Day 239: Do You Need Motivation or Change?

Lao Tzu

A few days ago I quit a relationship that had being going on for about two years and was long distance - now I am writing more and doing more vlogs - this shows me I was not in a good position but compromising myself because I withheld from supporting myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need motivation to do what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I can move myself because of Who I Am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to fear others out casting me if I make blogs and vlogs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I am not effective in sharing blogs and vlogs I have to investigate why and apply changes accordingly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my relationships if I do more vlogs and blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself through my relationships.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I stand up for myself no one can do it for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that whoever in my relationships doesn’t agree with what I say in my blogs and vlogs or goes against it, there is no point to keep them any longer as they are in fact against all Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I should be grateful if someone speaks up and says they are against what I say – as then I can share some common sense

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying being unknown

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be infamous for sharing the best one can ever share

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not about being known or unknow but about leaving behind proof of one’s journey so that the next person can have a roadmap of what to expect when walking a lifetime regardless if one makes it or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not making it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to walk regardless of outcome

 

Day 238: Achilles Heel

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an Achilles heel, points where I fall

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the points where I fall are self interest points, to not have to change, in self interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't investigate and correct the points where I fall - I am accepting and allowing their continuation - thus being responsible for their existence and thus I cannot claim I am powerless and hopeless but am responsible at all times

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the point where I fall to affect what I do, instead of dusting myself off and keep walking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can remediate all the points where I fail/fall by utilising the tools available of self forgiveness, self honesty and practical application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I perfect myself by finding and doing what works to make it work, it will not work

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept defeat

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am cannot be defeated

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'accepting defeat' is self interest in fact, as is giving up because I can stand up for myself at any point, no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that delay and procrastination is in fact self interest, because who I am does not wait in the face of abuse existent in this world - but acts immedately, and all acts of delay and procrastination are in fact self interest because I want to live an experience in spite of all other Life Here suffering - so in doing this delay and procrastination I abdicate my right to Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that only me/I am responsible for accepting failure but it is not who I really am - as who I really am as Life never fails/How can Life fail?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am so powerful that I can even wipe myself out, or birth myself as Life - I have the choice and in alignment with who I am as Life I can only choose what is Best for All Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I will be faced with the same situations to see if I stand as what is Best for All - for eternity - Will I be Life in fact or not?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not only about knowing what to do but walking what I know

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that if I need a reason to do what is Best, I can find it in all Life to come live in this planet after me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes instead of realising that if I make a mistake I just 'take another take'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am anything less than Life in fact -- and if I see that I am not Life yet I will not waste one breath until birthing myself as Life in fact and until All Life is honoured equally.

Day 237: Writing myself to Life - Righting Myself to Life

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I write myself to Life I do not right myself to Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to belief I don't have anything to share or talk about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the countless issues humans face that I can talk about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every day that I write counts.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'just living' is in fact accepting and allowing the abuse on Earth to continue on a massive scale.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that 'just living' is 'just abusing' in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have a voice and two hands and I should use them to do what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I do something, nothing will happen in my life that could have benefitted others and in turn others in a chain reaction of change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the potential and power of chain reactions of self-change - where others change from your change to the next person and next person.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I do NOT stand up for myself as what is Best for All = many will not stand up as well because of ME.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that unless I stand up for change = I am supporting abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and undersand that the pursuit of happiness is in fact self interest as ego and while one can create a fulfilling life for oneself that must include standing up for what is Best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be 'ready' to stand up for myself when in fact it is just an excuse as one can stand up for oneself at any one single breath.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to utilize the tools of self-forgiveness, self-honesty and practical application in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not alone in this reality and that I should support all other forms of Life until All Life is supported Equally.

Day 236: Nothing Above or Below

 

There is nothing above or below, no greater being or lesser being - the only thing that is real is Equality - Equals as Life. Yet this is not lived on Earth, so we must make it so.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there is no one above me or below me, only equals as Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I am, as Life, equally an authority as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand what it implies that there is no one above, or below but only equals

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am above others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am under others or less than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am Equal as Life and should remind others that they are Equals to me as Life as well

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that life on Earth as it exists currently is an abomination - where Life is not honoured in each one as equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this realisation is useless.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that seeing that there is no one above or below myself means I have to take complete self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take complete self responsibility for All Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for myself as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if there is no one above or below myself - I am everithing that exists then.

I commit myself to share the common sense perspective that we are all Life and there is no more or less Life in each of us - but to the extent that we honour it in others

I commit myself to remind myself that there is no one above myself, nor below myself - all Equals

Day 235: Money and Impassibility

When there is no money in the pockets, no food on the table, then we cry out at how this world is so unjust, while when we have more than enough money, there is the risk of slipping into impassibility, not caring so much as if the problems we are facing as humanity don't go with us, do not concern us. Right? Wrong. When the bubble of money is bursted then we will live with the weight of knowing we did not do all that we could to change the position of those without money in this world, while we still could - or we will join them -- our choice. Either we erradicate poverty or end up with the poor incapable of making the change - no one guarantees the shield that is money at the moment, and when it is gone, it is too late as in when you are homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the risk of 'not caring' because I have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to do all that I can to put into place systems so that everyone is supported so that I am supported too through every situation equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is very easy to end up homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am one and equal to those that suffer here on earth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to invest in myself so that I am my best self so that I can have an effect on my reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have money I can turn a blind eye to the problem that is not having money in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am all that exists in this world, and that I am the homeless as well - as in any moment the tables can turn and I can end up homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to turn a blind eye on the world when I have comfort due to having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up on everything but yet want to retain the control of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to not care about anything, yet make sure I have money.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the game of money of winners and losers costs almost uncountable lives every day, and should be fixed as it is a rigged game as well.

I commit myself to remind myself that having money is not to turn a blind eye to the problems of the world but to be able to work on solutions.

Day 234: Nothing Else Matters

But what I can live as an example. Showing what is possible. Being the change that I want to see in this world.

It is not about externalizing the change saying others must change, but about being the change itself, in how I live and my daily decisions that accumulate what is Best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing at living.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I am dead I can implement change in my daily living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to change instead of me changing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be the change that I want to see in this world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to apply myself to change myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the past in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be and become so much more that I am in this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses as to why I cannot change apparently.

I forgive  myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a failure.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am in fact always changing, but I have to make sure it is in the direction of What is Best, not backwards

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every moment is an opportunity to grow and expand myself as well as diminish myself if I accept and allow that

I commit myself to support myself to become the best version of myself

I commit myself to be patient yet firm with myself

Day 233: The Pelican Message

When Life seemingly turns your back on you, debris all around you, usual methods to cope are to simply give up for a moment and then, verify where this is really coming from. Life is sound, drum it. If you don't play its song nothing will come, leisure is good up to a point, when you are entertained, merit would be awarded to you if you don't linger in it.

So, solution would be to even if you get bit by for example, spider bite - and get rather agitated and - in a word, angry - remember the story of that animal, pelican that escaped from the zoo and was later spotted far away enjoying life. Was it difficult  for the pelican to escape? It was a decision made at that time when that moment, hour or minute - when it was harder to stay in the cage than fly away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear escaping my own cage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that freedom is a decision away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put fear as an excuse to not stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself unconditionally 

I commit myself to set myself free from all enslavement

I commit myself to support myself to set myself free and until all are free

I commit myself to understand myself yet not take any shit from myself

I commit myself to not stop until I am free and all are free