Day 243: General Self-Forgiveness I

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that at any given moment I can decide whether I will support myself or abuse myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I am breathing I am not Here present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all judgement is self-judgement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be famous

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am One and Equal as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have the same vehicle as a human being as all other humans and thus the same capabilities or potentiality for expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constrain my self expression by living in the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget who I am

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to use this opportunity as this one life to express myself as what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to  tell others how to live instead of living it myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in desire

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own self expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am enough and don’t ‘need’ someone else to be allright

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to remove myself from this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no other world or existence waiting for me elsewhere, but this one that requires correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is a way or ways to do things and way or ways not to do them, and I have to choose wisely

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I change myself, nothing will change.

Day 242: Change is Difficult - Not Changing is Worse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe everything on Earth has to stop instead of seeing that I have to stop it within myself first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to ‘say to others what to do’ instead of doing it myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to lead others instead of leading myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put responsibility outside of myself on others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the only point that I can control is me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whether I die or not is irrelevant – but who I am within myself is relevant.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to me only instead of realizing I am not relevant at all unless I make myself relevant as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mis leaded by energy instead of me directing me at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to become relevant as an individual – giving credit where credit is due

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am but a tiny particle in an ocean of particles and whether or not I realize myself is solely up to ME  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to do something/process instead of me doing all that I think one should do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project on others what I know I have to do instead of doing it myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘what I have to do’ as difficult instead of seeing realizing and understanding that it is only a judgement of self-sabotage, to not change and not stand as who I really am as Life.

Day 241: Limitations

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that limitation is only possible if I accept and allow it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that limitation in any area of life is always accepted and allowed by me for it to exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that limitations can be stopped

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is up to me how long I accept and allow limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to believe my limitations are real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk through my limitations - I will not see they are not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to self-sabotage myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I am the directive principle on my creative force, something else will

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop all my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up in front of challenges

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I stop all limitations including giving up I will not find out the best version of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all distraction from overcoming my limitations are limitations.

Day 240: Not Give Up

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘appearing brainwashed’ to other people when in fact virtually everyone is brainwashed to accept the system of money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is inevitable to be criticized when one stands up

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that those that criticize me as cultish is because they have a cult of their own to defend and thus point fingers in fear of their cult being finished by the cult of Life, the only valid cultUre

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it doesn’t matter how I look to others but if in fact I am standing as what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live in self-interest, have fun and forget about everything else

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the massive suffering of massive amounts of life forms from my statement of wanting to live in self-interest – and my inevitable finish at death

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can’t really have fun or real fun while millions suffer if I am not directing the points necessary

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the fact that I don’t ‘feel’ the suffering of others doesn’t mean I can accept bliss while others suffer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how all deception is self-deception

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that all distraction is self-distraction

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that self-dishonesty as self-deception and self-distraction is unacceptable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to participate in energy

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that energy is of the mind and makes it stronger, while breath brings me Here

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be Here as Breath in every moment of Breath

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am not here to chase energy experiences but to stand up for All Life/sort out this reality of Abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to momentarily ‘get lost’ in experiences and not direct myself to birth myself in the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the option to give up is in every moment of breath, as is the option to Not give up

Day 239: Do You Need Motivation or Change?

Lao Tzu

A few days ago I quit a relationship that had being going on for about two years and was long distance - now I am writing more and doing more vlogs - this shows me I was not in a good position but compromising myself because I withheld from supporting myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need motivation to do what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can move myself because of Who I Am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear others out casting me if I make blogs and vlogs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I am not effective in sharing blogs and vlogs I have to investigate why and apply changes accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my relationships if I do more vlogs and blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through my relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I stand up for myself no one can do it for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whoever in my relationships doesn’t agree with what I say in my blogs and vlogs or goes against it, there is no point to keep them any longer as they are in fact against all Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I should be grateful if someone speaks up and says they are against what I say – as then I can share some common sense

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying being unknown

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be infamous for sharing the best one can ever share

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not about being known or unknow but about leaving behind proof of one’s journey so that the next person can have a roadmap of what to expect when walking a lifetime regardless if one makes it or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to walk regardless of outcome

 

Day 238: Achilles Heel

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an Achilles heel, points where I fall

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the points where I fall are self interest points, to not have to change, in self interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't investigate and correct the points where I fall - I am accepting and allowing their continuation - thus being responsible for their existence and thus I cannot claim I am powerless and hopeless but am responsible at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the point where I fall to affect what I do, instead of dusting myself off and keep walking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can remediate all the points where I fail/fall by utilising the tools available of self forgiveness, self honesty and practical application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I perfect myself by finding and doing what works to make it work, it will not work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept defeat

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am cannot be defeated

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'accepting defeat' is self interest in fact, as is giving up because I can stand up for myself at any point, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that delay and procrastination is in fact self interest, because who I am does not wait in the face of abuse existent in this world - but acts immedately, and all acts of delay and procrastination are in fact self interest because I want to live an experience in spite of all other Life Here suffering - so in doing this delay and procrastination I abdicate my right to Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that only me/I am responsible for accepting failure but it is not who I really am - as who I really am as Life never fails/How can Life fail?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am so powerful that I can even wipe myself out, or birth myself as Life - I have the choice and in alignment with who I am as Life I can only choose what is Best for All Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will be faced with the same situations to see if I stand as what is Best for All - for eternity - Will I be Life in fact or not?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not only about knowing what to do but walking what I know

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I need a reason to do what is Best, I can find it in all Life to come live in this planet after me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes instead of realising that if I make a mistake I just 'take another take'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am anything less than Life in fact -- and if I see that I am not Life yet I will not waste one breath until birthing myself as Life in fact and until All Life is honoured equally.

Day 178: How We Judge

 

How we judge situations, for example 'I can't write today it's so cold!' putting doom and gloom to our day, when instead we can make something hot for us to drink and get down to writing -- realising how blessed I am that I am even given the opportunity to write! So look at myself from different angles where then I see I am blessed and everyone on Earth should be too - with a place to stay, food, an education and a laptop with Internet like I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my situation as difficult

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see myself from different angles

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself from those that have more than I do instead of seeing myself from those that have Less than I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am in fact part of the elite - the haves vs the have-nots

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and my situation from the viewpoint of me as a victim instead of seeing myself as the elite in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that talk is cheap and that I should walk the corrections that I talk

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the feelings I have towards my situation are merely a protection mechanism from the mind for me to not stand up and change

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see what does it mean that I am part of the elite - as it means that I have Response-Ability to do my part towards creating a world that is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work out for myself that in fact = best for All includes best for Me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to hold on the principles of doing what is Best for All no matter what - which means self-honesty at all times

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that becoming someone is irrelevant  in fact if this someone is not Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with thoughts of fame when this is irrelevant as well

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that through my judgement I believe my own judgements and my life becomes hell

Day 174: Hydrogen Peroxide Research

 On March 28, 2012, after Bernard Poolman shared about how supportive Hydrogen Peroxide is for the body through a powerful testimonial and with getting to know the book 'The One-Minute Cure' by Madison Cavanaugh - with the intent of sharing this with the world, I created a Facebook group called Hydrogen Peroxide Research, that has Randy as well who is super supportive admin and every day we adds 10-40+ new members and has now more than 11,000 members in total. As I am writing this four more people applied.

So today I checked the group and found a testimonial about how Hydrogen Peroxide helped this lady that was losing her vision. Her testimonial made me want to reflect about how, with the aim of doing what is Best, we can impact the lives of others very far from where we live and we will know, or not know - that is irrelevant - what I wanted to reflect is that the same applies with blogging
- we are All connected and should share what we can to support others and that doing this, sharing ourselves and what works - in fact - works and changes real lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my life is irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how in fact my life is important as the impact I can have on others

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the scope of and importance of supporting others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand the importance of self-support

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand how important is to share what Bernard Poolman taught us

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see how I can in fact impact the lives of others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I give up, people will suffer

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I do not stand up, people my never stand up because of that

I commit myself to stand up for myself no matter what

I commit myself to show to others as Bernard showed to us

I commit myself to remind myself that it is important that I keep sharing as it is Best

Day 141: 'The Family' and the B side

Last month I painted an acrylic on canvas artwork for a friend, the artwork I called it 'The Family' and I said to my friend that I would paint a B side artwork at the back of the canvas - so he only shows it to a few selected people although there are no rules really.

Let's say that the artwork 'La Familia' 'The Family' becomes famous worldwide, even more famous than Leonardo da Vinci's 'Mona Lisa', let's say everyone with use of reason knows of and has seen the artwork - everyone except you. Would you like to see the B Face of the artwork as well? The artwork that supposedly I have painted at the back of the arwork? Because you know there is something at the back but you have never seen it.

Let's say it differently. Say no one has seen the B face of the artwork in the entire universe, only the creator, myself, knows what is behind 'La Familia' but I die one day - Would you like to be the only person in the entire universe to then see the B face of 'La Familia'? Remember it is the most known artwork in the universe, and only you get to know what is or isn't behind it! And what would you do after seeing the B face, would you THEN feel special?

What is more valuable, the 'Mona Lisa' or 'La Familia'? Can we really compare? No we can't - comparing is useless - it was different times, different people with different skills. Do I want 'La Familia to become worldwide famous? It is not in my hands - the people decide that. But know this: Both 'La Familia' and the 'Mona Lisa' are irrelevant in this reality. You give it relevance. You put value where you want. I suggest you put value on Life, as each is Life in essence. Everyone has a value of 1, and 1+1 = 2, the equality equation.

Let me explain you the equality equation differently. Let's say all the population on Earth currently does at the same time win the Euromillions lottery ten thousand times over. What would each do with this money? We cannot out buy eachother because we would all have the same ridicule amount of money! So each would have a value of 1 then. And we would not buy and sell 'eachother' or have power plays but we would help eachother to reach common as well as individual goals. Where does your freedom stop? Where another's freedom start. Do no harm. Do what is Best for All.

But let's say for a moment that with the ridiculous amount of money we each have from winning the Euromillions ten thousand times over, we decide we are bored and want to gamble it, so some start playing poker with their money. It will arrive a situation where most will lose and only some will win. That is what happened with this reality, only that we have to 'reset the game' and give back to everyone equally. And never ever allow inequality to run this rampant - i.e. famine, wars and so on.