Day 125: Simply Self-Forgiveness

The other day I wanted to show my blog to a student that I give classes of english to, so I told her to say one number from 1 to 124 - she said 8 - so I went to see what I have as an entry for day 8 of this blog. It turns out it is a self-forgiveness post where I simply write self forgiveness. So I explained to her briefly what is self forgiveness.

Today I did not know what to write about so merely sticking to self forgiveness is enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to have great realisations in order to write a blog post.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to have a great insight in order to write a blog post.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the simplicity of sticking to self forgiveness if I do not know what to write about.

Whenever I see that I believe I need a great insight/realisation in order to write a blog post, I stop and I breathe. I realise I can stick to self forgiveness if I don't have a realisation to share/write about. So I commit myself to stick to self forgiveness if I don't have a realisation to share.

Lately I have seen that studying will be tough, meaning that I have to come face to face with doing things I am not used to do, namely maths, that I don't know how to go about doing it and it looks seemingly impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up/give up when facing Maths problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only because I don't know how to do something, I will not be able to do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to postpone facing maths only because I don't know how to do certain exercises yet.

Whenever I see that I want to give up when facing a maths problem, I stop and I breathe. I realise that only because I don't know how to something it does not mean that I can't do it. Thus I commit myself to face maths problems until I can do them correctly.

Whenever I see I postpone doing maths problems just because I don't know how to do them, I stop and I breathe. I realize there is much that I can do so that I prepare myself to face the maths exercise. Thus I commit myself to prepare myself and do whatever I can so I get to understand the maths problem.

Sleeping during the day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use sleeping during the day as a way to try to escape my reality.

Whenever I see that I want to escape my reality by sleeping, I stop and I breathe. I realise that there is something I am not willing to face. Thus I commit myself to investigate what I am trying to avoid and face it instead.