Day 123: Great Balls Of FIre

New dream. This time I was trying to fly up to the sky but couldn't and was talking to people about it - kinda like arguing for my limitations - while this was happening I was entertaining myself with relationships and addiction-related stuff when suddenly I realize: I am standing of top of a huge gasoline tank! And it is going to explode! I start flying up towards the sky with high speed and when I am a bit off from the tank it explodes creating huge balls of fire that approach me as I go flying away and they almost burn my feet.

I realize this dream has to do with how I live life and about life on Earth, where we have a massive problem and I entertain myself with random stuff but really I have a problem to deal with that is going to cause problems - and I can move faster 'as in flying up' only that I don't do because I argue for my own limitations and am entertained with petty stuff. But really am capable of moving much faster. Or that I only move when 'shit hits the fan'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to believe I am my current limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for external 'shit to happen' before I move myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move myself within the realization that it is needed - without having to have 'shit hitting the fan' for me to move myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to apply myself within self-movement and instead wait for things to happen externally for me to move.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how much I could do more if I apply myself in every moment and don't allow myself to be distracted with random stuff.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to argue for my own limitations - instead of working to overcome them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put my own limitations as an excuse to not stand up and change.

Whenever I see that I believe I am my own limitations, I stop and I breathe. I realize that I am not my own limitations. Thus I commit myself to work on overcoming my own limitations.

Whenever I see that I wait for external things to 'move me' - I stop and I breathe. I realize I can move myself without the need so something spearing me. Thus I commit myself to move myself in every moment so that I live self-movement.

Whenever I see that I get distracted with random stuff, I stop and I breathe. I realise I have to focus on what is important. Thus I commit myself to focus on what is important and disregard random stuff - that is not supportive stuff.

Whenever I see that I argue for my own limitations, I stop and I breathe. I realise I can find a solution for every problem that I have. Thus I commit myself to find a solution for every problem I face instead of 'arguing' for my own limitations.

Whenever I see that I put my own limitations as an excuse not to change and stand up for myself, I stop and I breathe. I realise everyone has limitations and it is up to each one to overcome them - and there is no excuse to not do that - Thus I commit myself to acknowledge my limitation and work towards solving it instead of using it as an excuse not to change and stand up for myself.