Day 243: General Self-Forgiveness I

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that at any given moment I can decide whether I will support myself or abuse myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I am breathing I am not Here present

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all judgement is self-judgement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be famous

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am One and Equal as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have the same vehicle as a human being as all other humans and thus the same capabilities or potentiality for expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constrain my self expression by living in the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget who I am

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to use this opportunity as this one life to express myself as what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to  tell others how to live instead of living it myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in desire

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own self expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am enough and don’t ‘need’ someone else to be allright

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to remove myself from this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no other world or existence waiting for me elsewhere, but this one that requires correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is a way or ways to do things and way or ways not to do them, and I have to choose wisely

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I change myself, nothing will change.

Day 242: Change is Difficult - Not Changing is Worse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe everything on Earth has to stop instead of seeing that I have to stop it within myself first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to ‘say to others what to do’ instead of doing it myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to lead others instead of leading myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put responsibility outside of myself on others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the only point that I can control is me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whether I die or not is irrelevant – but who I am within myself is relevant.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to me only instead of realizing I am not relevant at all unless I make myself relevant as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mis leaded by energy instead of me directing me at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to become relevant as an individual – giving credit where credit is due

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am but a tiny particle in an ocean of particles and whether or not I realize myself is solely up to ME  

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to do something/process instead of me doing all that I think one should do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project on others what I know I have to do instead of doing it myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge ‘what I have to do’ as difficult instead of seeing realizing and understanding that it is only a judgement of self-sabotage, to not change and not stand as who I really am as Life.

Day 241: Limitations

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that limitation is only possible if I accept and allow it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that limitation in any area of life is always accepted and allowed by me for it to exist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that limitations can be stopped

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is up to me how long I accept and allow limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to believe my limitations are real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk through my limitations - I will not see they are not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to self-sabotage myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I am the directive principle on my creative force, something else will

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question my limitations

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop all my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up in front of challenges

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I stop all limitations including giving up I will not find out the best version of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all distraction from overcoming my limitations are limitations.

Day 240: Not Give Up

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ‘appearing brainwashed’ to other people when in fact virtually everyone is brainwashed to accept the system of money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is inevitable to be criticized when one stands up

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that those that criticize me as cultish is because they have a cult of their own to defend and thus point fingers in fear of their cult being finished by the cult of Life, the only valid cultUre

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it doesn’t matter how I look to others but if in fact I am standing as what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live in self-interest, have fun and forget about everything else

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the massive suffering of massive amounts of life forms from my statement of wanting to live in self-interest – and my inevitable finish at death

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can’t really have fun or real fun while millions suffer if I am not directing the points necessary

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the fact that I don’t ‘feel’ the suffering of others doesn’t mean I can accept bliss while others suffer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how all deception is self-deception

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that all distraction is self-distraction

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that self-dishonesty as self-deception and self-distraction is unacceptable

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to participate in energy

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that energy is of the mind and makes it stronger, while breath brings me Here

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be Here as Breath in every moment of Breath

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am not here to chase energy experiences but to stand up for All Life/sort out this reality of Abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to momentarily ‘get lost’ in experiences and not direct myself to birth myself in the physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can do this in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the option to give up is in every moment of breath, as is the option to Not give up

Day 239: Do You Need Motivation or Change?

Lao Tzu

A few days ago I quit a relationship that had being going on for about two years and was long distance - now I am writing more and doing more vlogs - this shows me I was not in a good position but compromising myself because I withheld from supporting myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need motivation to do what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can move myself because of Who I Am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear others out casting me if I make blogs and vlogs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I am not effective in sharing blogs and vlogs I have to investigate why and apply changes accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my relationships if I do more vlogs and blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through my relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I stand up for myself no one can do it for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whoever in my relationships doesn’t agree with what I say in my blogs and vlogs or goes against it, there is no point to keep them any longer as they are in fact against all Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I should be grateful if someone speaks up and says they are against what I say – as then I can share some common sense

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying being unknown

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be infamous for sharing the best one can ever share

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not about being known or unknow but about leaving behind proof of one’s journey so that the next person can have a roadmap of what to expect when walking a lifetime regardless if one makes it or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to walk regardless of outcome

 

Day 238: Achilles Heel

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an Achilles heel, points where I fall

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the points where I fall are self interest points, to not have to change, in self interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't investigate and correct the points where I fall - I am accepting and allowing their continuation - thus being responsible for their existence and thus I cannot claim I am powerless and hopeless but am responsible at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the point where I fall to affect what I do, instead of dusting myself off and keep walking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can remediate all the points where I fail/fall by utilising the tools available of self forgiveness, self honesty and practical application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I perfect myself by finding and doing what works to make it work, it will not work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept defeat

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am cannot be defeated

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'accepting defeat' is self interest in fact, as is giving up because I can stand up for myself at any point, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that delay and procrastination is in fact self interest, because who I am does not wait in the face of abuse existent in this world - but acts immedately, and all acts of delay and procrastination are in fact self interest because I want to live an experience in spite of all other Life Here suffering - so in doing this delay and procrastination I abdicate my right to Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that only me/I am responsible for accepting failure but it is not who I really am - as who I really am as Life never fails/How can Life fail?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am so powerful that I can even wipe myself out, or birth myself as Life - I have the choice and in alignment with who I am as Life I can only choose what is Best for All Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will be faced with the same situations to see if I stand as what is Best for All - for eternity - Will I be Life in fact or not?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not only about knowing what to do but walking what I know

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I need a reason to do what is Best, I can find it in all Life to come live in this planet after me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes instead of realising that if I make a mistake I just 'take another take'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am anything less than Life in fact -- and if I see that I am not Life yet I will not waste one breath until birthing myself as Life in fact and until All Life is honoured equally.

Day 237: Writing myself to Life - Righting Myself to Life

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I write myself to Life I do not right myself to Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief I don't have anything to share or talk about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the countless issues humans face that I can talk about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every day that I write counts.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'just living' is in fact accepting and allowing the abuse on Earth to continue on a massive scale.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that 'just living' is 'just abusing' in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have a voice and two hands and I should use them to do what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I do something, nothing will happen in my life that could have benefitted others and in turn others in a chain reaction of change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential and power of chain reactions of self-change - where others change from your change to the next person and next person.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I do NOT stand up for myself as what is Best for All = many will not stand up as well because of ME.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that unless I stand up for change = I am supporting abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undersand that the pursuit of happiness is in fact self interest as ego and while one can create a fulfilling life for oneself that must include standing up for what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be 'ready' to stand up for myself when in fact it is just an excuse as one can stand up for oneself at any one single breath.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to utilize the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and practical application in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not alone in this reality and that I should support all other forms of Life until All Life is supported Equally.