Day 19: Just What The Doctor Ordered

If you want to shrink something,
you must first allow it to expand.
If you want to get rid of something,
you must first allow it to flourish.

Lao Tzu - Tao Te Ching

When I was hypomaniac the doctor insisted so much that I take medication or I could go more into mania, however I did not have the experience of that and I did not believe completely what he was saying and because I felt good I did not see the need to take medication. I did not take medication and I went into mania a short time later. You can read more about mania and hypomania here and here.

What this means is that as my psychiatrist says, experience is nontransferable, so maybe this is why we are so fucked up in this world, maybe existentially we wanted to live self interest because it felt good and now we are seeing the results of living self interest which is a world which half of it starves and the elite lives in greed.

If you want to shrink something, you must allow it to expand. If you want to get rid of something, you must allow it to flourish. What does it mean? We have lived already self interest and now individual people's life will start to crash and fail and we will wonder why - time to wake up - live the principle of What is Best for All to truly evolve as species. Investigate Desteni. Walk the Desteni Lite Process.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in self interest disregarding what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the fact of the state of the world where half of it starves and want to continue living self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that living self interest I will attain something of value - whereas I cannot take with me my possessions in the afterlife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by my possessions and live to lead a consumerism lifestyle, from objects to sex to power.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deviate from living the principle of what is best for all to lead the consumerism lifestyle, in self interest, disregarding life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that living self interest will have no consequences, where there is ample evidence of what living self interest leads to as this world where half of it starves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be 'tempted' to live self interest instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that self interest is not the system I would want to leave here for children to come.

Whenever I see that I want to live self interest and disregard what is best for all, I stop and I breathe. I realize that what i Best for All is best for me, it includes what is best for me so I let go of self interest because self interest is a game of win and lose where I will inevitably lose, in life and/or death.

I commit myself of letting go of self interest, as I realize the real 'self interest' is to do what is Best for All and the other 'self interest' as it exists in this world is merely a competition casino game where one will inevitably lose.