Day 7: Hypo-mania - Part 2

This is a continuation of Day 6: Hypo-mania

Forgiving the positive and negative of hypomania I had while I was not on medication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the creative potential I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to take medication as I feel so good 'who would want to take medication'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the 'good things' that come with hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the desinhibition that I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the feeling of 'being the best/being the boss' that I had while under hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the feeling of 'I am capable of doing anything' that I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the desinhhibition when talking to females that I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the feeling of 'everything is possible' that I had under hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the 'empowerment' feeling I had during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in irritability during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I was less empathic to how others felt towards what I did during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how I was more angry/bellicose at times during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the easiness of talking to females that happened during hypomania in the desire to have more sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can jump into mania at any time that I  am in hypomania with all the side effects that come with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to overspend my money while on hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do my responsibilities such as studying during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop my responsibilities and act irresponsibly because I 'feel good' during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss the 'high' of hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that during hypomania I had no 'stop' I didn't apply limits so in this way I arrived to the point of bothering others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop myself when it was time to stop during hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how I did socially awkward things such as talking to strangers - which is not necessary -.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk to strangers because I think it is a good idea to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear 'making a fool of myself' during hypomania.

Whenever I see that I miss hypomania, I stop and I breathe. I realize that all the good things that I see come from hypomania I can develop for myself with the added benefit of not having the side effects of hypomania.

I commit myself to develop self trust, self expression and all the things I like about hypomania for myself.

Whenever I see that I miss hypomania, I stop and I breathe. I remind myself of how delicate is the situation as in the past I was uncareful with my relations, money, responsibilities, plus the possibility of jumping to mania - so I let go of 'wanting to be in hypomania and in control' as I know it is a fight I will most likely fail at.

I commit myself to stop hypomania as soon as it appears so I don't take risks with regards to my stability in this life.

Whenver I see that I miss the feeling of being the best/being the boss I stop and I breathe. I realise that unless I prove it in real-time that I am the best - that I can be - then I am not, and the feeling is a delusion - and if I am the best that I can bee, I will have no feeling to tell me that I am.

I commit myself to crossreference the feelings I have with reality to see if they are delusions.

Whenever I see I don't want to take medication because I feel so good, I stop and I breathe. I commit myself to remind myself of all the side effects that come with hypomania.

I commit myself to take my medication when I am in hypomania, as it is only a delusion that I have already walked.

I realise that all the things I found cool about hypomania I can develop self-responsibly for myself.

Whenever I see that I miss the creative potential I had during hypomania I stop and I breathe. I realise that the creative potential I had during hypomania was not focused/all over the place and that I can instead develop my creative potential and focus it where I want.

I commit myself to develop my creative potential in the areas that matter/where I want, focused.

Day 6: Hypo-mania

Hypomania (literally "under mania" or "less than mania") is a mood state characterized by persistent disinhibition and pervasive elevated (euphoric) with or without irritable mood but generally less severe than full mania. According to DSM-V criteria, hypomania is specifically distinct from mania in that there is no psychosis (sensing things others do not sense in the same environment); mania, by DSM-V definition, has psychotic features. Characteristic behaviors are extremely energetic, talkative, and confident commonly exhibited with a flight of creative ideas. While hypomanic behavior often generates productivity and excitement, it can become troublesome if the subject engages in risky or otherwise inadvisable behaviors. When manic episodes are "staged" according to symptomatic severity and associated features, hypomania constitutes the first stage, or stage I, of the syndrome, wherein the cardinal features (euphoria or heightened irritability, pressure of speech and activity, increased energy and decreased need for sleep, and flight of ideas) are most plainly evident. - Wikipedia

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to enjoy being in hypomania as it 'feels good'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what is behind the feel good of hypomania, as the ladder to mania that it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see all the negative side effects of hypomania such as not considering others, not being careful with money or not being commonsensical with taking decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted and not want to let go the feel good/increased energy state of hypomania.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to admit whenever I am hypomaniac.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the importance of stopping hypomania as from there I can jump easily into mania where delusions start which is not fun.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the feel good of hypomania is also a delusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in hypomania in fear that I will go into mania.

Whenever I see that I want to remain in the feel good of  hypomania, I stop and I breathe. I realise that the feel good of hypomania is a delusion although it seems real and that I have to stop hypomania to not go up the ladder to mania and because of all the side effects that come with it.

I commit myself to whenever I see I am in hypomania, to speak up and take my treatment so that it stops - unconditionally.

Whenever I see that I don't want to admit/recognise that I am hypomaniac, I stop and I breathe. I remind myself that is ok to be imbalanced, like it is ok to be hungry, they are imbalances - one has to be treated with medication and the other with food - and if not remediated there can be severe consequences.

I commit myself to whenever I have the imbalance of being hypomaniac, to take the steps necessary to stop the imbalance, for example with medication, and additionally other help like therapy, self forgiveness.

Whenever I see that I fear going from hypomania into mania, I stop and I breathe. I realise that if I stop the problem of hypomania there will be no mania phase, so I take the steps necessary to practically stop hypomania as soon as possible when I detect it.

I commit myself to not wait whenever I realize I am in hypomania, but to get the necessary help for it to stop, so that I don't go into mania or let it develop with all the possible side effects/consequences of hypomania.

Day 5: Medication

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others for having to take medication.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that it is fine to have a problem and I should not be ashamed of taking medication for my problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive and judge medication as 'bad'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist taking medication in fear that it is harmful to my mind and body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will live less years of life due to taking medication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear developing a side-effect illness due to taking medication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others judging me for taking medication.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed to see that medication is simply a practical point to assist myself and I don't have to judge it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my medication not working if it is generic or if it is damaged.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having my medication and having an imbalance because of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate medication with poison.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge as a 'bummer' to have to take pills during the day.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to have side effects from my medication.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate medication because of being sedated by them in he past.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself that medication is a point of assistance to take when needed and that is it.

Whenever I see that I am resisting taking my medication, I stop and I breathe. I realise that medication is a point of assistance and that I have to take them when I need them, otherwise I go into an imbalance and I don't want that.

I commit myself to take my medication when needed/prescribed because I need it.

Whenever I see that I perceive as a bummer to take the medication, I stop and I breathe. I realise that during the day I have to eat three times (or more) and that taking a pill is like eating, it is eating in fact, and that I have no problem with that.

Whenever I see that I fear my medication not working due to it being generic or being damaged I stop and I breathe. I realise that generics should be as good as brand medication and that I can check the expiring date to see if the medication is 'fresh', also if I start to have an imbalance I don't lose control of myself so I can simply go to my doctor and adjust/change the medication if I have an imbalance while taking the medication.

Whenever I see that I fear others judging me about taking medication, I stop and I breathe. I realise that there is a point where I am judging myself for taking medication, that it is not about others.

I commit myself to investigate myself whenever I fear others judging me as it indicates I am somewhere judging myself.

Whenever I see I fear developing and illness from taking medication, I stop and I breathe. I realise that I am having checks to see that all is well and that I am not taking an exorbitant amount of medication so it is of no use to fear side effects from my medication. And even if I was taking a lot of medication, it is of no use to have fear, I simply deal with what is here and try to reduce the harm the best I can.

Whenever I see I fear medication affecting my mind, I stop and I breathe. I realise that it is harmful for me to NOT take the medication thus it is practical for me to take it as it allows my mind to function properly.

Whenever I see I judge the medication as bad, I stop and I breathe. I realise that it is neither good or bad but simply a point of practical support.

Day 4: Psychotic break - Part 3

This is a continuation of  Day 2 and Day 3, it is suggested to start at the beginning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that once I know what is a psychotic break, I can identify and stop it, with the help of others as needed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was alone during my psychotic break.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to explain my problems to others during psychotic break.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going mad.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the utmost importance of  developing intimacy 'into me I see' in order to pinpoint any dysfunction of the mind such as a psychotic break.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I would remain  in a psychotic break forever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think harmful thoughts towards others during my psychotic break.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life was done while on a psychotic break.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe people where going after me during psychotic break.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to participate in immense fear during psychotic break.

Whenever I see I am going towards a psychotic break, I stop and I breathe. I realise that I need medication and therapy and move steadfast to get it as soon as possible.

I commit myself to get all the necessary help – doctor, therapist, etc -whenever I see I am going towards a psychotic break.

Whenever I see I am going into a psychotic break, I stop and I breathe. I realize that a psychotic break is an illusion, not real - but that it is an imbalance that needs to be sorted out as soon as possible with all the help needed.

Whenever I see I am having harmful thoughts towards others, I stop and I breathe. I realize that it is unacceptable and I stop them and self-forgive, and if there are any other signs such as persecutory delusions that I am going into a psychotic break, then I get all the help needed to sort it out.

Whenever I think I am going mad, I stop and I breathe. I realize that psychotic breaks are temporal and that they will go the same way they appeared.

I commit myself to remind myself that psychotic breaks are temporal.