Day 236: Nothing Above or Below

 

There is nothing above or below, no greater being or lesser being - the only thing that is real is Equality - Equals as Life. Yet this is not lived on Earth, so we must make it so.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there is no one above me or below me, only equals as Life.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that I am, as Life, equally an authority as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand what it implies that there is no one above, or below but only equals

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am above others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am under others or less than others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am Equal as Life and should remind others that they are Equals to me as Life as well

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that life on Earth as it exists currently is an abomination - where Life is not honoured in each one as equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe this realisation is useless.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that seeing that there is no one above or below myself means I have to take complete self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take complete self responsibility for All Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for myself as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if there is no one above or below myself - I am everithing that exists then.

I commit myself to share the common sense perspective that we are all Life and there is no more or less Life in each of us - but to the extent that we honour it in others

I commit myself to remind myself that there is no one above myself, nor below myself - all Equals

Day 235: Money and Impassibility

When there is no money in the pockets, no food on the table, then we cry out at how this world is so unjust, while when we have more than enough money, there is the risk of slipping into impassibility, not caring so much as if the problems we are facing as humanity don't go with us, do not concern us. Right? Wrong. When the bubble of money is bursted then we will live with the weight of knowing we did not do all that we could to change the position of those without money in this world, while we still could - or we will join them -- our choice. Either we erradicate poverty or end up with the poor incapable of making the change - no one guarantees the shield that is money at the moment, and when it is gone, it is too late as in when you are homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the risk of 'not caring' because I have money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to do all that I can to put into place systems so that everyone is supported so that I am supported too through every situation equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is very easy to end up homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am one and equal to those that suffer here on earth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to invest in myself so that I am my best self so that I can have an effect on my reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I have money I can turn a blind eye to the problem that is not having money in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am all that exists in this world, and that I am the homeless as well - as in any moment the tables can turn and I can end up homeless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to turn a blind eye on the world when I have comfort due to having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up on everything but yet want to retain the control of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to not care about anything, yet make sure I have money.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that the game of money of winners and losers costs almost uncountable lives every day, and should be fixed as it is a rigged game as well.

I commit myself to remind myself that having money is not to turn a blind eye to the problems of the world but to be able to work on solutions.

Day 234: Nothing Else Matters

But what I can live as an example. Showing what is possible. Being the change that I want to see in this world.

It is not about externalizing the change saying others must change, but about being the change itself, in how I live and my daily decisions that accumulate what is Best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing at living.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that unless I am dead I can implement change in my daily living.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to change instead of me changing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be the change that I want to see in this world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to apply myself to change myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to let go of the past in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I can be and become so much more that I am in this moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses as to why I cannot change apparently.

I forgive  myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a failure.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to change.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am in fact always changing, but I have to make sure it is in the direction of What is Best, not backwards

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that every moment is an opportunity to grow and expand myself as well as diminish myself if I accept and allow that

I commit myself to support myself to become the best version of myself

I commit myself to be patient yet firm with myself

Day 233: The Pelican Message

When Life seemingly turns your back on you, debris all around you, usual methods to cope are to simply give up for a moment and then, verify where this is really coming from. Life is sound, drum it. If you don't play its song nothing will come, leisure is good up to a point, when you are entertained, merit would be awarded to you if you don't linger in it.

So, solution would be to even if you get bit by for example, spider bite - and get rather agitated and - in a word, angry - remember the story of that animal, pelican that escaped from the zoo and was later spotted far away enjoying life. Was it difficult  for the pelican to escape? It was a decision made at that time when that moment, hour or minute - when it was harder to stay in the cage than fly away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear escaping my own cage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that freedom is a decision away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put fear as an excuse to not stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself unconditionally 

I commit myself to set myself free from all enslavement

I commit myself to support myself to set myself free and until all are free

I commit myself to understand myself yet not take any shit from myself

I commit myself to not stop until I am free and all are free

Day 232: The Apex

What is my highest point? My apex. That for which I strive? It used to be so high that I felt miserable. Instead the apex is right here in every moment, it is what is Here. There is nothing else, the future is not yet here, and the past is not longer here.

What it means to be Here? Everyone has to find out.

Certainly, it is not being in the past or the future - aka in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the apex is Here in every moment of breath, being here in every moment of breath - as there is nothing else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to torture myself because apparently I should be somewhere else than where I am in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I must achieve something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am in a bad position.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am exactly where I need to be and if I am not, I should do something about it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be living in the mind as past and future, constantly worrying about both.

I commit myself to be Here in every moment of breath.

I commit myself to remind myself that there is no greater apex than every moment of breath Here.

I commit myself to remind myself that the apex of my life is in every moment of breath.

I commit myself to see, realise and understand that there is no greater summit than every moment of breath Here

I commit myself to remind myself that there is nothing else to achieve than being Here in every moment of breath, and direct myself within what is Best for All within this breath.

I commit myself to remind myself that if I am not located elsewhere is because I need to be where I am because practically I have placed myself in this poisition - so it is up to me to place myself elsewhere.

I commit myself to remind myself that thinking I should be elsewhere is madness

Day 231: The Fraud

I changed the title of the blog several times now, so I will leave it empty for now and write the blog instead. My experience is that in a way, I feel like fraud, a degree of inadequacy, because I believe I have not yet achieved, attained. Then I remember that this is a process. I am in a process, so to beat me up because I have not arrived somewhere is nonsense. What I would like is that I am able to always act in word, deed and thought as what is Best for all - it is a process. Because I see that I don't always act in word, deed and thought as what is Best for All - this is the reason I feel like a fraud. I would like my mind to be empty, I have to empty it. I would like my words to be clear, I have to make them clear, I would like to give myself direction in a way that is Best, so I have to give myself direction in a way that is Best.

I stop wanting others to do what I know I can do. I stop wanting outside change, when inner change is possible - and the only way. It is astounding how well I know - and I say it because I have observed it over the years not because I am flaunting - how well I know what to do. I know exactly what to do. The fraud would be, the fraud can only be self-fraud, where I don't do what I know that I have to do and present myself as if I have done the work. This is impossible because as long as I don't do the work  - on myself - I will be reminded daily by my day to day living that I have not changed and thus why I feel like a fraud.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the moment that I see my own deception as so big that I cannot stand it, then I will start to walk my process effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that the bridge between where I am and where I could be will be so great that I will have no option other than to walk through the bridge.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realise and understand that there is nowhere to hide from my own realisations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect myself in my process of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose the old over the new

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose not changing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that change is a decision away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to make steps, even if they are babysteps towards where I know I must go and do

I commit myself to go easy on myself yet firm, in walking what I know I can walk

I commit myself to redeem myself by knowing what I have always known I have to walk

I commit myself to step into the unknown of always acting in word, deed and thought as what is Best for All

I commit myself to not only stop the old, but create the new

I commit myself to remind myself that it is not only about not doing and becoming a saint, but about doing practically what is best for me within what is best for All

Day 230: Missing the Point

In trying to be successful, I have been a failure - I was missing the point. It is to not expect results that results come. I had to finally let go, after being very deep in failure, to let go of this wanting to be successful that a form of functionality has appeared in my life, by simply doing, and not expecting anything because nothing is guaranteed in this world, even if you put your best effort. Not saying that it is   to not put the best effort, but not to expect the result. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to be known

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to become known in order for me to be a success

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my life to be a certain way to believe that I have achieved something when it is not so in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to be successful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be successful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fame and money is the goal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect of me to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put the burden of the world on my shoulders to which I invariably would quit

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that any expectation makes me miss the point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the arrogance to believe that if I become successful I can change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to become successful in order to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself from being successful in order to not have to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being ordinary, in this world yet not of this world, is the way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there are no conditions to self realize

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I don't know how I am going to assist in changing the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect self-change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the common sense of walking the tools to change myself instead of half-assedly applying the tools and expect to change myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the common sense in doing to get things done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk my process effectively within the common sense realization that I can change myself if I give myself the opportunity

Day 229: I Need a Break

 From TV, eventhough I don't have, or propaganda in general. The world nowadays is full of lies in the media, full-scale hypnotism to get ourselves trapped in thinking what is the next enemy. Corona, war - what is next?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get trapped in the media propaganda 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is a threat or an enemy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there is no enemy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the pointing finger to the enemy Is the enemy, if ever has to be one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear

Now that I got this out of the way, because really it is simply a small - yet seemingly big - obstacle I will change to talk about creation, what is the world that we want to have and leave for the children to come?

We have to be clear here, a nation that is free from war, poverty, abuse in general is a prosper and proper nation. It is simply to achieve this with introducing a system whereas everyone is supported from birth until death, with a form of a basic income. This was early shared by Bernard Poolman, an Equal Money System, where life is the value, where life is valued and taken care of, at the individual level everyone has food, shelter, education and a standard of life that would be and can be akin to one of a millionaire - not billionaire -.

This is possible due to the high levels of automation we have nowadays, with our food production levels being able to feed already the whole of the world, a mere implementation of proper distribution would make this possible. And the production of goods, which would change to make products to last as much as tecnically possible, that is a liftime or more for any products produced.

I am not talking utopia, because what we have right now is a very high level of mass production which is used to produce things that break, and we live in a resource-finite planet - so it doesn't make sense.

We need a break form all of this, and this is only possible through an Equal Money System.

Day 228: I am sorry

I wrote this blog about a month ago or more but I haven't had the courage to post it until now, it is about how we can direct our reality before it is too late - death -, and the only solution I realize now is self forgiveness and self change. Here it is:

I am sorry because that is the only thing I can say, and from here corect myself. This life could be heaven for everyone, we simply have to admit to our wrongdoings and inactions and correct ourselves. 

For example myself, I've participated so much in time wasting and otherwise bullshit activities where I could be supporting myself to become the best version of myself.

Today I have had multiple dreams, when I would wake up, I was again dreaming, then I would do something in the dream to check if I was in reality, and my test would test that it was reality but then - boom - I would wake up in my bed again. This made me think that all I can say is sorry. 

Sorry because I can change, we can change and yet mostly I've not been doing so, and then change the outside as well.

Because one day we will die, and wake up like in a dream, but we will not be able to go back Here in Matter. So I say I am sorry, that I will no longer procrastinate and leave things to chance, that I will direct my reality to a reality that is Best for All, this is a shared reality, not my reality inside my mind, no, we are all in the same reality, as we will have what we directly and indirectly create.

Because if like a dream, this life, this reality is able to be directed to a point that is Best for everyone - if we don't do it it will continue to be hell on Earth.

If you realize that you want to say sorry as well, because you see that this life, in this life, there are no external forces that control you, only if you allow it. All comes from within - In some dreams you can direct what to do, in this reality on Earth it is the same, you can decide. 

Why I say I am sorry? Because I can do so much. Because I allowed so much, I allowed my participation in so much bull shit. While I could have participated in so much else that creates change for the better. And from here I in this moment commit myself to stop all bullshit and start creation as what is Best for All.

This reality is a 3D reality, there is limitation, yes, but it is not unlike a dream in terms of directiveness, as in in some dreams, you can direct reality, inner and outer reality.

So I am sorry because I am not alone and powerless, I have and have had much support over the years to change myself and I have put one percent of effort on my part. 

But it is not to cry over spilled milk, no, but to correct myself is the next step. Correct myself in every moment of breath. It is a process.

Day 227: Possibilities in this Life

The word 'death' popped up in TechnoTutor, and it made me think, that at death the BIG regret is POSSIBILITY - what I could have been and become in this life but I didn't, because the possibility was right there for me but I didn't take it, the possibility for me to be and become more within a world that can be and become more. 

In my life I have not gone for any real opportunity, over the years I have simply been skipping by, living by, without a real ambition for myself other than a wish for Equality in the world, but wishes never become real without hard work.

At points then it is easy to think about giving up when seeing not much that I can show for myself, but then the word Possibility comes up, as the possibility is still Great - more great than what I have achieved so far and that if I die this potential is lost.

If I have to remember one thing is that it is not what I have or am at the moment but what I can be and become in this one life I have been given, and since it can stop in any moment, to not waste a breath - but to invest it to being and becoming the best version of myself.

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Day 226: Positive Results & Open Oportunities

What does it look like like 'truly living'? Is there a formula for living to the fullest extent, to living to my utmost potential. Like a plant, that develops it's root systems before shooting up, I think that I should develop my roots as well, and that is the roots of knowing myself to then design myself to my fullest potential -- to become an effective human being, what are the things to have into consideration? My hability to process information that would be one thing to have into consideration, so to maximize my effectivity in this world I should have a high information processing hability, then put it into any field will yeld positive results. 

There is no much else to do, really, but to improve oneself. Because whatever I do, who is it doing it? Me -- this me is what I have to work on because ultimately it is what I will use to work on anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want new results without improving myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the obvious in the need of improving myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am here as breath no matter where in my developmental phase I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my stage of learning that I am without seeing realizing and understanding that I am where I need to be

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I am not anywhere else is because I didn't know better

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I am not anywhere else is because I couldn't do better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I didn't have a real opportunity up until today - or if I had I didn't know how to use it - or if I did know I didn't use it - and if I didn't use it I don't judge myself or it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about past oportunities that are already dead without looking for Alive opportunities Today

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to look for open opportunities where I can go in and do the utmost use of them.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself that I have to prepare myself because only the prepared are presented with the opportunities. 

I commit myself to prepare myself so that I can walk any opportunity that opens up for myself.

I commit myself to develop myself so that I am prepared to jump in and walk into a new opportunity.

I commit myself to spend time in developing myself effectively with the tools I have available.

I commit myself to remind myself to develop myself daily.

I commit myself to let go of my self definition and instead create a new me in every moment.

Day 225: Chain of Events to the Present

 

Walk the talk, and so I walk, regardless of how many days I have missed, every day is a new opportunity to write. No need to obsess myself so much with the chain of events, meaning the past, as if in I have not written for a couple of days somehow I am cursed lol. Instead I will write on a given day if I can, without looking back at how many days I have missed, and so giving me the opportunity to write unconditionally.

It is interesting how we or I can use the past to condition our present. So use the past as an excuse. But instead I can forget about the past and simply do what is best, in every moment, regardless.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the past as an excuse to not write, as an excuse to condition my present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the Present in present as in the gift in present where it is a gift that is given to me unconditionally for me to do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to taint my Present with my Past - where I don't have to do that in fact.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to enjoy my Present as the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look back at the Past during my Present and let that influence my present negatively.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that looking back has to be done to learn form my past not to influence my Present in any other way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give importance to the chain of events to the present whereas in fact it is not important as in every single breath I can change completely, in any given breath of the Present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow memories as the past to influence my Present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that to truly be free I have to let go of the past and live completely in the Present as every breath Here.

I commit myself to let go of the past in every breath and live unconditinally in the Present that is the present.

Day 224: Creative Powers

Bipolar is fun - but has consequences -, that is the highs, thats why myself and others, there was a time that I didn't want to take medication for it. Because medication can make you feel normal - how horrible! - Or low, which is worse.

Because when I was in a manic high I could from my point of view, do anything, achieve anything and talk to anyone super elocuently. Eventhough I might come out as a nut to other people, I had a high drive and belief that I could do anything!

Because I could believe I was able to do anything, I would go for dubvious ventures that were out of the scope, like a supermarket chain once for example, I believed I could create that. And as time progressed then I wold think something else so nothing was done. 

But in terms of communication, I was able to communicate more with other people, even do some magic tricks with money on the spot (see speending too much money), so basically I had a lot of fun in my manic highs of bipolar.

I want to move this pure, raw belief in myself to my day to day life where I am on a normal state. Because what can one be able to accomplish with pure belief in oneself and with detailed action that not being manic gives you.

A realisation: I am not two persons, one manic and one normal or non-manic. I am one person, and whatever I was able to do while manic I can do while 'normal'.

When I was manic I had this radical belief in myself, that I could do anything, all encompassing and so big that I felt so good and everything I put myself to do, I would trust myself completely, like playing a piano in a restaurant, eventhough I didn't take one piano lesson in my life I did that.

So with that my creative powers were heightened because:

- I believed in myself 100%

- I thought I could do and achieve anything

- I wanted to have fun and others have fun with me

That is the key points.

See how interesting it is the third point: Once I believe that I can do and achieve anything there is one thing that arises and it is: To have fun. I wanted to have fun and have all others have fun with me, so I would for example share and be more active in Instagram with my adventures and I got feedback that people enjoyed it.

So once we break the barriers that we cannot change this world and we in fact believe and do it, the next point will be Having Fun together.

Disclaimer: Hipomania can lead to full blown mania, psych hospitalization and loss of money in many cases (overspending).