Day 128: Emptiness feeling

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the emptiness feeling is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the emptiness feeling is real and have to fill it with something - instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is simply energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the trap of negative energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that energy is not real - positive or negative

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can breathe through positive and negative energies

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if I accept and allow my participation in positive energies I am at the same time accepting and allowing myself to participate in negative energies

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that here as breath I am stable - without the need of energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to do something special if I am having the emptiness feeling, without seeing, realizing and understanding that I can simply be here and breath through it until it is no more - as it is not real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the emptiness feeling is simply a polarity of somewhere I have participated in positive energy - so I simply have to breathe through it until it is no more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to make the emptiness feeling go away as soon as I experience it not seeing, realizing and understanding that I don't need to go to the other polarity but simply remain grounded here as breathe

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to whenever I have the emptiness feeling, want to go to the opposite polarity as feel good, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the very fact the emptiness feeling exists is  because I participate in its polarity as feel-good energy

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself that I can stand within any feeling that I may experience such as the emptiness feeling - and stand until it is no more

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize I already have the tools to deal with whatever I am experiencing, namely writing, self honesty and self forgiveness

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge feeling empty as bad when it is only an emotion that I have to walk through, breathe through, forgive and let go

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can stand in the face of the 'emptiness feeling' emotion - as I am more than energy