless I prove it in real-time that I am the best - that I can be - then I am not, and the feeling is a delusion - and if I am the best that I can bee, I will have no feeling to tell me that I am.

I commit myself to crossreference the feelings I have with reality to see if they are delusions.

Whenever I see I don't want to take medication because I feel so good, I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to remind myself of all the side effects that come with hypomania.

I commit myself to take my medication when I am in hypomania, as it is only a delusion that I have already walked.

I realise that all the things I found cool about hypomania I can develop self-responsibly for myself.

Whenever I see that I miss the creative potential I had during hypomania I stop and I breathe. I realise that the creative potential I had during hypomania was not focused/all over the place and that I can instead develop my creative potential and focus it where I want.

I commit myself to develop my creative potential in the areas that matter/where I want, focused.

Day 6: Hypo-mania

Hypomania (literally "under mania" or "less than mania") is a mood state characterized by persistent disinhibition and pervasive elevated (euphoric) with or without irritable mood but generally less severe than full mania. According to DSM-V criteria, hypomania is specifically distinct from mania in that there is no psychosis (sensing things others do not sense in the same environment); mania, by DSM-V definition, has psychotic features. Characteristic behaviors are extremely energetic, talkative, and confident commonly exhibited with a flight of creative ideas. While hypomanic behavior often generates productivity and excitement, it can become troublesome if the subject engages in risky or otherwise inadvisable behaviors. When manic episodes are "staged" according to symptomatic severity and associated features, hypomania constitutes the first stage, or stage I, of the syndrome, wherein the cardinal features (euphoria or heightened irritability, pressure of speech and activity, increased energy and decreased need for sleep, and flight of ideas) are most plainly evident. - Wikipedia

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to enjoy being in hypomania as it 'feels good'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what is behind the feel good of hypomania, as the ladder to mania that it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see all the negative side effects of hypomania such as not considering others, not being careful with money or not being commonsensical with taking decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted and not want to let go the feel good/increased energy state of hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to admit whenever I am hypomaniac.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the importance of stopping hypomania as from there I can jump easily into mania where delusions start which is not fun.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the feel good of hypomania is also a delusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in hypomania in fear that I will go into mania.

Whenever I see that I want to remain in the feel good of  hypomania, I stop and I breathe. I realise that the feel good of hypomania is a delusion although it seems real and that I have to stop hypomania to not go up the ladder to mania and because of all the side effects that come with it.

I commit myself to whenever I see I am in hypomania, to speak up and take my treatment so that it stops - unconditionally.

Whenever I see that I don't want to admit/recognise that I am hypomaniac, I stop and I breathe. I remind myself that is ok to be imbalanced, like it is ok to be hungry, they are imbalances - one has to be treated with medication and the other with food - and if not remediated there can be severe consequences.

I commit myself to whenever I have the imbalance of being hypomaniac, to take the steps necessary to stop the imbalance, for example with medication, and additionally other help like therapy, self forgiveness.

Whenever I see that I fear going from hypomania into mania, I stop and I breathe. I realise that if I stop the problem of hypomania there will be no mania phase, so I take the steps necessary to practically stop hypomania as soon as possible when I detect it.

I commit myself to not wait whenever I realize I am in hypomania, but to get the necessary help for it to stop, so that I don't go into mania or let it develop with all the possible side effects/consequences of hypomania.