Day 179: Irrelevant

  

On judging myself as irrelevant and more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I serve no purpose

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that everyone has a purpose

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I have to give purpose to myself to have purpose

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work on my goals

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I have to be serious in working on my goals

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get distracted with stuff to not work on my goals

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that self first means I have to prioritize self-support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if one day I don't work on my goals, I have no self-worth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put self-worth outside of myself in my goals

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand I am self-worth as who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if one day I don't work towards my goals it is ok I simply have to work on them the next

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not my goals

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept myself unconditionally, with all my faults and flaws

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to embrace my fuckups

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is ok to mess up

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be happy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself for being happy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can only allow myself to be happy when I have reached my goals in life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that life is meant to be enjoyed not suffered   

Day 178: How We Judge

 

How we judge situations, for example 'I can't write today it's so cold!' putting doom and gloom to our day, when instead we can make something hot for us to drink and get down to writing -- realising how blessed I am that I am even given the opportunity to write! So look at myself from different angles where then I see I am blessed and everyone on Earth should be too - with a place to stay, food, an education and a laptop with Internet like I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my situation as difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see myself from different angles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself from those that have more than I do instead of seeing myself from those that have Less than I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am in fact part of the elite - the haves vs the have-nots

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and my situation from the viewpoint of me as a victim instead of seeing myself as the elite in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that talk is cheap and that I should walk the corrections that I talk

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the feelings I have towards my situation are merely a protection mechanism from the mind for me to not stand up and change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see what does it mean that I am part of the elite - as it means that I have Response-Ability to do my part towards creating a world that is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work out for myself that in fact = best for All includes best for Me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to hold on the principles of doing what is Best for All no matter what - which means self-honesty at all times

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that becoming someone is irrelevant  in fact if this someone is not Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with thoughts of fame when this is irrelevant as well

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that through my judgement I believe my own judgements and my life becomes hell