Day 20: Nice Food

If you want to take something,
you must first allow it to be given.

Lao Tzu - Tao Te Ching

At the restaurant where I work I see much abundance, we serve very nice food. I wonder if we could expand this and have everyone on earth have as much abundance wouldn't it be cool? Us first world countries should make sure this can happen, firstly by establishing abundance in our own countries and then the rest of the world.

If a country is governed wisely,
its inhabitants will be content.
They enjoy the labor of their hands
and don't waste time inventing
labor-saving machines.
Since they dearly love their homes,
they aren't interested in travel.
There may be a few wagons and boats,
but these don't go anywhere.
There may be an arsenal of weapons,
but nobody ever uses them.
People enjoy their food,
take pleasure in being with their families,
spend weekends working in their gardens,
delight in the doings of the neighborhood.
And even though the next country is so close
that people can hear its roosters crowing and its dogs barking,
they are content to die of old age
without ever having gone to see it.

Lao Tzu - Tao Te Ching

To ensure that everyone is provided in our countries and worldwide it is suggested to investigate the Living Income Guaranteed, so that everyone is supported and has the basic needs met.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that abundance for the whole world is not possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there are enough resources in this world to take care of all effectively.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that there are already the infrastructures necessary to produce food for the whole world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not investigate solutions to end poverty on my own country and the rest of the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that change in the world is not possible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that prosperity and abundance in our country and the world is a matter of organization and political determination.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that a world in abundance is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire abundance for myself only.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that in order to have permanent abundance we must give to all on earth abundance.

I commit myself to investigate and implement solutions for this world that ensure abundance for everyone.

Day 16: Are you slow?

Yesterday I was chatting with the workers of the restaurant next to ours and one guy asked me, are you a bit slow? And I said, no. And he said he's seen me a bit slow but I explained that it was because there was not a lot of work at the particular moment he saw me.

This guy unknowingly was challenging a point I had walked in self forgiveness where I was working at a slow pace to 'preserve energy' but now I changed it to go 'full on' as the body does not need to hold back and can simply go for it and be rejuvenated in doing physical activity.

This guy then said 'oh I had a bad preconceived idea about you' and talked to the others if they could hire me - lol - as they have a lot of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to work slowly to preserve energy instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that the physical body is cool with going for it and doing physical activities, not holding back or preserving the body as it is not how it works.

You can read more about preserving energy not being necessary but unadvised where I learnt about it in the blog post by Leila Zamora Moreno 'Conserving Energy is Exhausting'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am doing myself and my body a favour by working in a 'chill out manner' not seeing that I was being incompetent in my job and feeding my mind instead of being here in my body working the best I can.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be here in my physical body doing the physical activities as efficient and fast as I can within common sense.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to unlock my potential as what I can do with my physical body as physical work within the belief that I have to preserve energy of my body.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I do at work of applying myself to do my best with my physical body, I can also do outside of work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others calling me slow as the bad consequences it can have ultimately being fired from my job if this persists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go fast at my job in fear they will find me slow and fire me, instead of going fast as an expression of me of being fast and efficient.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and  understand that whenever I try to preserve energy I am making myself more dull and whenever I don't try to preserve energy I am more rejuvenated.

I commit myself to remind myself to not try to preserve energy and 'going for it' at the job as it is the best I can do for me and the job.

Whenever I see I am moving in fear of being fired, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I don't need fear to spear me to go fast but that I can simply apply myself to move efficiently and fast as an expression of me.

I commit myself to check whenever I am going fast if there is a fear that they will fire me if I go slower, to remove the fear and then continue going at the pace that it is best, not faster in fear but the right pace that is best for the job.

I commit myself to remind myself to slow down within going fast whenever I see that I am going too fast that I can create negative consequences such as breaking plates or injuring myself.

I commit myself to move at work within common sense and self-responsibility, going faster where I can and being patient where I have to.

Whenever I see that I fear others judging me as slow, I stop and I breathe. I realize that they might have seen me when there was no much work, and that I have to always take self-responsibility and see for myself where I can improve, and explain whenever I am being called slow if it is not so.

I commit myself to stand up for myself and communicate whenever I am being treated or judged unfairly.

Whenever I think that by going slow I am preserving energy, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I rest at sleep and during the day I can go and apply myself physically without holding back as the body can handle physical activity better than I think it can.

Day 12: Unexpected Expected

 “When two great forces oppose each other, the victory will go to the one that knows how to yield.” - Lao Tzu

Where I am living they don't like Desteni and threatened me to kick me out if I continue - they found this blog - Thus why it is set to private. Update: It is set to public and it will remain so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being kicked off where I stay.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in the streets.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having no support.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live the word self-support.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to work with care at work, living care.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am is untouchable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear friction with my co-living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear they will not attend reason when discussing Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my co-living to like Desteni.

Whenever I see I fear being kicked out of where I am, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I have to do what it takes to not be in dire straits and at the same time I have to direct things as they come, no use of fearing things.

I commit myself to remind myself that I can direct myself no matter the situation.

Whenever I see that I fear being 'on the streets', I stop and I breathe. I realise that every day I am on the streets, going to uni or to work or simply passing by and I don't have to fear it, simply take the necessary steps to have support to have a good living environment.

Whenever I see that I fear having no support, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am self-support.

Whenever I see I am not working with care at work, I stop and I breathe. I realize that my work requires care, so

I commit myself to live the word care

Whenever I see I fear friction with my co-living, I stop and I breathe. I realize that it is not to fear communication as communication is the only way to understand each other.

I commit myself to stick to communication whenever I fear friction with my co-living.

Whenefer I see I want my co-living to like Desteni, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I can't change people I can only explain.

I commit myself to stick to explaining if they want to hear, instead of wanting them to change.

Whenever I see I participate in fear, I stop and I breathe. I realize that fear is an illusion, so I forgive myself for participating in an illusion and let go of it.

I commit myself to forgive myself and let go of all my fears as they arise or I detect them in the past.